Feel Father Satan again

[Joel1]

Hi everyone its been a long time since I've been on here. I've been on a mission to sort of find myself and find out what I really wanted in life including religiously. I told myself whatever i go to is me, I was choosing I just let Satanism come back to me. I've explored all the different types and this Satanism is whats best. When I first started this satanism, I felt refreshed and energized, I felt satans presence and all other demons, i felt untouchable. I wanted to know if anyone knew what I could possibly do to get back to this feeling, i know I can't do the dedication again, and i have already done a self-initiation, so what is next?