dignityofthefallen
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So it will be a 2 years since i'm dedicated satanist. But i was loosing the connection with spiritual realm, it begun 8months ago. Now, when i meditate i can't feel all these energies and my soul. I was more powerful, i had this spark inside of me. But i begun to be sceptic. I begun to see world through a science and now i am on the not good way to atheism. But i had contact with my guarian demon, even with satan. I feel that they left me and now the astral and magick realm is in some way closed for me. It started when i was getting even stronger. I've felt like super sayian sometimes, my energy was bursting through and out. And then, it started decreasing slowly until now. When nothing was left from that times. Now It's hard for me to feel energy. Back then it was easy and natural for me. I don't want to give up so i'm begging for advice.