Hi brothers and sisters,
i did my dedication in October, i felt something strange while the ritual.
A sensationi never had before, it was a faint pressure in my jaw and head,
it felt like someone is holding it from within ...
but the sensetian lasted only about 20 seconds.
The reason why i did the dedication, why Im here is because of my "feelings"
Since my early childhood i can "feel" things, i can "feel" the future and i have a voice that is talking to me sometimes.
I always wanted to know the truth of our being and the meaning of life and stuff like that, but i never felt confident with christian beliefs and i had always the "feeling" that what the tell me is a lie, a hoax.
I always felt a strange connection to Satanism and since 16 I started exploring, first I met Laveyans, but after a while it all seems just not enough.
I found the JoS about 6 months ago (Im 21 now) and it all seems right, although some beliefs, especially the nationalsocialistic ones are a bit unusual to me.
(Im from Germany and national socialistic thinking and behaviouris is illigal and at school they tell you every year in History the old same shit:
"Hitler was evil .. poor Jews .. Germany started the war, everyone else was innocent ... blah blah blah)
But it seems all right ... not perfect but much better than Lavey.
I started mediations in June and had a lot of progress, i saw even more "things" and even a face talking to me.(I asked my Guardian Demon to show himself)
I didnt understand what the face was saying and after a break in August (the whole month) I lost a lot of power.
I can remember an answer, for i asked once what the name of my Guardian Demon ist:
And a voice said something like: "sepheren, saphirot, cepherit, or ceferon"
I cant remember that good anymore, but this name is not present on the JoS demonlist. Is this possible?
It is very hard to differ this "special" voice from my own thoughts, so Im not very sure about the answer
and this "feeling" in my heart that fortells me the future is also not always present and i can only feel it correctly when im calm, because of possible other emotions that can alter it.
Im asking you for help, can you tell me what you are feeling and what your experience with your Guardian Demons are, if this question is allowed and not too personal.
I look forward to hear from you
and thank you for your answers
hail satan
i did my dedication in October, i felt something strange while the ritual.
A sensationi never had before, it was a faint pressure in my jaw and head,
it felt like someone is holding it from within ...
but the sensetian lasted only about 20 seconds.
The reason why i did the dedication, why Im here is because of my "feelings"
Since my early childhood i can "feel" things, i can "feel" the future and i have a voice that is talking to me sometimes.
I always wanted to know the truth of our being and the meaning of life and stuff like that, but i never felt confident with christian beliefs and i had always the "feeling" that what the tell me is a lie, a hoax.
I always felt a strange connection to Satanism and since 16 I started exploring, first I met Laveyans, but after a while it all seems just not enough.
I found the JoS about 6 months ago (Im 21 now) and it all seems right, although some beliefs, especially the nationalsocialistic ones are a bit unusual to me.
(Im from Germany and national socialistic thinking and behaviouris is illigal and at school they tell you every year in History the old same shit:
"Hitler was evil .. poor Jews .. Germany started the war, everyone else was innocent ... blah blah blah)
But it seems all right ... not perfect but much better than Lavey.
I started mediations in June and had a lot of progress, i saw even more "things" and even a face talking to me.(I asked my Guardian Demon to show himself)
I didnt understand what the face was saying and after a break in August (the whole month) I lost a lot of power.
I can remember an answer, for i asked once what the name of my Guardian Demon ist:
And a voice said something like: "sepheren, saphirot, cepherit, or ceferon"
I cant remember that good anymore, but this name is not present on the JoS demonlist. Is this possible?
It is very hard to differ this "special" voice from my own thoughts, so Im not very sure about the answer
and this "feeling" in my heart that fortells me the future is also not always present and i can only feel it correctly when im calm, because of possible other emotions that can alter it.
Im asking you for help, can you tell me what you are feeling and what your experience with your Guardian Demons are, if this question is allowed and not too personal.
I look forward to hear from you
and thank you for your answers
hail satan
