HPS Shannon said:
Well to make it brief, they started making me feel as though I didn't want to interact or come on the forums-- feeling anxiety and worry when I log on. Also making feel like I didnt want to part of the clergyhood anymore. They have done this many times before. I hate it. But they do it in a way that feels like its my own thoughts.
Whenever I would find out information that made me feel confident and happy especially with the black race, it starts. I know the patterns already.
They also made me feel negative thoughts about another satanist. We talk on the phone and text, and I have been feeling like I didnt want to associate with him and being angry with him. And yesterday he told me he got the same thoughts about me recently. Its bad.
The enemy attacks I have been getting aren't as strong as they were before, but I can tell the enemy is still trying. Their attacks dont work with me with the race thing anymore so now they are trying different things.
I've experienced what you're feeling about the whole worry coming onto the forums. Where you're quiet for a while just passively meditating in the background of things and suddenly when you think about going on the forums to see what's up you're hit with a spike of anxiety and dread and you're afraid to know what's been going on on the forum. I don't think this specifically is an enemy attack, more like adrenaline anxiety in bracing of dealing with any internal arguing or fights that you expect to stress you out again, or you're expecting something bad to have been going on in your absence. I've had to push through this many times in the past, you just have to force through it. Those who persevere though fear are rewarded, don't forget that.
As for everything else you've stated, definitely enemy attack. What they're doing is they're severing that energy bond on the astral between you two. Remember how we create ties on the astral with people we associate strongly with? Whether positive or negative? It can be destroyed and you can be influenced to actually be repelled by the tie as well. I don't believe I need to tell you to do a thorough cleansing of the actual bond and link itself as well as for both of you and your own souls. Also focus on the energy of your bond between the two of you, spend several minutes or as long as you want visualizing and focusing intensely on that golden energy link that connects you both and enforce it's power and build it again and strengthen it. Building more positivity between the both of you whether it be hanging out or chatting about something you both love or doing something fun together will also help build that connection up again.
Remember that bonds and friendships are more than physical, they are very spiritual as well. Everything reflects somehow on both sides of the astral and physical,
everything. Don't let the destruction of one side tear apart the whole picture.