ViridianDevil1388
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I'm posting this for anyone and everyone to consider and respond to, but I'm primarily aiming this toward Centralforce and other medicinal practitioners here, and I'll do an online consultation with Centralforce too, which I'm very hopeful about.
Firstly, this is a new profile for these forums, although I've technically been a Spiritual Satanist / now Zevist as it's called here for about 15 years.
My history has been very on, off, on, off, and on again, I used to do a lot more between my late teens and early twenties with meditation, yoga, physical activity, and the online work with research, spreading the word of our path with tracts (also physical tracts) and had a mixed history of helping newer people in this path, but as years went on drama, mixed information, and personal issues and doubts caused me to withdraw.
I'd always been an ambiguous agnostic person although what originally brought me to this path was my attempt at going to xianity which coincided with research into the paranormal and occult.
I've always been a curious but sensitive person, prone to anxiety concerning morbidities and the nature of death regardless of whatever anyone would tell me, eventually defaulting to the worst.
I'm talking crying my out anxiety, I can't even hide the vulnerability I feel with this.
A lot of social emotional issues lead to drinking throughout my twenties despite originally being heavily against drugs especially because of what this path has taught me, and being anxious, depressive, prone to addiction of some sort with lack of consistency has been the worst combination.
I've basically redone a version of the dedication multiple times and begged to Satan to show me the way, I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
I can talk more about that later in another thread though.
Here's my most recent health concern, and please try to take me seriously, while this symptom was not exactly brought on by anxiety as it was a gradual progression to recently it is severely wrecking my days with morbid anxiety and a whole spiral of thoughts from being trapped with this symptom to the banal and finite feeling of life as well as my concerns with my girlfriend and trying to live a good life with her and empower together, I'm just tired of feeling bipolar between hyperactivity (as productive as it is lately) then only getting relief from delirium and sleeping towards night and dreading the morning wakeup due to the sensation.
The symptom probably began a few months ago, it started off relatively inconspicuous with a seemingly "warm" radiant feeling on my right forearm, mostly on the back of it, and sometimes it seemed like that could be on my left to a lesser extent. In recent weeks it would feel more like the right one would have this feeling a touch more intensely, a not quite icy hot feeling. Then in the recent week or two this sensitivity became a near constant that spread to my lower right leg and potentially up my knee and maybe thigh, as well as my right side of my neck and upper back and even my right side of my face. One morning this peaked and transitioned to definitely feeling like my left and right sides of my body were imbalanced in their sense of temperature, with cold being more bothersome to my right and it not necessarily being as reactive to ambient heat as me left side, even breathing the left side of my lips and even throat felt this when it peaked, and my left eyebrow had been very sensitive and even exhausted from this compared to the right. Sometimes with moderate activity, exposure to moderate temperatures, or extreme temperatures I don't notice it as much, but it's the waking fresh in the morning and really throughout the day it'll remain mostly constant. When my body does stay in a warmer situation those concentrated spots on the right can tend to feel that more radiant not quite icy hot feeling.
I went to an advanced nurse practitioner and got a spinal X-ray, blood panel, and urine test etc.
The spinal X-ray supposedly said everythings normal (for reference I've been doing heavy lifting).
She later ook a basic look at me and said theirs no concern for diabetic symptoms nor major neurological disorders so I was not referred for that, and my vitamin D levels have been chronically low due to not enough sun and the drinking, vitamin B is low too but the concern was my vitamin D.
She prescribed me ergocalciferol or d2 at 1250mcg or 50000 in a week but so far I'm not so sure whether this will be the solution or not.
I also went to my girlfriends clinical nutritionist (which she swears by as this route of medicine and supplements fixed major issues she had from childhood) and they practice something called muscle testing (has anyone heard of this? What's your opinion on it?) and she said my liver is obstructed with parasites, (I also have fatty liver but not cirrhosis) and my body has been fighting flu despite not showing usual symptoms so it's viral and parasites obstruction as the waxing moon increased and my heart she said was taking iron from other parts of the body, overall she said my nervous system got exhausted and shut down and that's why I have this imbalanced sensitivity.
Obviously I'm trying to be very thorough in figuring this out, because every morning I wake up feeling this imbalance especially if I'm sweating in the morning that really fucks up my mood then I try to be productive but still end up spiraling into an anxiety attack, tears, and having to keep struggling to numb my mind with some breathing, lately the alternating nostril breath. Also recently started taking ashwagandha and lemon balm as it's the only thing that kind of helps to stay away from alcohol. The fucked up thing was I was already trying to cut back and I've cut cold turkey for over a year in the recent past I hate that I ever went back...but this rotten anxiety just keeps plaguing me from living a normal life.
I know I seem like a big baby but for reference I've had other health issues that gave me some anxiety too and these were acute things like my appendix and other pains related to my gi tract, but it's always these weird nerve related ailments that make me feel suffocated with dread, the idea of feeling imbalanced sensitivity for a long time or life or if it were to get worse from here I can't take it on top of my other issues.
I want some help with anyone's opinions on what this symptom could really be, why does it feel like it's just my right sides of my body (mostly), and or is it just that my left is more numb? (It responds to warmth better and is less sensitive to cold and it doesn't do the radiant icy hot thing so I doubt it).
I was not really stressed or anxious so I'm not imagining this it's just what I've been feeling and I'm tired of it.
What is this?
Firstly, this is a new profile for these forums, although I've technically been a Spiritual Satanist / now Zevist as it's called here for about 15 years.
My history has been very on, off, on, off, and on again, I used to do a lot more between my late teens and early twenties with meditation, yoga, physical activity, and the online work with research, spreading the word of our path with tracts (also physical tracts) and had a mixed history of helping newer people in this path, but as years went on drama, mixed information, and personal issues and doubts caused me to withdraw.
I'd always been an ambiguous agnostic person although what originally brought me to this path was my attempt at going to xianity which coincided with research into the paranormal and occult.
I've always been a curious but sensitive person, prone to anxiety concerning morbidities and the nature of death regardless of whatever anyone would tell me, eventually defaulting to the worst.
I'm talking crying my out anxiety, I can't even hide the vulnerability I feel with this.
A lot of social emotional issues lead to drinking throughout my twenties despite originally being heavily against drugs especially because of what this path has taught me, and being anxious, depressive, prone to addiction of some sort with lack of consistency has been the worst combination.
I've basically redone a version of the dedication multiple times and begged to Satan to show me the way, I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
I can talk more about that later in another thread though.
Here's my most recent health concern, and please try to take me seriously, while this symptom was not exactly brought on by anxiety as it was a gradual progression to recently it is severely wrecking my days with morbid anxiety and a whole spiral of thoughts from being trapped with this symptom to the banal and finite feeling of life as well as my concerns with my girlfriend and trying to live a good life with her and empower together, I'm just tired of feeling bipolar between hyperactivity (as productive as it is lately) then only getting relief from delirium and sleeping towards night and dreading the morning wakeup due to the sensation.
The symptom probably began a few months ago, it started off relatively inconspicuous with a seemingly "warm" radiant feeling on my right forearm, mostly on the back of it, and sometimes it seemed like that could be on my left to a lesser extent. In recent weeks it would feel more like the right one would have this feeling a touch more intensely, a not quite icy hot feeling. Then in the recent week or two this sensitivity became a near constant that spread to my lower right leg and potentially up my knee and maybe thigh, as well as my right side of my neck and upper back and even my right side of my face. One morning this peaked and transitioned to definitely feeling like my left and right sides of my body were imbalanced in their sense of temperature, with cold being more bothersome to my right and it not necessarily being as reactive to ambient heat as me left side, even breathing the left side of my lips and even throat felt this when it peaked, and my left eyebrow had been very sensitive and even exhausted from this compared to the right. Sometimes with moderate activity, exposure to moderate temperatures, or extreme temperatures I don't notice it as much, but it's the waking fresh in the morning and really throughout the day it'll remain mostly constant. When my body does stay in a warmer situation those concentrated spots on the right can tend to feel that more radiant not quite icy hot feeling.
I went to an advanced nurse practitioner and got a spinal X-ray, blood panel, and urine test etc.
The spinal X-ray supposedly said everythings normal (for reference I've been doing heavy lifting).
She later ook a basic look at me and said theirs no concern for diabetic symptoms nor major neurological disorders so I was not referred for that, and my vitamin D levels have been chronically low due to not enough sun and the drinking, vitamin B is low too but the concern was my vitamin D.
She prescribed me ergocalciferol or d2 at 1250mcg or 50000 in a week but so far I'm not so sure whether this will be the solution or not.
I also went to my girlfriends clinical nutritionist (which she swears by as this route of medicine and supplements fixed major issues she had from childhood) and they practice something called muscle testing (has anyone heard of this? What's your opinion on it?) and she said my liver is obstructed with parasites, (I also have fatty liver but not cirrhosis) and my body has been fighting flu despite not showing usual symptoms so it's viral and parasites obstruction as the waxing moon increased and my heart she said was taking iron from other parts of the body, overall she said my nervous system got exhausted and shut down and that's why I have this imbalanced sensitivity.
Obviously I'm trying to be very thorough in figuring this out, because every morning I wake up feeling this imbalance especially if I'm sweating in the morning that really fucks up my mood then I try to be productive but still end up spiraling into an anxiety attack, tears, and having to keep struggling to numb my mind with some breathing, lately the alternating nostril breath. Also recently started taking ashwagandha and lemon balm as it's the only thing that kind of helps to stay away from alcohol. The fucked up thing was I was already trying to cut back and I've cut cold turkey for over a year in the recent past I hate that I ever went back...but this rotten anxiety just keeps plaguing me from living a normal life.
I know I seem like a big baby but for reference I've had other health issues that gave me some anxiety too and these were acute things like my appendix and other pains related to my gi tract, but it's always these weird nerve related ailments that make me feel suffocated with dread, the idea of feeling imbalanced sensitivity for a long time or life or if it were to get worse from here I can't take it on top of my other issues.
I want some help with anyone's opinions on what this symptom could really be, why does it feel like it's just my right sides of my body (mostly), and or is it just that my left is more numb? (It responds to warmth better and is less sensitive to cold and it doesn't do the radiant icy hot thing so I doubt it).
I was not really stressed or anxious so I'm not imagining this it's just what I've been feeling and I'm tired of it.
What is this?
