Sarahbeth Moorman
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You're never abandoned or forgotten. We all get in our lazy phases at times. You'll come to learn that it's enemy influences making you that way (most of the time). Anything that prevents me from mediating I consider it the enemy, it makes me mad and I take that angry energy, amp it up into a positive form one way or the other and you'll be mediating soon after. Also, when you tell yourself you'll dedicate later, do it anyways. The dedication is worth it. And it's a step in the right direction. Hope I helped. Hail Satan!
On May 2, 2014 5:06 PM, "Tanner Bonnell" <tmine1125@... wrote:
I know what you're reading is probably nothing that you need to concern yourself with, but I've tried to meditate, I haven't even dedicated, and when I get close to doing it I stop and think 'I can do it later.' I don't know why, but I feel like I'm losing my own little battle and I get sudden mood swings where I'm pissed off at everything. I want help, I want to help Satan, but I'm nervous
Everyday I wake up I feel numb and I don't want to get up. Just last week I could barely eat without wanting puke. I recently visited the Joy of Satan page and I realized that I've missed a lot. I don't want to be abandoned. I want to help the fight against Yehuborim and Xians, but something stops me and I don't know why. I've told myself I'll do it later, but then I forget about it.
So if you're reading this, please. I just want some help.