kahiemstra
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- Dec 16, 2008
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Hello all. Newbie here, just signed up. Why? Because I've been on the fence, had questions, been curious for years, have had recent suspicions that I may be a natural Satanic witch. But something happened to me last Thursday night, at a black metal concert. A group came on who began their set with an little Satanic blessing. They played, and I was moved, I mean MOVED. Their music coursed through me in a way that has never happened before. I felt myself vibrating at the exact same level as the music. Both my hands naturally went into the horns, I raised them, I found myself crying out "Hail Satan," and dancing, hard. I went into a meditative state, I felt rapturous, full of joy and exhiliration. I felt compelled to bow down before the stage, in a supplicant pose. I felt more calm and still than I have in a long time, I could feel my eyes slit. Something came over me. People came to me and started talking to me, asking me questions. I answered them, without even knowing where the answers were coming from. I felt more like a channel. I said things I've never said outloud before. People were drawing around me. They looked uncomfortable, but drawn nonetheless. One said I just turned his whole world upside down. I laughed that strange mocking, laugh, the one I get when I realize I've struck fear in someone, when I enjoy watching them squirm. It only lasted a few minutes, I came back to my normal state and left the venue, feeling powerful, confident, and so at peace. I felt like I'd just been initiated somehow.
A door opened that night. I want this. Where do I begin? Figure here is a good place to start, as I did feel joy that night, and magnificent. I am a positive, happy person, one with an incredibly open mind. I've always been actively anti-Christian, but in the last couple months I have lost my tolerance. I've begun to despise them. This is one of many signs that have been telling me to open the door to Satanism. I need to learn to control and magnify my power. I feel chaotic. I seek direction and control. I seek the guidance offered by this community. Thank you.
A door opened that night. I want this. Where do I begin? Figure here is a good place to start, as I did feel joy that night, and magnificent. I am a positive, happy person, one with an incredibly open mind. I've always been actively anti-Christian, but in the last couple months I have lost my tolerance. I've begun to despise them. This is one of many signs that have been telling me to open the door to Satanism. I need to learn to control and magnify my power. I feel chaotic. I seek direction and control. I seek the guidance offered by this community. Thank you.