First off, I'm so happy that you're so eager and enthusiastic! You seem very happy and that is excellent. This is a hard road to travel, but a rewarding one if you stick with it and trust in yourself and Satan. As for meeting him, He and the Gods are very busy at this time so don't worry if you don't meet him for awhile. Satan will come to you when it is the right time, but you can always do thanksgiving rituals to thank him. Even meditating on his image/sigil will help create a bond. It can be a very blissful experience to feel his energy. Know that he DOES hear us when we pray to him, and he is there for his own. You also have to be spiritually open enough to hear/see him, so focus on opening your astral senses for now.
Right now, what would be best is to continue with the 40 day meditation, and afterwords, continue on with a program that feels right for you. The possibilities are endless and we Satanists place no limits on ourselves. Also, everyone is an individual and feels energy differently. As long as you are FEELING something, then it is working. Energy can feel like buzzing, tingling, heat, cold, what have you. Hope this helps and good luck on your journey!
HAIL SATAN!
I really really wanna build a relationship with Satan. I ask for his protection at school, like talking to him, and it works as fast as you can drop a pen on the floor. It's mad crazy! I wanna hear his voice, I wanna see him, I wanna meet with him, I am ready now! I'm enlighten, I've started the 40 Day Program, I'm on my 2nd day. I just feel like I haven't done the meditations right; however, I feel the energy and heat coming from it. Is that what the aura cleansing and aura of protection does?
You believe in God. That's a good thing. You believed in the wrong God, that's a bad thing. You had a strong belief, which merely means you have many more ties to the enemy than normal. It means you will have to spend more time studying the exposing xianity section and undoing programming. You will find that undoing programming will take time. Best to remain silent until you realize how you have been wrong. Sympathies will in "no way" be tolerated on here. But, you can ask questions on where to get more information regarding the xian bullshit program. As for repenting. It certainly doesn't mean shit, from a xian perspective, and Satan is very patent. Next time your meditating, simply let him know that your sorry for screwing up. I think we've all done things that fall into the "dumb shit category". You had the balls to realize that you did screw up. Remember that and be strong. Satan knows more about you than you do yourself. Just be yourself and be truthful whenever you engage them. Their is no running and hiding like you do with the fake xian god. Their is only honor and dishonor for yourself and for others. You need to learn respect for yourself. Only then will you understand the respect that the Gods know and understand.
