I often find myself asking for help, not like in an all out ritual. But just in my brain. Like if I am having an especially strenuous day at work, I'll ask in my brain "Father just help me out and let this be over." Or things of the like. These, to me, are harmless. As I really do NOT expect him to even pay any attention. I guess they are little comments I make to myself just to make me feel better.
So my first question is, do you think those little comments bug, or insult Father?
Now for this second part, this may turn out to be kind of long, but please try and read, its not as boring as my usual posts would be. Haha. xD. Okay, I have been considering legitimately asking Father for help in this certain situation. So here it is. Chinese Martial Arts is my passion, it's what I'm going to do with my life, it's EVERYTHING to me. Chinese Martial Arts is what I was born to do. So there is this school in China, run by westerners, where other westerners can go, and learn from some of the best Kung Fu masters in China. The problem is, this costs money. And I'm pretty positive it won't be very cheap at all. I need help on being able to attend this school for at least 4 years. I just need SOME WAY to get there. I feel like it is something I HAVE to do. Not just for my career. But for bigger reasons. Lately I've been feeling a change coming on, like a shift in the worlds energy. Not necessarily good or bad. But just a huge change. The strangest part about how this feels, is that the feeling of me going to China, feels EXACTLY the same as this big change going on. Just to clear this up. The huge change I've been feeling is not specifically for me. As far as the change goes, I feel like its going to effect the whole world in a big way. I'm just not sure what it is. But I digress. With the feeling of the change, and my going to China, I feel like somehow the change depends on my going to China? Do you see what I mean?
So I guess what my question is, do you think I should conduct a full ritual, asking for Fathers help?
So my first question is, do you think those little comments bug, or insult Father?
Now for this second part, this may turn out to be kind of long, but please try and read, its not as boring as my usual posts would be. Haha. xD. Okay, I have been considering legitimately asking Father for help in this certain situation. So here it is. Chinese Martial Arts is my passion, it's what I'm going to do with my life, it's EVERYTHING to me. Chinese Martial Arts is what I was born to do. So there is this school in China, run by westerners, where other westerners can go, and learn from some of the best Kung Fu masters in China. The problem is, this costs money. And I'm pretty positive it won't be very cheap at all. I need help on being able to attend this school for at least 4 years. I just need SOME WAY to get there. I feel like it is something I HAVE to do. Not just for my career. But for bigger reasons. Lately I've been feeling a change coming on, like a shift in the worlds energy. Not necessarily good or bad. But just a huge change. The strangest part about how this feels, is that the feeling of me going to China, feels EXACTLY the same as this big change going on. Just to clear this up. The huge change I've been feeling is not specifically for me. As far as the change goes, I feel like its going to effect the whole world in a big way. I'm just not sure what it is. But I digress. With the feeling of the change, and my going to China, I feel like somehow the change depends on my going to China? Do you see what I mean?
So I guess what my question is, do you think I should conduct a full ritual, asking for Fathers help?