Confessions of a Potard

[Silent Sword]

Greetings my fellow Zevism. And to the infiltrators, a pox on thee!

Now, I am fully aware that it has been iterated by the HPs that smoking (or eating, vaping, etc.) pot is stupid. But they don't speak from experience, I hope. I, unfortunately, do. Therefore, here is what I have to say...

You can partake in marijuana and be a Zevism. But, it will make your journey arduous and laden with perils. It's also akin to taking one step forward, and two steps back when it comes to spiritual progress.

Since my dedication nearly 9 years ago, I have made some progress, quite a bit actually. But anyone who's been meditating everyday, sober, for even just a couple of years, is most likely miles ahead of me. The problem with pot is that it makes you think you're advancing normaly, when it's really at a crawl pace. It also makes cleaning your aura much more difficult. Everything you do spiritually is diluted.

And, it's true that ganga is a gateway drug. Maybe not for everyone, but for most. It's because I started smoking pot, many more years ago then I'd like to admit, that I also tried mushrooms, acid, ecstasy, mescaline, and cocaine. The enemy loves it when you do drugs, it makes cursing you very easy. If it wasn't for some protection from Satan and my GD, I would be dead right now. That's a fact.

I've recently quit, again (hopefully for the last time). See, I'm an Apollo type. Music, litterature, poetry...these are my vocations. I've mostly been depressed by the state of society and the world in general all my life. I think it's what pushed me to try drugs in the first place. I also learn the hard way because of my Saturn placement. Although, it does make me prone to stoicism. It's funny, it can truly be an asshole, but that damned planet saved my life more than once.

I hope this post helps at least one person here, which is why I'm writing it.
It's not my responsibility to tell you what to do, and if you're anything like me, you have to figure it out on your own. Just know that I speak from experience. DRUGS ARE STUPID!!

 

[luis]

These type of drugs open holes in your aura and damage your soul, if you meditate while doing these things it's like trying always fix something that you always broke. Good luck in your journey, make sure to stay away from these things, do a spell if needed and with time meditations will help fix you and advance.

 

[Libra]

Thank you, it's really valuable to speak up about the dangers of marijuana. I understand how someone can rationalize sitting around brain dead from pot because they don't have a better coping method, the same way an alcoholic rationalizes drinking all day, but I don't understand what dreamland they live in where they think it is "safe" or relatively "healthy" in comparison to other drugs.

I've talked about my experiences with pot on here before. I never used regularly, I don't have an addictive personality, but I have caved to peer pressure a few times. Mostly before I started to seriously meditate and work on my soul. So, when it came up another time, I had been putting in lots of work. I just finished a Sun Square, I was working on all my chakras, breathing, yoga. I was dedicating serious time to advancement. I thought, well it's pot. It won't be any different than having a few drinks. It never affected me much before, so it will be okay. When I took it, it gave me severe psychosis. As soon as I hit it, I knew and fought for the last bit of control over my mind and body that I had before it slipped away into complete psychotic delusion. It was terrifying, but I believe the Gods were with me. Not to say I was miraculously saved, I still had to deal with the consequences, and I did for a long time, but I know it could have been much worse without their protection.

Afterwards, I felt kinda lied too. Everyone thought I was crazy or that I overreacted. But I experienced things people say only happen to people that have bad trips on LSD. I've advocated against pot since then. Even though I was more open to delusional thinking, you never know if it could be you, or how sensitive you are. I don't advocate for alcohol either, but the worse that can happen is memory loss and personality change. It doesn't distort your whole reality. But they say it's safer because it doesn't make you violent like alcohol? It's shit. They want you stupid and compliant either way. Or to destroy you if you have any real power.

If any of you are meditating seriously and lose your tolerance after a while, please do not relapse. Work on freeing your soul from that garbage. Or if you are like me, do not partake as a one time thing because you think it won't happen to you. I really do not want anyone to experience what I went through.

 

[FancyMancy]

What does it mean to be a Spiritual Satanist? That needs to be defined first. You can be an Zevism while self-mutilating, destroying your Soul, being dead. Maybe not.

 

[Silent Sword]

What does it mean to be a Spiritual Satanist? That needs to be defined first. You can be an Zevism while self-mutilating, destroying your Soul, being dead. Maybe not.

That's a good point Fancy. Maybe I should have said "meditate" rather than "be a Zevism". The two might be inseparable, but aren't quite the same. I hope you read my whole post and realized I wasn't advocating drug use, quite the opposite.

I just have a feeling that some members here are still smoking pot and thinking along the lines of "whatever, I can smoke pot if I want to...what's the harm?". My post was a warning based on personal experience.

I do want to make this clear though, I never meditated or did any workings while stoned. And the only real progress I ever made was during the times I'd quit completely. A few months here, a few there...

Speaking of progress, you've come a long way since you started posting on the forums. Cheers mate.

 

[Silent Sword]

Thanks for all the replies and input everyone.
I am aware of Neptune and it's influences however. The same can be said about my Natal Chart. As I said, it's been nearly 9 years since my dedication, and I've certainly not been standing idle this whole time. Not that I don't have much to learn still, don't mistake my confidence for arrogance.

Even considering all my faults and mistakes, I'm still very proud of who I am.
Not proud of everything I've done, as I've disappointed Satan and the Gods along the years. And that, is one of the worst feelings I've ever felt. But I never gave up on myself, and neither did They.

I'm an Zevism, a dedicated warrior, and always will be.

 

[FancyMancy]

What does it mean to be a Spiritual Satanist? That needs to be defined first. You can be an Zevism while self-mutilating, destroying your Soul, being dead. Maybe not.

That's a good point Fancy. Maybe I should have said "meditate" rather than "be a Zevism". The two might be inseparable, but aren't quite the same. I hope you read my whole post and realized I wasn't advocating drug use, quite the opposite.

I just have a feeling that some members here are still smoking pot and thinking along the lines of "whatever, I can smoke pot if I want to...what's the harm?". My post was a warning based on personal experience.

I do want to make this clear though, I never meditated or did any workings while stoned. And the only real progress I ever made was during the times I'd quit completely. A few months here, a few there...

Speaking of progress, you've come a long way since you started posting on the forums. Cheers mate.

The only experience I have of drugs was second-hand drug-smoking and that was years before I knew anything about Spiritual Satanism, while I still knew lies about Satan thanks to xianity. It is helpful that you share your understandings from your experiences.