mind games?

[Wayofthegods]

Hello, I'm new here.

I've been doing the Spiritual Cleansing ritual for awhile and I've been feeling stabbing pains in random places in my body. Firstly, when I started, I felt wonderful and proud. I felt like I really did something good for humanity.

I also started to hear voices telling me how much they hate me and that I'm Yehuborim potential person of the Gods, some argue back and say I'm a potential person of the Gods.

Are the Gods toying with me?

I know this to be true of myself... if I'm a Yehubor, I'll still side with Satan and his demons. I'll kill myself for them or allow them to destroy me. It will be an absolute honor to die for Satan. I know I'll cease to exist, but I rather them be happy that I'm gone than to make them miserable. I'll die. But if it puts a smile on Father Satan's face, it's all very much worth it.

I'll continue to do the Ritual... even if I am destroyed.

How do i know whether or not my soul is Yehuborim or potential person of the Gods?

Please... I'm so confused. I need an answer.

I'm a beginner in all this.

The Gods would never play with someone like this. This is the enemy.

 

[Russ]

I've also started doing Ritual last day, and everytime I'm doing Ritual my throat hurts so bad but I'm resisting that to finish Ritual, i also don't know why

 

[Sahrot]

I was like you when I'm new to Zevism. I suffered from many kinds of problems including doubting myself Yehuborim. While on that time I could feel my 3rd eye and I think that yehuborim can't do that, I still had many worries about whether I am a Yehubor or not. I was looking into the pictures of my relatives and myself for hours and compared them with strangers. Although I found many evidences that can prove myself not a Yehubor I still had the worries.
The only way to get rid of this confusion is to improve yourself until you are advanced enough so you can know more about yourself.
I'm now more rational and calm than before. If one day I found that I am not potential person of the Gods I won't shock or sad, nor die for Satan. I won't find any comfort if my enemies happy for my death. I fight for my creators until the last step of my journey.

 

[FancyMancy]

I've also started doing Ritual last day, and everytime I'm doing Ritual my throat hurts so bad but I'm resisting that to finish Ritual, i also don't know why

Vibrating Words are not to be growled. Maybe you're just not used to doing them. Try having a nice drink, maybe a warm one, or a lozenge which is nice on your throat before doing the F-Ritual or any other vibrations. After a while, you should manage to do it without hurting your throat.

 

[Henu the Great]

I've also started doing Ritual last day, and everytime I'm doing Ritual my throat hurts so bad but I'm resisting that to finish Ritual, i also don't know why

When I was just starting out I had throat problems from all the Rituals. I usually did 2-6 every day during April and May and then settled for 1-4 at ~June. I think it was curses and/or throat not used to vibrations.

I have not had throat problems when doing Ritual for over three months now. Enemy has tried "am I Yehubor" trick also. Well, that has failed for them... Ememy tries other shit too, but they will ultimately fail on every attack they do against me.

I hope you overcome Yehuborim influence and get stronger and better each and evey day.

Ave Zeus!

 

[Sundara]

About these stabbing pains throughout your body - this happened to me as well. As your soul is freed, I believe our natural energies increase. Your physical body may not be up to par. The instant fix for me is yoga. It can be as simple as a single post that helps with the circulation of energy for the whole body. HP Shannon has recommended Qi Gong, and I stuck with that one.

Physical activity and stretching is important too. Breathing exercises.

Don’t listen to these thoughts in your head. You’ll find a lot of information on the “am I a Yehubor” bullshit on the forums. As you grow with Satan, you may be faced with obstacles but it’s all blessing at the end of the day.