I'm Confused and Need Help

[FRH04X]

Years ago when i was 14 i had really bad experiences. I was about to collapse and secretly crying in my room. Then i felt something is watching me. Obviously i scared and immediately left room and contuined to crying. That moment something red and a similar to a face appeared in my mind. After that day whenever i try to sleep that thing started watching me. Front of my door. It was just standing there and looking at me. It took many years and i decided to visit a psychologist took pills bla bla... You know the story.

I used to me muslim before but never practiced for real because in deep of my heart i know that there is something wrong with islam. I don't know why but i always had sympathy for satanism. Finally i found myself in satanism and after learning new things i just started to think that, that day might not be something psychological.

Also i still couldn't perform dedication ritual for some reasons. I don't know i just can't i already wrote the paper and signed with blood.

Another question is can i perform standart ritual before dedication? Will satan accept me?

Ave Zeus

 

[Jack]

It could have also been a lower order or demon trying to prevent you from doing rash things and looking over you. They are rash and have rubbery wings with a smile and glowing eyes. I freaked out when I first saw one but you can feel the positive energy coming from them. All your worries and troubles are suddenly eliminated and you find yourself at peace. So look out for distinguishing signs between demons and enemies.

 

[Renascer]

As I read this, I recalled that as a child, "invisible" beings pulled my hair and beat me on the legs when I lay in bed to sleep, it was really scary! Fear!! And of course as I did not know I thought I thought it was Satanic things ... maybe that's why it took me many years to get to the father ...