I honestly started doing this before hand, before you made this schedule tbh I was doing a whole bunch of rituals but I am discourage now after putting in a lot of hard work.. feeling the joy and commitment in fighting this war and the blessing... the feeling it provides one is extreme bliss. I was having dreams for a couple days tho... I was getting attacked, and no matter how much meditation I did I struggled with transmuting it a man kept appearing in my dreams with webs shooting from his hands and. Remember the whole dream world folded in on me, i wws bound floating in darkness until a lady appeared and put her hands on my head and set me free. My throat is extremely sore and now I'm discouraged because I would like to participate but I can't even speak much to even utter a chant. Is there anything I can do? Or should I wait till I feel better to pick things back up?
