chris41226
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when i first started to dabble in SS i had two visions i was a trance and i hade a vision that i was trance ported to a battlefield its was greek ruins surrounded by a black void and it feelt like it was actually happening and the gods where there and so where other brothers and sisters of us and it was a all out war to destroy a powerful gray
it seemed to me that others knew who i was and told me to stay back because i was at a vary low spiritual lvl at the time but i keeped fighting on even know i couldnt raise my spiritual energy and im not shure if it was a trick from a gray but one of my ex friends appeared and we begin to battle and he changed into a monstrous beast like in the horror movies and even know i didnt have power i still over came it and we all won thanks to me bc i refused to give up even know i was with out any power.
its comfuzing sometime on what i see when i go into a trance or have a vision and i haven't had a vision like that ever since but the other vision was three angelic grays battling on the out side of earth and my kindalini was under the earth alseep and i hade to over come the angels and bind the third one and cast him into the deeps of space
it seemed like i hade alot of visions and battles to over come at the beginning but now it seems like my mind is empty and iv lost alot of connection to the physical world now and im always empty with out any motivations or wants to keep pressing on in training the most powerful feeling i have now is wanting to leave the physical world bc i feel like i have no use for it bc i dont desire any thing on it and i would rather guide others to Father threw my astral body so that at least when one duznt want or need my help i dont have to feel like im traped and waiting for another person to come along needing my help i have a vary old way of looking at the world and everything about me is vary serious to the old ways and i have a vary hade time adapting to the world around me?
if anyone can help me figure out why i feel like this it would help me vary much bc its causing me vary much stress that i cant enjoy life in this time and age its all to simple to live in and i cant find the motivation to live in the physical realm any more?
it seemed to me that others knew who i was and told me to stay back because i was at a vary low spiritual lvl at the time but i keeped fighting on even know i couldnt raise my spiritual energy and im not shure if it was a trick from a gray but one of my ex friends appeared and we begin to battle and he changed into a monstrous beast like in the horror movies and even know i didnt have power i still over came it and we all won thanks to me bc i refused to give up even know i was with out any power.
its comfuzing sometime on what i see when i go into a trance or have a vision and i haven't had a vision like that ever since but the other vision was three angelic grays battling on the out side of earth and my kindalini was under the earth alseep and i hade to over come the angels and bind the third one and cast him into the deeps of space
it seemed like i hade alot of visions and battles to over come at the beginning but now it seems like my mind is empty and iv lost alot of connection to the physical world now and im always empty with out any motivations or wants to keep pressing on in training the most powerful feeling i have now is wanting to leave the physical world bc i feel like i have no use for it bc i dont desire any thing on it and i would rather guide others to Father threw my astral body so that at least when one duznt want or need my help i dont have to feel like im traped and waiting for another person to come along needing my help i have a vary old way of looking at the world and everything about me is vary serious to the old ways and i have a vary hade time adapting to the world around me?
if anyone can help me figure out why i feel like this it would help me vary much bc its causing me vary much stress that i cant enjoy life in this time and age its all to simple to live in and i cant find the motivation to live in the physical realm any more?
