Leaving

[Kingfisher]

Thank you so much everyone...really cringing at the drama lol, I'm sorry for causing it. I apologized to the Gods for my errors, and am resolved to better my life...just got a very traumatic wake up call. Trying to go slow, really want to be better but in lots of pain. Getting help though, and I'm blessed to be in a safe place where people care about me somewhat. Sorry again lol, I'll probably just lurk occasionally until I'm a lot healthier, I don't mean to cause more stress

 

[Kingfisher]

Just one last thing (mods please disapprove if I'm wrong): is it true we've evolved somewhat on race matters? Maybe that's good, while I love my People very much, maybe my focus on extremist politics wasn't helping decent normal White people. Maybe what matters is that people may come to spirituality and the Gods. The progress is amazing in any case

 

[Nordicsupreme]

Adversity in all forms provides a great opportunity to build a close relationship with the Gods
Addictions, pain, job losses, losing loved ones ect can be better understood and worked upon by the help of Gods
For many of many starting years, two way communication was not possible and the only way I had to get better was to pray to Lord Zeus's sigil
Life didn't get better infact it got insanely tougher and after years of chaos life finally started getting better
Stick to the Gods strongly, they are the only way. All adversity is an opportunity to learn
Have faith in the Gods and yourself

Stay Blessed

 

[616Taysha]

chill @HailVictory88 - don't apologise; every one of us has had highs AND lows. Don't see it as drama either - you apparently needed to be taken care of, comforted, ensured you're fine despite pain. It's also good you were vocal about it - not trying to suffer in silence, but actually expressing your thoughts.

You did well, and you're safe again.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Thank you so much everyone...really cringing at the drama lol, I'm sorry for causing it. I apologized to the Gods for my errors, and am resolved to better my life...just got a very traumatic wake up call. Trying to go slow, really want to be better but in lots of pain. Getting help though, and I'm blessed to be in a safe place where people care about me somewhat. Sorry again lol, I'll probably just lurk occasionally until I'm a lot healthier, I don't mean to cause more stress

The Gods have forgiven you there is no problem with them, nor they would ever punish you for this. It's about yourself that you must forgive yourself. When you forgive yourself entirely, you will be able to move on and rebuild better than ever. Blessings to you.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Just one last thing (mods please disapprove if I'm wrong): is it true we've evolved somewhat on race matters? Maybe that's good, while I love my People very much, maybe my focus on extremist politics wasn't helping decent normal White people. Maybe what matters is that people may come to spirituality and the Gods. The progress is amazing in any case

Yes we stay away from this vortex now. We love people and just everyone by their deeds; nothing else nothing more. Justice. Don't even stress the topic anymore.

Is it really important to complain so much?

I read most of what was said, but it seems to me that you don't want to be free.

(3 years ago)
To be honest, the last time I smoked methamphetamine for 3 days and combined it with heroin
(without sleeping)

In conclusion, you will recover, it's just a super advancement period for you.

But, if you're going back to the Abrahamic religion just to get revenge on the temple or think their messiah is going to give you a bag of money
because you're back, it's very absurd and will confuse you a little.

Everyone wants to be free from these, he is clearly strong and he will be fine. I know HailVictory for many years he is a very strong man and has endured a lot; we men have a limit until we can crash and sometimes we can enter a state of hurting ourselves a result of this. We have to remember to do errors is not our end; it's the start of an opportunity to become better and love ourselves. It's just that when we are too self critical we might beat ourselves to shreds.

My sincere congratulations for your evolution Destroyer, also, you left a lesser state of existence and now you are on a track to ongoing happiness and growth; likely stronger than ever before. Now what HailVictory has to see is that the best times are actually ahead, despite of how the situation looks currently. It will pass; there is not the end of life if one has done a couple of mistakes or even done substance abuse.

Endless cases of Zevists have not only overcome this but they have been the most confident they have ever been after such phases. I read this commonly in stories of Zevists who have fallen low, when they bounce back they evolve better than ever.

Falling down is not the end. Not getting up is the end. Life is a series of knockdowns; let's get up and move each our own pace.

Life can be a bitch sometimes, but the case is when Zevists overcome this. Stay strong everyone!

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Brother also don't isolate and shy away; the community is here for support and to hold you up as you have held it before. Same as the Gods, never forget this. In fact people are getting inspired and they see that if they have done a mistake also, it's just human, everyone can and all will return. You don't show weakness when you say these, you show you are strong. We are available and don't worry about this, your position here is secured. Now just take care of yourself and love yourself and don't worry about details.

Blessings to you and may the Gods shine abundant light on you; you'll be out of the tunnel soon.

 

[destroyer]

Is it really important to complain so much?

I read most of what was said, but it seems to me that you don't want to be free.

Wow, you've been in the Abrahamic religion for 8 years and you still don't realize it's a scam.

Wow, you lost 2 jobs and you're addicted to drugs

Man, besides a job, I also lost another 10,000+ euros at the casino, I got hurt by some enemies, the dizziness went away after 2 weeks, plus a breakup with the girl I loved, who is not Zev. (I remember when I was 16 I was doing energy transfers with her or something, I didn't even know what I was doing )

(3 years ago)
To be honest, the last time I smoked methamphetamine for 3 days and combined it with heroin
(without sleeping)

yet I'm here completely and without any "cravings" for drugs

I didn't even feel the withdrawal

I suffered from it of course

In conclusion, you will recover, it's just a super advancement period for you.

But, if you're going back to the Abrahamic religion just to get revenge on the temple or think their messiah is going to give you a bag of money
because you're back, it's very absurd and will confuse you a little.

and besides that I would like to say:
I challenge you!
I also have a pretty difficult situation, very similar to yours. I'm struggling with some addictions, lack of money, finding a stable and secure job
(there's a lot to say )

How about we come back here in November and see who has progressed the most and who has been stronger?
Do you accept the challenge?

 

[Kingfisher]

Brother also don't isolate and shy away; the community is here for support and to hold you up as you have held it before. Same as the Gods, never forget this. In fact people are getting inspired and they see that if they have done a mistake also, it's just human, everyone can and all will return. You don't show weakness when you say these, you show you are strong. We are available and don't worry about this, your position here is secured. Now just take care of yourself and love yourself and don't worry about details.

Blessings to you and may the Gods shine abundant light on you; you'll be out of the tunnel soon.

Brother how did you know about the tunnel metaphor/experience I had when I was close to death...for the first time in my life, I am nearly speechless. Thank you.

 

[destroyer]

Yes we stay away from this vortex now. We love people and just everyone by their deeds; nothing else nothing more. Justice. Don't even stress the topic anymore.




Everyone wants to be free from these, he is clearly strong and he will be fine. I know HailVictory for many years he is a very strong man and has endured a lot; we men have a limit until we can crash and sometimes we can enter a state of hurting ourselves a result of this. We have to remember to do errors is not our end; it's the start of an opportunity to become better and love ourselves. It's just that when we are too self critical we might beat ourselves to shreds.

My sincere congratulations for your evolution Destroyer, also, you left a lesser state of existence and now you are on a track to ongoing happiness and growth; likely stronger than ever before. Now what HailVictory has to see is that the best times are actually ahead, despite of how the situation looks currently. It will pass; there is not the end of life if one has done a couple of mistakes or even done substance abuse.

Endless cases of Zevists have not only overcome this but they have been the most confident they have ever been after such phases. I read this commonly in stories of Zevists who have fallen low, when they bounce back they evolve better than ever.

Falling down is not the end. Not getting up is the end. Life is a series of knockdowns; let's get up and move each our own pace.

Life can be a bitch sometimes, but the case is when Zevists overcome this. Stay strong everyone!

Thank you very much, I honestly did not expect to receive such a response
however, congratulations to you too, Great Father Cobra
for having managed to bring the original light not only to one country, but to the entire globe

the discoveries, truths and teachings that you have given us with the help of the gods will remain from generation to generation all the time and forever

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Brother how did you know about the tunnel metaphor/experience I had when I was close to death...for the first time in my life, I am nearly speechless. Thank you.

I understand your current situation. From direct experience of the tunnel; I have seen death face to face more than a couple of times in practice and metaphor. So I know exactly where you are right now and above all that you can overcome it. I send you my blessings brother always.

 

[NG SATchives]

Falling down is not the end. Not getting up is the end. Life is a series of knockdowns; let's get up and move each our own pace.

"very strong man and has endured a lot; we men have a limit until we can crash and sometimes we can enter a state of hurting ourselves a result of this" I can relate. I struggled with this much in the past. Going past your limit will definitely make you crash into a vortex which ends up looking like self destruction. I wish you the best. My name in the old forums was Perserverance13666 I still stand by this thought, Perseverance is the at the core of all of us Zevists. I pray for endless strength to all of my Zevists Brothers and Sisters. Persevere you will

 

[Ariadne the Scribe]

Brother, it's never too late to change (yourself or your life) as long as you're alive; even if you're addicted, even if you're old, even if you're physically disabled...

You can always change as long as you want to. The problem with most people is that they don't want to. Being a defeatist and hating yourself is easier than wanting to become better. Why? Because wanting to become better requires effort. It requires mental strength and willpower.

The beautiful thing with meditation is that it *gives* you these things. Empowering your solar plexus chakra can give you that will. Doing yoga or breathing exercises and raising your energies is going to make you feel energized. Happy.

Brother, how much did you meditate before you lost your way? (I hope it's okay with you to call "losing your way" your stopping meditations and distancing yourself from the Gods. I know it sounds a bit xtian)

What kind of meditations did you do?
Can you recall the "energy buzz" from meditation? This "feeling high" state?
Did you see your intuition becoming stronger?
These are all beautiful experiences that, even if you stop meditating and haven't experienced them in a long time, you don't forget them.

As for how people can be so certain about their religion, at least when it comes to Zevism, it's the direct experiences we have, not just with meditating, but with the Gods themselves. I'll never forget my first experience with our Father Zeus. I'll never forget all my experiences with our Gods and Goddesses, and their advices... and if I ever did, I've been keeping black journals where I've written them all down.

Have you never had such experiences, Brother? Not with the Gods or with meditations?

 

[Aryan14]

im also a former addict trying to heal

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

As long as your body is still alive, there are things you can do every day to continue moving forward to improving your health physically and spiritually, and improve your life. You don't need to run forward a mile every day if you can't. Even one small step forward each day is at least going in the right direction and making some improvement.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Every one of us has had our days or years of injuries, weaknesses, or depressions. It is not about being invincible and never tripping, because there will always be a time when something happens to anyone. It is about not staying down, getting back up, and continuing to still walk. Or even crawl for some days until you can walk again, then walk for some days until you can run again.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

I don't know how everyone can be so sure of their particular religion and not be constantly afraid of being wrong and going to hell. I'm not sure why everyone else can get joy from religion but I get fear, shame, and hatred. The fear of hell really broke me as a child. And with my ego collapsing after my life fell apart, I no longer have self-defensive beliefs. I'm pretty sure I'm a worthless piece of dross and will suffer horribly. I guess my story can be a cautionary tale, lol. But it makes me sad. I really wanted to become something good and do good.

Many Gods specialize in regeneration, including of the ego, such as Osiris. What is your relationship with any God? You should find one that you feel you can relate and try to talk. This will help reduce feelings of loneliness, hopelessness, also can serve as an anchor against fears of Hell or other supernatural punishment.

 

[Kingfisher]

Just a Lil update...I'm still alive technically and physically safe, not homeless or in an institution, and I've stayed away from painkillers for over 3 weeks, although I take prescribed suboxone, will switch to the shot then get off that later. Just still in a lot of pain, very sick and confused. The pain and mental shit I numbed with drugs is coming up and it sucks, sometimes it hurts to move, breathe, or think. I've had multiple experienced addicts tell me that 7oh withdrawal is the worst painkiller withdrawal, even worse than fentanyl. I still feel like toasted shit and my life is beyond fucked, but at least I'm alive. Please listen to the Temple and be smart about drugs, I thought I was smart but I got a major spanking from Fate.

Also it's definitely not a priority at all, but if it's easy and a mod has a sec I might want 2 change my username to something less edgy lol. But it's not a big deal sorry for bother

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

When I'm working, I have tried every different new vitamin drink and energy drink that there is. Especially the ones that are supposed to be healthy. It is a miracle that I never accidentally tried that little blue bottle. They sell it to anyone, it's right at the cash register, and everything that it says is that it is some health supplement.

 

[Kingfisher]

When I'm working, I have tried every different new vitamin drink and energy drink that there is. Especially the ones that are supposed to be healthy. It is a miracle that I never accidentally tried that little blue bottle. They sell it to anyone, it's right at the cash register, and everything that it says is that it is some health supplement.

I am very glad you were wise enough to know to avoid that poison, Brother, I hope people follow your example.

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

Also it's definitely not a priority at all, but if it's easy and a mod has a sec I might want 2 change my username to something less edgy lol. But it's not a big deal sorry for bother

You can request a name change from your settings, or just let me know here and I'll change it for you

Have you been doing yoga? That will help rejuvenate you, as will the God rituals

 

[Aryan14]

Just a Lil update...I'm still alive technically and physically safe, not homeless or in an institution, and I've stayed away from painkillers for over 3 weeks, although I take prescribed suboxone, will switch to the shot then get off that later. Just still in a lot of pain, very sick and confused. The pain and mental shit I numbed with drugs is coming up and it sucks, sometimes it hurts to move, breathe, or think. I've had multiple experienced addicts tell me that 7oh withdrawal is the worst painkiller withdrawal, even worse than fentanyl. I still feel like toasted shit and my life is beyond fucked, but at least I'm alive. Please listen to the Temple and be smart about drugs, I thought I was smart but I got a major spanking from Fate.

Also it's definitely not a priority at all, but if it's easy and a mod has a sec I might want 2 change my username to something less edgy lol. But it's not a big deal sorry for bother

Subuxone helps alot i also get the shot every 3rd week , dont rush the taper it will take time

 

[CBTS]

Just a Lil update...I'm still alive technically and physically safe, not homeless or in an institution, and I've stayed away from painkillers for over 3 weeks, although I take prescribed suboxone, will switch to the shot then get off that later. Just still in a lot of pain, very sick and confused. The pain and mental shit I numbed with drugs is coming up and it sucks, sometimes it hurts to move, breathe, or think. I've had multiple experienced addicts tell me that 7oh withdrawal is the worst painkiller withdrawal, even worse than fentanyl. I still feel like toasted shit and my life is beyond fucked, but at least I'm alive. Please listen to the Temple and be smart about drugs, I thought I was smart but I got a major spanking from Fate.

Also it's definitely not a priority at all, but if it's easy and a mod has a sec I might want 2 change my username to something less edgy lol. But it's not a big deal sorry for bother

Brother, learn from what you've experienced, let it be a lesson and move on. What happened doesn't describe you as a being and Theoteknon - Child of the Gods.

As you are healing maybe doing some physical training (calisthenics, etc) might help building a strong fire in you to burn out all the negativity and refresh possible stagnant energy you might have accumulated.

Join us for the Gods rituals! They will give you the necessary boost of energy and attention from the Gods to help you get out of this situation. Don't wait until you are perfectly healthy, do yoga, exercise, meditate as you can, these are part of the healing process.

 

[Grimryper7]

It's not important, and people won't care, but for purposes of closure I wanted to post this. As of tomorrow I will no longer consider myself a member of the Temple. I have no malice towards anyone ...

Brother, I remember seeing your name over the years. I want you to know that you are not alone, and as you can see, we do care. If you ever need someone to talk to, i and many others im sure are here for you. I have suffered through addiction too, and have felt the same self hatred and despair.

It makes sense when a disease afflicts one from within such as drug addiction. I remember first reading Lady Maxines writings about the power of the mind and how its used against us, this is one of its worse forms IMO. Ive watched many friends and loved ones be destroyed and even lost their lives to drugs and the mental illness it gives. Don't let the fucked up world around you, the enemy, their programs, or anything take away the most sacred gift that could ever be given to you. Your soul. Your inner temple.
Ask the Gods, your GD or Zeus himself for guidance. I highly recommend asking, especially for such a dire issue and I try to only ask for help from the gods when I'm truly lost and dont know what to do. For addiction, i did ask, and i did recieve but dont expect them to bail you out everytime.

Last night I stayed up all night, pacing and pointlessly trying to stave off invasive thoughts of white children being raped and killed. I'll never have children so at least my worthless genes die with me.

I don't know how everyone can be so sure of their particular religion and not be constantly afraid of being wrong and going to hell. I'm not sure why everyone else can get joy from religion but I get fear, shame, and hatred. The fear of hell really broke me as a child. And with my ego collapsing after my life fell apart, I no longer have self-defensive beliefs.

When I was new and was diving into the rabbit hole of history of the enemy and what their goals are(earlier JOS days) I had a very terrifying vision of this beautiful sacred planet and its inhabitants basically being a crude, vulger, planet wide blood sacrifice to some extremely evil, parasitic disgusting alien forces. I cant even begin to describe how traumatizing this vision was and how clear it was to me. I could feel the filthy Yehubor's knowledge energy in it and all that great stuff.

I've had my doubts about my beliefs over the years and still do sometimes, but once you get to a certain place of wisdom, its like there's no going back. The only way I know how to get there, is through getting control of the power of your mind and understanding/awareness of yourself and the world.
You really need to deprogram your mind from christianity, your own mind is your worst enemy right now, instead of your strongest tool.

Rebuild your ego, discipline yourself with routine, heal up, have patience with yourself, love yourself. We need everybody on board, we have a temple to build, the greatest Temple that ever existed! And we have a world to restore, this planet, another priceless gift from the Gods. Take some time and try to go enjoy some nature and its beauty, even if its just a community garden or plant nursery or hell even the garden section at home depot lol

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

I am very glad you were wise enough to know to avoid that poison, Brother, I hope people follow your example.

The very scary thing is that it was not a purposeful choice by me as much as it was an accident. I am talking about those "Feel Free" little blue bottles. The only thing it says on it is the name, and it does not even say that it is 7oh. It is in every deli and convenience store that I go into prominently displayed, and nothing says what it is. Some of the promotional signs mention kratom, but not every display has the same sign or any sign.

I asked chat GPT what would be roughly equivalent amount of an opioid. It does not work in exactly the same way, but it goes to the same receptors. It said depending on each person's biological sensitivity to the chemical, it can be like the equivalent of 5mg-15mg of oxycodone per bottle. And the manufacturer is not consistent either so it can be twice as much. And there is no warning of what is in there and no restriction who buys it. Even children could buy it. The only thing that it says is some kind of herbal vitamin drink. It is only by accident or by protection from the Gods that I never accidentally tried it without knowing what it is because I try many herbal vitamin drinks.

 

[Grimryper7]

I could feel the filthy Yehubor's knowledge energy in it and all that great stuff.

@High Priest Zevios Metathronos
HP my words were changed here, im curious why? All I said was Yehubor's knowledge energy? I guess Yehuboric energy would mean the same.. but why censor the word Yehubor's leader or Yehubor's knowledge?

 

[Kingfisher]

You can request a name change from your settings, or just let me know here and I'll change it for you

Have you been doing yoga? That will help rejuvenate you, as will the God rituals

Thank you very much High Priestess. Regarding Yoga, that is a good idea, I hope to start a basic routine soon.

Thank you also to everyone for your replies, even if I didn't respond directly I continue to read and think it over. Today was still tough but went OK. Just went to a lot of meetings for sobriety/treatment, tried to be good to my family and dogs, contemplated the major life changes I need to make, and did a little sweeping/cleaning to help others. Just trying to be less of a scumbag each day lol

 

[Apprentice]

Thank you very much High Priestess. Regarding Yoga, that is a good idea, I hope to start a basic routine soon.

Thank you also to everyone for your replies, even if I didn't respond directly I continue to read and think it over. Today was still tough but went OK. Just went to a lot of meetings for sobriety/treatment, tried to be good to my family and dogs, contemplated the major life changes I need to make, and did a little sweeping/cleaning to help others. Just trying to be less of a scumbag each day lol

Your progress is impressive, Brother. I just wish you to be blessed, and may you overcome any temptations to relapse. I wish you the resolve and perseverance needed to stay on your course leading to a good life filled with truth and meaning
Don't look back - there's nothing wothwhile there.

 

[Apprentice]

I understand the term, but thats not what i wanted to say. It bothers me a little bit that we cant talk about a certain race of people now? I've thought about it before and I could see reasons to avoid the subject of race, but I think we should be able to talk about that race and their "yehubor leaders" without being censored...

There is no such thing as their "race". You might want to listen to the last AMAs of High Priest on youtube. Hence, there's nothing more to discuss about them. Regarding the "censorship", think about it as legal protection for all.

 

[Kingfisher]

Thanks again for the replies and to the mods 4 help w my account. I have to get off subs and weed now so I can be fully sober and enter treatment. Grrrh life still sucks, sub withdrawal is awful, i know i need to get treatment and will but right now it is hard to feel anything but negatives like fear, emptiness, and hatred. Dont do painkillers 4 fun kids

 

[Kingfisher]

Just another small update I felt like sharing if its ok...today was a rough day, but not without merit. My anxiety was off the charts, and my stomach felt awful. I vomited so hard my ears felt like they would explode. But I had an important realization: I don't want to be a junkie blowing all my money on drugs. I just want to follow the Gods. That is very helpful for my commitment, realizing that I'm fucking done with these drugs.

 

[Apprentice]

Just another small update I felt like sharing if its ok...today was a rough day, but not without merit. My anxiety was off the charts, and my stomach felt awful. I vomited so hard my ears felt like they would explode. But I had an important realization: I don't want to be a junkie blowing all my money on drugs. I just want to follow the Gods. That is very helpful for my commitment, realizing that I'm fucking done with these drugs.

I imagine you like this: with your head held high, going directly through this dark withdrawal, chanting praise to the Gods, being supported by them in invisible ways, emerging as Victor on the other side, stronger than before!

 

[Darkspirit]

Brother we all are with you, You will be better! Our Dear HP also has given you a couple of tips and good talkings. Think positively about yourself. You will be Great brother.