I have been similar and I have known rather emotional people; hence my Emotional thread, and in similar ways to that I can go a bit against the grain, be a bit unconventional, direct or blunt at times. I don't... well... feel(!) comfortable enough to say something mean to you jokingly, because I don't know you well enough to do so, but if I did and we got on well, I would say something mean in a joking way to you. Depending on my immediate mood at the time, I might be a bit more mean in the hopes of offending you deliberately. Not for my pleasure (maybe!) but (also?) for you to react a way...or not. For you to think about it and realise.
I think you need to toughen yourself up, so you should find things or people or events which piss you off (to a certain extent) and involve yourself with them. I know this is not meditation, which you asked for, but we need to do Physical things as well as Spiritual things, in our work. Spiritual and Physical exercises are both important. For a bit of... cough fun, go to a feminism rally! Find where a christian anti-LGBT parade (or something more important to you) is taking place, and visit it. Better than these, and better than waiting for us to be bestest best (Internet) friends(!), go to military training and be screamed at and made to feel that you are worthless and nothing by the drill instructor!
You might want to seek Lord Carreau, or another's, help. It might not seem as if "your prayer has been answered", but maybe one day, before know it, things would be happening without you realising...and then you'd realise. It also might take a short or a long amount of time for the work to be completed - but of course you must work to balance your emotions, as well. It might not be easy going through this - you have to acknowledge it, grab the bull by the horns and tackle it, instead of trying to avoid it, running away from it. For a time, it might seem - or feel like it is getting worse, but again, like I just said in another thread - no pain, no gain; you need to sweat it out of your system; sweat the imbalance out of you. If you don't like Physical sweat, then that is disgusting for you, but it's also good for you, Spiritually, to get rid of it out of you. Emotions are a lot of energy. You could visualise emotions, similar to the Foundation Breathing but in breathing some (I would do it carefully) out of you, having them hovering around you and gently fizzling them into a clear colour - but better than throwing them away and wasting them, use them for something.
If you are not able to communicate properly with the Daemons and Daemonesses, you might prefer to go through Satan, asking Him for Carreau's (or another's) help. Carreau doesn't have a Sigil on the site, so going through Satan might be the way. You can, of course, also offer any excess emotions to Satan and/or your Guardian Daemon/Daemoness to do with as they please - either ask Them to take them, or focus on Them and Their Sigilm vibrate Their name a few times with the intention of communicating with Them, and then e.g. ball the emotions up and visualise it appearing before them immediately, or feed the emotions into Their Sigil, as an offering for Them to use as They want.
Remember to balance your Elements - and also remember Elemental work can be dangerous, so only do a small amount of Elemental work at a time and pace yourself with it. You don't want, nor need, to eradicate yourself of, or suppress entirely, your emotions. As you know, you need emotions. Be certain that you keep your emotions and that you are in control of your emotions; that you can flare them up when necessary, i.e. when meditating/doing the Rituals/cursing or binding someone, etc.
