bwc4lyf2012
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- Sep 19, 2013
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So, Right now my Spirtual life is like, Gone.
I don't want to be .
I joined, Well Began on the left hand path months ago..
It was ligit. The best time ever.
Indescribable.
However I Slipped back into Xanity. Like a few times.. Ronounced Satan and whatnot.
The Day after the First time i did thatm
Was TERRIBLE.
Like oh my. I wasn't happy. I wasn't focused. I wasn't succedeing in anything like whatsooooever.....
And Then i of course, I had to break that little ShitFest in my mind and re-commited myself to Father satan.
But i went to a christian church a few days later..
And did it was a preist. 'Renounced satan.'.
I was speaking to some lady about it at the church and i Honestly couldn't talk BAD about satan, She was. But i continued..
Im like, Well.. Thats not true, Father Satan This&that.
By the time the mass upstairs was done i was leaving. I never 'Accepted' Christ into my life ;. And i wouldn't.
I was scared tho. She had given me a bible and some Contacts of people in the church, I went home and burnt them all. No need for it.
However when i was walking home i seen the weirdest thing.
4 Big Black dogs, Walking. Well , 3 dogs & 1 cat. My First thought is..
The 4 crowned princes.?
I don't know. I went to bed scared that night.
I had a little spark f happiness watching the bible burn tho.
This was months ago,
Everyday i Appoligize. And Try And Try And i feel as if all spirtual anything is like, Absent from my life. Forever.
I don't like it.
My Guardian demon aswell.
Theres been a few nights where my Life as become almost unbearable and i can feel my Guardian demon there.
But that's it.
Help me?
HAIL SATAN.
I don't want to be .
I joined, Well Began on the left hand path months ago..
It was ligit. The best time ever.
Indescribable.
However I Slipped back into Xanity. Like a few times.. Ronounced Satan and whatnot.
The Day after the First time i did thatm
Was TERRIBLE.
Like oh my. I wasn't happy. I wasn't focused. I wasn't succedeing in anything like whatsooooever.....
And Then i of course, I had to break that little ShitFest in my mind and re-commited myself to Father satan.
But i went to a christian church a few days later..
And did it was a preist. 'Renounced satan.'.
I was speaking to some lady about it at the church and i Honestly couldn't talk BAD about satan, She was. But i continued..
Im like, Well.. Thats not true, Father Satan This&that.
By the time the mass upstairs was done i was leaving. I never 'Accepted' Christ into my life ;. And i wouldn't.
I was scared tho. She had given me a bible and some Contacts of people in the church, I went home and burnt them all. No need for it.
However when i was walking home i seen the weirdest thing.
4 Big Black dogs, Walking. Well , 3 dogs & 1 cat. My First thought is..
The 4 crowned princes.?
I don't know. I went to bed scared that night.
I had a little spark f happiness watching the bible burn tho.
This was months ago,
Everyday i Appoligize. And Try And Try And i feel as if all spirtual anything is like, Absent from my life. Forever.
I don't like it.
My Guardian demon aswell.
Theres been a few nights where my Life as become almost unbearable and i can feel my Guardian demon there.
But that's it.
Help me?
HAIL SATAN.
