am i being blocked?

[satanist_tryinghard]

For a long time now, I've been meditating, doing as much energy work as I can and studying HP Dietrich's wonderful literature and lessons. But I feel every once in a while that I'm not getting through. Within the last three months (YEARS after I've been a Satanist-going on fifteen years now, even though the first 7 or 8 were LaVeyan years), I've lost my job, had to pay for very expensive repairs on my car and have been looking and listening and meditating everywhere high and low for a message from Enki and/or my Guardian Demon for the reasons for such, and I'll do full-power, long-style rituals with the purification of the air, invocation of the Four, the sigils, the candles, burning parchment, the incense (usually either myrrh or benzoin) and everything else. I did it recently to try to secure a job of data entry, which I've done now for five years of my life. I got the answer of, "Well, Tom, we're going to go in a different direction." I thought "what am I doing wrong?" HP Dietrich talks of sometimes when a person just starts out as being a Satanist angels or other enemy spirits coming in and trying to interfere with that person as far as his or her development. Could that/does that even happen with people who are already confirmed Satanists and who have been so for years and years? I feel as though some sort of a dome or block has been put over my head/life/something becase lately I've been feeling nothing whatsoever-like I'm talking to a brick wall-no "don't worry Tom, we've got things under control" or "we're fighting for you..." no items in my house dematerializing and rematerializing-no dreams, no nothing. Have I maybe offended Enki or a God or Goddess who responds to and partners with Him? I even did the full advanced banishing ritual with the black candle and the sigils of algiz and thurisaz carved on it and......nothing. What's wrong?

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

Learn astrology. Get a forecast done by HPS Maxine. You could be going through a bad transit. I recently went through the opposite, a transit that made me progress fast, so we all have good periods and bad. See what's happening, do specific meditations to counter it (Saturn square, programming aura to deflect all negative energy, extra cleaning and protecting, spinning chakras fast, etc).

Don't worry too much, know that this will pass and you will progress again soon.

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "satanist_tryinghard" <satanist_tryinghard@... wrote:

For a long time now, I've been meditating, doing as much energy work as I can and studying HP Dietrich's wonderful literature and lessons. But I feel every once in a while that I'm not getting through. Within the last three months (YEARS after I've been a Satanist-going on fifteen years now, even though the first 7 or 8 were LaVeyan years), I've lost my job, had to pay for very expensive repairs on my car and have been looking and listening and meditating everywhere high and low for a message from Enki and/or my Guardian Demon for the reasons for such, and I'll do full-power, long-style rituals with the purification of the air, invocation of the Four, the sigils, the candles, burning parchment, the incense (usually either myrrh or benzoin) and everything else. I did it recently to try to secure a job of data entry, which I've done now for five years of my life. I got the answer of, "Well, Tom, we're going to go in a different direction." I thought "what am I doing wrong?" HP Dietrich talks of sometimes when a person just starts out as being a Satanist angels or other enemy spirits coming in and trying to interfere with that person as far as his or her development. Could that/does that even happen with people who are already confirmed Satanists and who have been so for years and years? I feel as though some sort of a dome or block has been put over my head/life/something becase lately I've been feeling nothing whatsoever-like I'm talking to a brick wall-no "don't worry Tom, we've got things under control" or "we're fighting for you..." no items in my house dematerializing and rematerializing-no dreams, no nothing. Have I maybe offended Enki or a God or Goddess who responds to and partners with Him? I even did the full advanced banishing ritual with the black candle and the sigils of algiz and thurisaz carved on it and......nothing. What's wrong?