kill_the_spaz
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(long post sorry =/ ) I became dedicated when i was 15 or so, through high school and a few years after i avidly meditated. I'm 21 now i know i don't meditate nearly enough with my busier schedule, I'm not as in touch with myself through meditation and feel like I'm back at square one.I am having a huge problem regardless day or night (more so night) I like relaxing to meditate i sit on the couch and start a meditation routine and I get scared.. like real scared theres presence theres negative energy and just all around bad juju. Outside inside with friends around doesn't matter. it so bad i sleep with the light on and music playing when the lights off i see spooks in the dark. in fact my gf stayed over the other night and woke me up twice that night screaming because she thought she saw someone and once because she thought she saw her sweater floating (she can be a bit dramatic though) so I'm at a loss of how to handle this I've asked Father Satan to intervene if it became more than i could deal with I've used runes and protection meditations on my last two houses and nothing. so theres the most of it.
Although thinking back though a lot of this started when i was living in nampa two years ago the house was creepy as shit and one night i was meditating and felt or heard like almost a white noise i opened my eyes and saw what was probably the most terrifying thing clear as day a few feet away from my face staring into me for what felt like forever till i ran to my truck jumped in and drove to the gas station in my boxers and bought a pack of smokes to calm my nerves. Ever since then i fell behind in my meditations because i felt they drew attention from the enemy I even tried hypnotizing myself to stop dreaming because my dreams were terrifying. I'm not a weak minded person nor am I the type that will dwell on things I've gone two years trying everything in my power to shake this fear and stop the harassment. I've come to a point i just need to ask for help
thanks for putting up with a long post
Although thinking back though a lot of this started when i was living in nampa two years ago the house was creepy as shit and one night i was meditating and felt or heard like almost a white noise i opened my eyes and saw what was probably the most terrifying thing clear as day a few feet away from my face staring into me for what felt like forever till i ran to my truck jumped in and drove to the gas station in my boxers and bought a pack of smokes to calm my nerves. Ever since then i fell behind in my meditations because i felt they drew attention from the enemy I even tried hypnotizing myself to stop dreaming because my dreams were terrifying. I'm not a weak minded person nor am I the type that will dwell on things I've gone two years trying everything in my power to shake this fear and stop the harassment. I've come to a point i just need to ask for help
thanks for putting up with a long post
