Somehow this topic didn't get through...Don't know why... maybe yahoo screwed up again.Anyway, I'd like to hear from You my Family xD Hail Satan and all the true Gods!
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike
From: Mike <misza2@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Thursday, February 9, 2012 7:20 PM
Subject: a bit of a problem
Hail Brothers and Sisters.This is going to be rather long. Telling you right at the beginning in case You don't want to waste your time.Now a bit of a background. I did write about some of that some time ago but things has changed a bit. I got into the "occult" back when I was still a kid (primary school), was even trying to meditate a bit but it didn't work out. Later, once a teenager, I came back to meditation and even managed to keep it going for a few months (like two or three) but in the end, quit again. guess I just got bored when I couldn't see any results (spectacular results as I was probably expecting back then). The thing is, even back then, every time I managed to get a bit deeper into the meditation and managed to focus enough, the temples' pressure was setting in. It wasn't anything extraordinary, just a bit of pressure and that was mostly it.I decided to get back to meditation (this time for sure) around June last year and have been more or less consistent with it. About a month later (I'm not exactly sure about the date, I can remember though that it was last year summer) I've stumbled upon the JoS website and from then on, I keep meditating every day, no slacking
With the coming of winter months, I've decided to increase on the frequency of meditations. Right now I meditate three times a day, not counting Hatha and Kundalini Yoga (as an unemployed, I have the time... for now). Anyway, that slight pressure I kept feeling didn't vanish along with my practice. It actually did spread to my forhead first, later on onto my whole head. Right now, every time i manage to properly focus and "stay" deeper in a meditation, my head feels as if it was pumped up with a pressured air and almost ready to explode. Sometimes the feeling spreads to my neck as well. But I thought, OK, I can just ignore it. Lately however, the pain showed up. It feels as if the center of my brain is stabbed with something sharp. Fortunately, it is very brief (for now), doesn't last longer than a second... A sharp pain of ears also sometimes follows. After the pain is gone, my head feels as if it carries a bucket of rocks inside. Not to mention that the pressure all around and inside the head is a lot stronger and more annoying than before.It came to the point when I can't really feel anything anywhere else besides my head. Not even a single chakra (except the Root which seems to be unaffected). I'm in the middle of opening chakras and honestly, the only chakra I could feel at all was my Crown and to the lesser degree, third eye (yes, all of them are head chakras). However, it is nowhere near the pleasurable feelings or lightness or any other sense of tingling/energizing. It's more crawly, like the one You can feel on Your skin when shivering from cold. And then chakra starts to produce pressure and later on, if I keep long enough, pain. Afterwards, it feels like... empty or burnt-out. Sorry, I can't describe it any better. Now I wouldn't mind that if not for one thing: it is disturbing and distracting. I basically can't feel anything else (like other chakras) when that happens because that's the strongest sensation in my body and I naturally turn my attention towards it.OK, that was long. Basically: should I just ignore it, endure and keep pushing or rather rethink my actions and strategy and/or seriously ask for help.
PS: Some time ago I got an e-mail from a person by the name Devanna Luchien (was a bit cautious as I couldn't find any posts on the group). This is it's content: "Sometimes outside forces will attempt to interfere with a true Satanist who shows promise of furture great power.I believe this is whats happening to you. Go to http://houseofenki66623.com you have to type this site in the address bar at the very top of page to get there. Become a member and get a copy of the demonic bible downloaded to your computer. All the books on this site are on PDF. What your describeing is in the demonic bible and how to make it stop. Let me know how it turns out for you.Hail SatanYour SisterDevanna"Now, could that be it? Does it even happen?
Thank You all for Your insights. Hail Satan and all the true Gods!
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike
From: Mike <misza2@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Thursday, February 9, 2012 7:20 PM
Subject: a bit of a problem
Hail Brothers and Sisters.This is going to be rather long. Telling you right at the beginning in case You don't want to waste your time.Now a bit of a background. I did write about some of that some time ago but things has changed a bit. I got into the "occult" back when I was still a kid (primary school), was even trying to meditate a bit but it didn't work out. Later, once a teenager, I came back to meditation and even managed to keep it going for a few months (like two or three) but in the end, quit again. guess I just got bored when I couldn't see any results (spectacular results as I was probably expecting back then). The thing is, even back then, every time I managed to get a bit deeper into the meditation and managed to focus enough, the temples' pressure was setting in. It wasn't anything extraordinary, just a bit of pressure and that was mostly it.I decided to get back to meditation (this time for sure) around June last year and have been more or less consistent with it. About a month later (I'm not exactly sure about the date, I can remember though that it was last year summer) I've stumbled upon the JoS website and from then on, I keep meditating every day, no slacking
With the coming of winter months, I've decided to increase on the frequency of meditations. Right now I meditate three times a day, not counting Hatha and Kundalini Yoga (as an unemployed, I have the time... for now). Anyway, that slight pressure I kept feeling didn't vanish along with my practice. It actually did spread to my forhead first, later on onto my whole head. Right now, every time i manage to properly focus and "stay" deeper in a meditation, my head feels as if it was pumped up with a pressured air and almost ready to explode. Sometimes the feeling spreads to my neck as well. But I thought, OK, I can just ignore it. Lately however, the pain showed up. It feels as if the center of my brain is stabbed with something sharp. Fortunately, it is very brief (for now), doesn't last longer than a second... A sharp pain of ears also sometimes follows. After the pain is gone, my head feels as if it carries a bucket of rocks inside. Not to mention that the pressure all around and inside the head is a lot stronger and more annoying than before.It came to the point when I can't really feel anything anywhere else besides my head. Not even a single chakra (except the Root which seems to be unaffected). I'm in the middle of opening chakras and honestly, the only chakra I could feel at all was my Crown and to the lesser degree, third eye (yes, all of them are head chakras). However, it is nowhere near the pleasurable feelings or lightness or any other sense of tingling/energizing. It's more crawly, like the one You can feel on Your skin when shivering from cold. And then chakra starts to produce pressure and later on, if I keep long enough, pain. Afterwards, it feels like... empty or burnt-out. Sorry, I can't describe it any better. Now I wouldn't mind that if not for one thing: it is disturbing and distracting. I basically can't feel anything else (like other chakras) when that happens because that's the strongest sensation in my body and I naturally turn my attention towards it.OK, that was long. Basically: should I just ignore it, endure and keep pushing or rather rethink my actions and strategy and/or seriously ask for help.PS: Some time ago I got an e-mail from a person by the name Devanna Luchien (was a bit cautious as I couldn't find any posts on the group). This is it's content: "Sometimes outside forces will attempt to interfere with a true Satanist who shows promise of furture great power.I believe this is whats happening to you. Go to http://houseofenki66623.com you have to type this site in the address bar at the very top of page to get there. Become a member and get a copy of the demonic bible downloaded to your computer. All the books on this site are on PDF. What your describeing is in the demonic bible and how to make it stop. Let me know how it turns out for you.Hail SatanYour SisterDevanna"Now, could that be it? Does it even happen?
Thank You all for Your insights. Hail Satan and all the true Gods!
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike
