Greetings to my fellow Satanists. Until recently, I believed I had an active contact with my GD and the gods, but after reading some things here, I started having doubts about it. I'll tell you a little of what happened to me, so you can better understand the context.
When I first got into it, I immediately wanted to know who my guardian demon was. I tried the method of evoking some of the gods listed on the site, vibrating their name and focusing on their sigil, as taught in a post here. I had no success, so I decided to just pray to God Satan to show me who my GD was. I just did this and put this matter aside and focused on meditation and RTRs.
A few weeks after this request, I received a sign where I was walking down the street and met a bird that was a symbol of one of the high ranking goddesses of hell. At first I was surprised and just stared at the bird, which looked back at me and let out its characteristic sound. After a few moments, I went on my way and the bird flew away and landed on a pole that was part of the path I was going to follow. Days later, when I am going to the bakery, the cashier was wearing a blouse with the same animal printed in black, white and red.
During this period, on a day when I was meditating, the goddess whose animal-symbol I had seen manifested to me. It didn't have any very obvious physical signs like objects moving or anything, but I could feel her aura, and it was something extremely powerful and at the same time very pleasant. I couldn't see her, but apparently I "heard" her voice telepathically.
Out of concern, I asked her if she was from Satan, and she said yes and confirmed that she was my GD. Furthermore, she gave me a kind of warning, telling me that the enemy entities would try to kill me at all costs. And so, according to her, a daemon under her orders would stay with me the whole time, at least until I evolved in power level to the point of being able to protect myself on my own. After that, she advised me to use the runes to reinforce the meditation I was already doing (I explained about it in this thread: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=270927#p270927 ). After that, she told me a few more things and left.
As soon as she left, I felt another presence in my room, not as strong as the previous one, but at the same time, it also had a pleasant aura, when I felt it. When I asked her if she was from Satan, she confirmed that she was, and that she was under the orders of my GD to assist with my protection. Since then, every time I focus on this entity, I feel her presence by my side. I will list the positive points regarding her presence:
- She always encourages me in my meditation and RTRs
- She advised me to do some soul-release work, which since I started I already feel is having an effect
- Since she appeared, the enemy attacks I used to suffer from have become much milder and practically do not affect me anymore.
- She even helps me in everyday matters, as citing an example, where I had an important deal to settle with my boss in which he could probably be angry with me, but he was calm, to my surprise, and at that moment, I felt her touching me on the shoulder and saying something like, "rest assured, you are an SS, you are with us, there is no reason to fear."
- Every time I think about feeling guilt or something, I almost always hear her saying something like, "don't feel guilt, you will be vulnerable if you cultivate that thought. Just go ahead and do your best."
- She even helps me with my family members who live with me by keeping them out of my room while I meditate, so much so that at no time when I was doing meditation did they ever show up or call me or anything like that. My meditations go smoothly thanks to this.
Despite this, some things that happen to me, but I'm pretty sure it's not because of her, but I'll mention them anyway:
- Almost every time I finish kundalini yoga and take the time to do meditation in the void, I almost always doze off, but I think it's because I sleep very little these days (less than 5h a night), to allow time to do the meditations, RTR, and soul release work.
- When I finish the soul releasing work that I do every night, I almost always feel exhausted, so much so that I have to raise my energy to do the RTR (and the soul releasing work I do is what the High Priest Hooded Cobra 666 taught me, which is to breathe blue energy into the chakras and vibrate ANSUZ or URUZ).
- There have been times when, due to tiredness, I fall asleep in the middle of the RTR (not every time, just once or twice), but even then I wake up and pick up where I left off.
Although I sleep very little, I can stay awake during the day, and this hardly affects me, I think it is due to the power meditation, even my mind is apparently working better than before. I can solve things in my work with my intellect more easily, I can identify a problem and reason the solution with more clarity as well.
But the main reason for my suspicion would be why the enemy entities would attack me with such determination that it is necessary to have a daemon protecting me 24 hours a day? Apparently the attacks are so intense that I cannot protect myself by myself yet, and I need the help of a daemon to keep me alive. Has this kind of situation ever happened to any of you? Requiring the presence of a daemon with you 24 hours or else you could be killed or incapacitated?
Also, what makes me thoughtful is this situation as well. Like, it's okay that my guardian is a high ranking goddess, but why this treatment of me, of allocating a daemon just to protect me? I'm not saying I'm special or anything, on the contrary, I'm just an ordinary SS, so I wonder if this isn't something in my head or an enemy entity, which I think is very unlikely, but what do you think about this based on my account? Do I just have a very vivid imagination or is this situation likely to happen?
Thinking about this, I even thought about a kind of attack that could occur, where hypothetically, the enemy entity arrives at the SS in question, and the SS cautiously asks if she is from Satan. This entity, taking advantage of the fact that the SS does not have fully developed astral senses, confuses his astral senses, making him believe that the entity declared itself to be of Satan, when in fact it just kept quiet and said nothing with respect to the question. Is this possible to happen or is it just my paranoia?
Sorry for the long report, but I needed to resolve this doubt. I left out some details that I don't feel comfortable putting in a public forum, but I believe they don't affect the understanding of the story.
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