Low Priest
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- Jun 6, 2019
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Let it flow. Breathe in like complete you breath. And it will flow. Don't know how to explain but it usually knots in my stomach/intestine area if I'm not breathing properly. But when I breathe deeply it'll flow, allowing me to stand my ground, although still be afraid.
When I was a kid my christian parents told me that if I ever sinned that the devil will visit me. One day I started a fire in the house cause I loved to play with fire. Nothing major anyways, the situation was handled I burned a useless box although I did cause panic and I was a little kid still. That same night I was awakened by something I don't remember what cause I blocked it out. All I remember is like being stored at and intense energy overwhelming me. It was obviously a grey. I ran into the kitchen because I could only see it in the dark and my mom was in the kitchen at the time. The power ended up going out and all I could see was a bright red aura overwhelming me with fear. My parents always told me that "el diablo" was red. Ever since then I have been traumatized from spirituality and find It hard to deal with the sensation of "waking up". I don't fear getting physically hurt, I do fear people in general though, just their presence fuck me up. I just breathe deep and look forward.If I'm interacting with someone Im like a robot. I'm pretty sure it happens to everyone but for some reason I let It ruin my childhood.
When I was a kid my christian parents told me that if I ever sinned that the devil will visit me. One day I started a fire in the house cause I loved to play with fire. Nothing major anyways, the situation was handled I burned a useless box although I did cause panic and I was a little kid still. That same night I was awakened by something I don't remember what cause I blocked it out. All I remember is like being stored at and intense energy overwhelming me. It was obviously a grey. I ran into the kitchen because I could only see it in the dark and my mom was in the kitchen at the time. The power ended up going out and all I could see was a bright red aura overwhelming me with fear. My parents always told me that "el diablo" was red. Ever since then I have been traumatized from spirituality and find It hard to deal with the sensation of "waking up". I don't fear getting physically hurt, I do fear people in general though, just their presence fuck me up. I just breathe deep and look forward.If I'm interacting with someone Im like a robot. I'm pretty sure it happens to everyone but for some reason I let It ruin my childhood.