FancyMancy said:
After reading this whole thing it sounds like you've been successively getting an astronomical beating through your life and are incidentally only toughening up from it and managed to make a breakthrough. Even if you can't see it from your own writing I can see it.
Our purpose is to not be bound by the planets or 'fate', you don't accept or embrace it if you don't want it. But astrological forces are powerful and it is known even in workings when you work towards something the universe actually fights back. How many members can say they've come so close to finishing a working only to find it getting harder and harder the closer they are to reaching the end of it or finishing it? Either events in their life are interrupting it or they suddenly feel like they don't have the motivation to do it, or it feels like something is preventing you from finishing it and the worst mistake members make is actually heeding to this 'knock-back' and giving up.
Astrological energy is a force that doesn't work like the random 'roaming' energy of the universe beyond it, planetary energies are pointed and directive like arrows. They
have a path to follow, they
have a direction and their energies are potent throughout this direction because it is not thinned out or scattered like other forms of outside energy.
When you fight against these powerful directed energies you are fighting between walls that get more narrower and narrower the closer you get to breaking the 'source'. The more narrow the path gets as you continue forward the more stronger, compacted and potent the energy will be, therefore the more it's going to push back. To break through to the other side you have to endure relentlessly and persevere through to the end no matter how much it fights back. A strong and steady pace guarantees victory.
This is what you did with your affirmations. Everything going to shit but you kept doing that same steady pace and eventually you finally broke past the end of that narrow path to the other side to get the result you got.
Perseverance is key. That is how you
master anything.