Pressure

[meyer_alissa]

Why should I stay inside during a full moon? I like full moons. I believe there is a blue coming up in July. I am super excited. Of course, I don't go outside much. As much as I prefer night over day, the weirdos come out at night. I was viciously attacked once. Don't need that again. 
Hail Lucifer Forever!

 

[fake name]

I second that, nick.
My negative energies are so fucking strong when I get pissed off that I cause all kinds of disasters from people going insane in my presence to CARTOONISH chains of freak accidents, to everything I touch basically exploding or flying off in random directions.
If you are unsure whether bad things around you are your own doing or not, check your mood for one.
If you are angry or afraid or in a negative rut this can easily cause misfortune for you and everyone around you at higher levels of energy and development




  @call_me_something_else
I think it's a good idea to be careful not to associate everything suspicious or negative with an enemy attack. I have seen this in these groups where some people react to the smallest things like their computer not wanting to update or whatever. I know people here do get occasional attacks by spirits, poos and other degenerates, but it's important to learn how to distinguish a bad day from an attack. Because the more you dwell on stuff like that, the more you attract it. I for one had a bad experience once. This means, unfortunately, I sometimes have to remind myself that not everyone with an above average amount of bioelectricity and mind power is out to get me. I do my best to try and turn it into awareness instead.
A thing to be aware of, though, are psychic vampires.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

@Alissa: Forget it, you didn't get the joke

 

[meyer_alissa]

I'm not surprised. I am not good with jokes and social cues. In fact, I am just terrible with people. I swear I have a talent for causing arguments. Anyway, I don't think I'm being attacked. I'm not that special and angels probably don't want to waste their time on me. I am not powerful nor am I easily swayed. The scent of smoke has actually dissipated, but that could be because I'm sick. 
Hail Lucifer Forever!

 

[call_me_something_else]

Hey Alissa, are you still doing your meditations?

 

[call_me_something_else]

Alissa, the not yet powerful are their favorite targets.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

No, it's just a self esteem issue you have. It's pretty obvious when someone says "I'm" and goes on to give a whole lot of negative things about himself. All these are affirmations and really do affect your life. It's pretty much like using magick to restrict yourself and make yourself stupid or something.

 

[meyer_alissa]

I am meditating. I have to do it before bed because I am always bursting with energy when I'm fully awake. I can't sit down long enough to meditate if I'm itching to move. I admit I have some self-esteem issues. It's hard to have faith in myself when everyone in my life has made it clear how much of an ugly, useless, failure I am. I feel that my throat chakra is the strongest at the moment. My third-eye chakra seems... I don't know... bigger? How will I know when it's open?
Hail Lucifer Five-ever!

 

[call_me_something_else]

@Alissa, consistent meditation will help you otgrow both the inability to relax and the "self-esteem" issues. Keep trying.

Besides, they're not so much "issues" as they are entire subscriptions.

Hail Father Satan, the bearer of Truth and knowledge.

 

[centralforce6661]

My experience with an overly active throat chakra is that it tends to make one speak without thinking, usually to some sort of excess. This is because the energy which is out of balance is that of its pair the solar chakra. The energy is so great around the throat that it takes from the solar which reduces the willpower, which the solar chakra rules. This would also explain your inability to sit and meditate, because the will power is weak. Exercise this and empower your solar chakra if any of what I have said above applies to you.

And before everyone gets up in arms about the solar chakra and the third eye and the throat chakra... The  pair in an UNFINISHED soul to the solar chakra is the throat chakra. The link between the solar and the third eye is something we must create through meditation (king and queen, solar/pineal breathing etc.) in order to unite the Sun and Moon chakras so that our soul can be FINISHED.

 

[call_me_something_else]

@centralforce666 about the throat chakra...

That makes so much sense and is well put.

Thank you.

 

[meyer_alissa]

So should I start focusing on my solar chakra? Should I focus on strengthening one at a time? The only time I can meditate is when I am laying in bed. 
Hail Lucifer Forever!

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Why his wife though?? You didn't say she had anything to do with rape or whatever else.

 

[call_me_something_else]

Do the chakras you feel you need.

And, as you grow in strength, you'll notice a point when you want to medititate at other points than lying down. But be patient with yourself right now.

At first I needed total solitude and quiet then, one day, events turned to where I had none of either and, ended up being able to meditate through noise and multiple distractions. I can even visualize with eyes wide open, now.

It gets easier because you get stronger.

And - I should've said earlier - I hope your sister finds justice.

 

[call_me_something_else]

Well, if she knows and accepts it, she does kind of become an accessory after-the-fact.

Kinda. If she knows.

 

[call_me_something_else]

Well, okay.

 

[Johnathan Mial]

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[Magus Immortalis]

Look under the Files section on any Joy of Satan Yahoo group.



 
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[fake name]

sometimes I can't tell is alissa is serious or just joking......




  @Alissa: Then your emotions are fucked up. And I'm not kidding either. You seriously need to balance your soul.

 

[meyer_alissa]

I do have emotions! I can only feel them when someone riles me up. Then my subconscious shuts them down. It's a self-protection thing. And I became sadistic over time. 

 

[call_me_something_else]

Alissa, consistent meditation will help you out-grow the sadism.

Many of us came to Satan, under mistaken notions, only to discover this really about self-empowerment and freedom and not "being evil."

 

[call_me_something_else]

@fake name, I think she's serious about most things she's saying bt, also trying to use some humor to show sincerity.

Could be good. Could be bad.

Let's just let her reveal herself, for better or worse.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

I never denied that you have emotions. I just said that they're fucked up.

 

[meyer_alissa]

I meditate every night. And I am showing some improvement. A little bit. I watched cat videos yesterday and got upset because I don't have one. I think I cried. I want a cat so bad.
Hail Lord Lucifer!

 

[meyer_alissa]

Yes. Something is wrong with me. I know it. You know it. Every body knows it. 

 

[Ovril REID]

Me as well please.

 
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Sent: Sat, Jun 20, 2015 12:39:36 AM

 

[fake name]

@alissa meditate every few hours to keep a consistent supply of energy going.a little bit every few hours is better as a minimum than dumping it all into just one part of the day




  I meditate every night. And I am showing some improvement. A little bit. I watched cat videos yesterday and got upset because I don't have one. I think I cried. I want a cat so bad.
Hail Lord Lucifer!

 

[call_me_something_else]

Alissa, is it that something is wrong with you or, that you've been manipulated into believing there is?

Before you write yourself off as wrong, consider, you just might be surrounded by assholes.

 

[meyer_alissa]

Who doesn't get emotional over cats? Cats are the best! When I buy a house, I'm going to turn it into a cat's paradise and adopt four cats!The world is made up of assholes! Everyone in the world is a asshole coated asshole with asshole filling. Each one of them has told me that everything about me is wrong and evil. I can't tell you how many times me and my step-dad got into an argument because I refused to go to church.
Hail Lord Lucifer!

 

[meyer_alissa]

@ angryshaman666-Oh man, I LOVE that feeling of being feared. I also love it when I make "good-hearted christians" question their beliefs. Nothing pleased me more than shaking the foundations of their core and watching them tumble to the ground. 
Hail Lucifer Forever! 

 

[dalightskin]

Well I don't like being hated, but I do love that feeling of making people question their own existence and shaking their world all up. I'm actually still in a lot of internet arguments with some sickeningly devoted xians who think they're soooo smart! I give them an A for effort. XD

 

[fake name]

lol yeah. then they stare daggers at you but are too afraid to speak because they know you just used their own bible to prove them idiots.




  @ angryshaman666-Oh man, I LOVE that feeling of being feared. I also love it when I make "good-hearted christians" question their beliefs. Nothing pleased me more than shaking the foundations of their core and watching them tumble to the ground. 
Hail Lucifer Forever!