MercuryWisdom
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Hello, brothers and sisters. Hope you are enjoying the new year.
For a couple of months now and for last year on and off I was in a deep dark depression, one where I struggle to function or grow. Stuck in a rut so to say.
I wanted to check on the Yule raffle cause it’s over so I went to read some messages on VT.
I had a burning flame of inspiration reading @Voice of Enki [SG] and @Alexandros Iowno [SG] messages and guidance. Also, I won’t lie to you but also envy. But good envy.
I envy that they have spiritual power and wisdom, learn from the Gods directly and help the community and have earned the Gods’ favor. But how can I envy them if the only difference is they have put the work in? Year in and year out. So they earned their promised rewards.
I want to grow in power, I want to be able to hold the secrets of the Gods, I want to explore my potential, I want to develop siddhis, and I want to develop wisdom and value to the community. I want to discover my purpose here instead of wasted potential.
I know I’ve been here for many years and tried for endless times. But this time I really have no excuse to grow. When I was younger I didn’t have freedom or privacy to meditate, when I moved out I had college and work taking 16 hours of my day, and now I have freedom to meditate and do rituals as I please and I work on my own terms and have graduated. Also I believe there’s no shame in trying again.
There’s nothing stopping me developing serious spiritual growth and power except myself. I’m dedicating myself with full focus and attention to ToZ and advancing.
I’m creating plans working for ToZ, donating, and growing spiritually and wholly.
I always had this hole inside of me and this feeling of something missing and I know a big part of it is not giving advancement the dedication it deserves.
I’ll update this post yearly with my 5-year progress.
I’m following the footsteps of my great brothers and sisters from SG and also High Priest Hooded Cobra who is the most dedicated of all and has an iron will if I can be even a part of his strength I’d be unbreakable.
I also encourage any brother and sister who feels they are slacking to start finding their fire and get it done. The years will pass anyway but the power’s forever.
For a couple of months now and for last year on and off I was in a deep dark depression, one where I struggle to function or grow. Stuck in a rut so to say.
I wanted to check on the Yule raffle cause it’s over so I went to read some messages on VT.
I had a burning flame of inspiration reading @Voice of Enki [SG] and @Alexandros Iowno [SG] messages and guidance. Also, I won’t lie to you but also envy. But good envy.
I envy that they have spiritual power and wisdom, learn from the Gods directly and help the community and have earned the Gods’ favor. But how can I envy them if the only difference is they have put the work in? Year in and year out. So they earned their promised rewards.
I want to grow in power, I want to be able to hold the secrets of the Gods, I want to explore my potential, I want to develop siddhis, and I want to develop wisdom and value to the community. I want to discover my purpose here instead of wasted potential.
I know I’ve been here for many years and tried for endless times. But this time I really have no excuse to grow. When I was younger I didn’t have freedom or privacy to meditate, when I moved out I had college and work taking 16 hours of my day, and now I have freedom to meditate and do rituals as I please and I work on my own terms and have graduated. Also I believe there’s no shame in trying again.
There’s nothing stopping me developing serious spiritual growth and power except myself. I’m dedicating myself with full focus and attention to ToZ and advancing.
I’m creating plans working for ToZ, donating, and growing spiritually and wholly.
I always had this hole inside of me and this feeling of something missing and I know a big part of it is not giving advancement the dedication it deserves.
I’ll update this post yearly with my 5-year progress.
I’m following the footsteps of my great brothers and sisters from SG and also High Priest Hooded Cobra who is the most dedicated of all and has an iron will if I can be even a part of his strength I’d be unbreakable.
I also encourage any brother and sister who feels they are slacking to start finding their fire and get it done. The years will pass anyway but the power’s forever.





