Lunar Dance 666
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Przebiśnieg said:Lunar Dance 666 said:Przebiśnieg said:You are right. After reading some of his stuff, I believe it just broke me, but now I see it's not really worth my nerves. I was observing this forum for a very long time, maybe two years. Still remember some things he was writing, so I know what you're saying. It's not the first time, when he is saying stuff like this and I think you made the right call to finally address this matter. I tried to understand him, I agree with some of his view, but sometimes he is babbling bullshit. When I posted first post on this topic, I was thinking about others SS women, who are here or would want to join here. Imagine now reading his post. Wouldn't you be discouraged to be here? Because I was. I don't know, if there is an option here to block him, but it would save me the nerves. I admire Tabby and jrvan for patience in talking with Jack, because I don't see even a point. I thought it was a good thing that someone finally tried to talk with him, but now I see it's pointless. He stick to his view no matter what, he seems to not be open to others perspective, not even trying to understand others feelings at all, so it seems pointless.
And by the way if you ever would feel bad about yourself or something (like you wrote how you also have these days of lack of confidence) feel free to write to me. I will try to make you feel better and support you, after all, we should be supportive to each other. I got a lot to do by building my own confidence, but when it comes to others people, I am being very protective. I just hope he didn't affect you like he affected me before.
*hugs prez*
There is a list where you can add friend or foe to in settings.
A lot of things used to affect me when I was younger. But I am mentally much stronger now than I was back then. I am not wrong and I should stop questioning myself and comparing myself to the "normal" people that are around. If you want to be extraordinary, then look for the people and things that uplift you. The extraordinary people that came before you, and those that are increasingly working on improving themselves, to be the best they can be.
Also you're welcome on joining in the chat about sewing, if it interests you.
Good to know this, thank you.
I should learn more from you. Actually, there was a time, when I had a strong mentality. Even my friends back then were considering me to be ''strong'', but someday people has broke me. Several years have passed and I am still recovering from some things, which happened to me. Maybe this is a reason, why I become more sensitive now, but it will be fine. I got people in my life, who always trying to lift me up, when I am down, as you say. I got their back too. I learned that I shouldn't shut up my emotion, but to talk about them. I has crossed with people, who where closing their emotion and not talking about them, just empty shells. This always had a bad ending, unfortunately.
Thank you. Sewing is an interesting topic for me. As I said before to tabby, I only were sewing plushies (only once a clothes for my old porcenail doll). I want to learning something new. This thread, which she made is excellent and really helpful.
Look, I didn't have the greatest self esteem for a very very very long time. I am still very timid in real life and I still have trouble with that and don't like to ask things to strangers.
It was very bad.
I was unable to ask anyone anything. I thought I had to do it all myself, because I had been put up for doing things all by myself for so very long from such a very young age.
I had to learn that it was okay to ask things. I had to learn that it was okay to speak what I thought. To stand up against bullies, and to be a little more kind to myself. To enjoy life.
There have been times where I have been pushed far into the corner and that pretty much the part of myself ... that has a 'do or die attitude' ... has kept me from plunging off into the depts.
After I left high school, that damned place with a lot of people that behaved like total idiots (that seemed to me like empty shells too or at least very superficial) but whatever, I came to a place, and when I first started there I needed to arrange something when I was 19 years old and one of my classmates (note: I didn't follow a regular college. I was the youngest in my class, the eldest of the course being near retirement) said that I was (I am trying to express the meaning of the actual word by choosing different words that give off more or less the same feeling because idk the actual translation lol) 'hanging about doing nothing talking shit that everyone already knows like Im a crybaby that deserves attention' ... In the end I had to go to my mother and had to arrange it with her. It was about a place to stay over, I was told by my teacher that it'd be possible to stay over at her place or near it, but real close to the date it happened I was told 'theres no space' so I had to arrange something in the matter of days and I was asking my other classmates what they did. And well this was the comment of one of them.
After that I left the course. Didn't finish it there but looked for a different place to start it again. Then I got into a class that was heartwarming. It was also within a month after I dedicated here. Things got better, I had trouble opening up at first, but by the end of the year my teacher complimented me on how much I had grown.
I haven't had any friends in the meantime. Just my class, this place (despite it being shit with all the newbs and jews making a lot of lies and bs), and daily meditation. I still don't just open up to everyone. It really depends on how one approaches me, and what setting it is.
The right people can really make someone grow.
Let this be a place of growth.
I want to fight for that.