A Story From My Life: A Short Story On Bullying

[Ursa Minor]

My case was more of the opposite, as I was "too nice" to other kids. I wasn't a total pushover, but I was somewhat gullible. Both my parents taught me how to "limit" this part of me so I wouldn't continue to be abused. The friends I had would also take time to teach me instead of "abandoning" me.

When I was in middle school, most other kids there disliked me, mainly because I didn't "act black". I tried forcing myself to fit in, but usually failed and got harassed as a result. Don't use "big words" they said, "why do you not like rap?" they asked. I knew my preferences but couldn't explain them well.

As an adult now, I don't have to deal with people like that, I can just leave. I've learned why I am the way I am, but it's not like they would care about the answers anyway. The power to completely avoid negative and incompatible people has given me the space to mentally and spiritually heal. In a way, adulthood has been "easier" for me than my school years.

I still encounter "covert bullies", but after learning Black Magick and AOP, they are no longer an issue. If my aura on its own doesn't block them, I use curses to fuck them up. Also, there was this Yehubor at my workplace that kept trying to stir up drama. When I started doing the Rituals more consistently, that Yehubor got it's own drama at home preventing it from returning to work. It seems the better I get I using Magick, the more my life improves.

 

[WKM]

One word,REEEEEFRESHING.

It s a pleasure to know it exist a spiritual path without that fucking garbage of ,,nonviolence legislation,,

 

[SShiva_fr]

BTW do you know where I can find that audio recording again? I wanna experience it one more time

Here is the link to the post "Meditation for the pineal gland and the 6th chakra" with the audio!

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=61420

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Ahhh fucking hell bringing back nasty high school memories like that you're straight cruel HP!!!

I am happy for all the people that got revenge against their andrapod bullies because i couldn't, being skinny and having hearth problems put you at a huge disavantage, also being into a class full of andrapoda and having most of them against you because you're not like them.

Maybe i should **** because it seems i still have quite a lot pent up anger left and no amount of time or working could help if i am not settling some accounts, trully feel bad because i didn't acted and because i was such a coward.

I had to remove the descriptive things, do not do that. You do not want to die or go to prison just because some idiot is decided they want to pick a random fight or bully you. One must evade. Lots of no lifers and idiots are around. Do not put yourself in danger because of these fools. If you have these problems, then you are not a coward in reality.

In almost all cases, bullies are totally retarded and just seek to bring people down to a corrupted level of negativity. Regardless, I think if you are in a sensitive situation, you must learn certain things like knockouts and other things you can utilize in case you are threatened, but also learning how to locate potential threats. This largely involves staying away from these in the first place of course.

Just use the means at your disposal in ToZ, and all is fine.

 

[hailourtruegod]

Only reason I have ever been bullied was because of how confident (but still reasonably humble) I was and also for being a handsome kid. I had ugly kids try to fight me or just talk behind my back or try to make me feel inadequate somehow. I never really tried in middle school or highs school to pick up girls but had luck and had them come to me but I never acted snobby about it as it felt gross and strange to act in such a way. I tried to be like it once but it felt really artificial. I'm very humble by nature. Although I know how it sounds saying I was picked on for being cute lol but that is literally what happened and never understood why people act like that when I thought people only got picked on for being nerdy or whatever the stereotype is in movies and shows.

As for fights, the last time I got into an actual fight was in middle school. I'm not counting the sparring I do now.

Only reason I swung at the kid was because we were horsing around but he got serious and choked me and dug his nails into my neck so I gave him a swift left hook to the chin which made him let go and once I saw him jerk slightly forward I threw another hook at the same spot. His response was"I was just kidding dude". Still remember it.

To this day I'm slightly surprised at the accuracy since I had never trained to fight at that point. I am good at defending myself when my adrenaline is up and feel threatened, though. I have great instincts and even as a skinny kid I had held my own and was (and still) very quick.

I just didn't know how to hone in those skills back then and I probably would had gotten myself into unnecessary fights if I did take lessons as I did have anger problems back then. Everything worked out in the end and I'm glad it did.

Definitely more rational now and teaching younger relatives this is the best way to be.

 

[patrioticgentile_666]

I heavily recommend this website, since it tackles issues like these, seeing the comments from fellow Zevism:

No Nonsense Self-Defense

The person has legitimate experience with the Law, and also lived in a ghetto neighborhood, and having worked in professions dealing with dangerous criminals and bullies, so he and his wife are the real deal. In terms of the valuable treasure of information once can on his site vs. other "self-defense gurus", I often compare it to the info on ToZ vs. other "Zevist" websites. His website isn't geared towards money-making schemes or flashy graphics, but telling people the true reality of self-defense, and predator vs. victim mentality, and the signs and motives for aggression. He also covers bullies, and how to legally deal with bullies, unfortunately - it's not what many would see as ideal (meaning - kick his/her ass at first provocation).

Most importantly, he also focuses on the differences between "pacificism" and what he's teaching, the two aren't the same, the differences between ruthless aggression (bullies) and necessary force, and why people who "defend themselves" (both actual defenders, or bullies whose ego got hurt by another bully), get arrested or in trouble.

Touches on many points that self-proclaimed "self-defense gurus" running martial arts money schemes don't point out, especially the mental aspects. He also gets ridiculed by these fake or know-it-all gurus, just like the way ToZ has gotten attacked by Fake Zevists or LeVayevans.

 

[Captain666]

I had a bully. Asked Zeus to do something about it. Bully didn’t graduate high school, fell into drugs and hard times.

 

[serpentwalker666]

Unfortunately the problems like you describe, that I've experienced always seemed to end up really bad.

Most arguments, fights, anything of that nature have always gotten gravely serious either from both of us, me, or the offender.

I've never been very strong and I've always tried to be nice ad stay away from rude, ignorant people.

I have dealt with bullies and such. However as I started growing spiritual power, I've learned I've had to completely step away from things, not act spiritually, or dwell or focus on it, and to try to remove myself.

I've had situations where I'd act spiritually against someone who wouldn't leave me alone, and was trying to hurt me, or cause problems, and they would end up in a very bad condition.

Life changing problems of a negative nature would happen to them even if it wasn't my intention.

I don't do much black magick because of this.

I've had situations where someone has enraged me from how they treated me, and they ended up in car accidents, broke bones and other severe circumstances, just from me being angry about the situation.

Like for example if we get in a fight, and we break others bones, I don't think my rage should equate with them experiencing getting steam rolled by my energy. As we both just got equivalent punishment already. That isn't fair.

This hasn't been every interaction, but it's been extreme throughout my life.

Most people that have wronged me damn near have been just fully wrecked.

To be honest. I wish that wasn't the case.

My energy when it comes to black magick or any negative interaction is far to intense. It's like a raging inferno waiting to consume everything in its path if provoked.

This is why I may seem "pacist" in that aspect. But its just mainly because I know that things dont ever end well when I'm in arguments, fights, or conflict. Or spiritual conflict.

It's a bit upsetting, and hard to deal with. I've always been pure hearted and peace living, just I am not someone who should be in conflict if it can helped, if that makes any sense.

I'm actually a very benevolent caring person. Just have serious destructive capabilities that I have learned to keep under wraps over the years seeing what it could do.

I find it hard to even talk about it truthfully.

 

[Voice of Enki [SG]]

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I had been in countless fight from school even up to University. I had long hair as a kid, and of course, others did pick up on me, as I looked like a victim. But my father did forced me to do push ups even from 7 years old. I was trained to box, and in a real manner with real blows, with tears. I found a real force of muscle when young and a proud power within me, masculine.
...

Regardless, I have enjoyed reading this, and also sharing myself a story of this.

I dislike how men are so cucked nowadays and told to just be soft. When trouble comes, it is the men who fight to protect their people. Violence is a necessary force, together with control over it.

I have a very deadly anger that is murderous to say the least (Mars/Pluto aspect and some fire placements). But it is very hard for me to just fight since I do not want a criminal record on my name.

Plus I can curse people anyway and I prefer to curse them so bad, I'd need to bind them so they don't commit suicide to escape the torment. I am the most peaceful person but my anger is like a possession in itself. I have extremes of both sides. I normally only fight when I have to. I used to have a lot of anger issues as a child, punching walls but I've come to have some very good control over my emotions. One of the few times I fought in high school was against some huge muscular guy who thought he could just push me around.

That must have been hilarious how they had to bring you sandwiches :lol: . When you tame a bully as a kid, it brings their ego down and raises yours way up.

In many regards I see a lot of similarity to my own life in what you said. Also what I highlighted in bold.

As a child it was as if I had two entirely different sides, my usual self that was calm, a bit naive, and friendly, and another that was violent and had extreme anger.

If I got angry I was uncompromising and would literally go on a rampage, breaking things or violently attacking people in my rage, adults or not. It didn't happen often, but when it did it would shock people greatly, to see such violence come from such a small child.

I didn't fight often, but when I did I always lost all restraint and would have no recollection of what I did afterwards.

People didn't mess with me in school or highschool because it was well known what happened if I snapped at someone, even for bullies or the "tough" kids they avoided it, as it wasn't worth it to push me too much.

As I grew older I gained self control. Now I do everything in my power to avoid conflict, because I know I do not have the restraint to find a middle ground and I know I could take a life too easily if I ever snap like I used to as a child or teen.

Worst yet, conflict, even defending yourself, has been made mostly illegal.

Only the police or the immigrant scum who the authorities turn a blind eye against can dish out beatings against whomever.

The only way to remain safe where I live is to avoid conflict best you can, as any conflict results in a loss in this pathetic sissified society,
either you get shanked by a bitch who's too pathetic to take a deserved beating, or you end up neck deep in legal shit because you put another in their place.

 

[EnkiUK]

" post_id=391291 time=1664634084 user_id=19170]
I have a rogue uncle who's been bullying my mother. Took a lot but I controlled myself not to beat him senseless but the bully has some lifelong curses coming his way. Standing up to bullies is a virtue. You did well Brother.

I like this way also, well done brother

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

In a healthy society with spiritual awareness, people would be able to defend themselves without being punished for it.

And boys would be able to fight. Fighting is natural among most boys, it builds character and forms friendships. Many male friendships in the older days were formed from two boys randomly getting into a fight and respecting each other for it after. This doesn't happen anymore, and males become pent-up and repressed with no healthy form of a physical outlet. Boys throwing a few punches makes them healthier and happier.

 

[Flamma Bellum]

I wasn’t that one who always was getting into conflict in school but when others tried to harm me always had punch into face and this always was the end for it.

 

[Diablo 666]

I live in South Africa. I remember when I was in primary school, most teachers and kids were mentally corrupt. There were fights every day mostly during school time and after school. Chaos and bullying were common. Teachers bullied me and many of my peers were old and should have been in secondary school. Many teachers used to eat kids' sandwiches that came from our parents. We were severely abused by teachers regularly and unreasonably, and they had their favorite children. I remember the other teacher wiping her shoes with my hate and laughing while doing this. I used to get beaten at school every day, but then I started fighting back. I beat the bully guy and then I hid for him when he came with his group. When he did, they searched all over for me and called my name. When my relative asked why they were looking for me, they beat her called her a slut, and kept looking for me. I was hiding and watching. I beat another guy the following month, despite trying to avoid him, but he was so persistent that I hit him with chairs. He never tried to fight me again. I was attacked many times at primary school, even nearly killed by an older guy holding my wind pipe blocking oxygen for a few minutes.


I remember several years ago, when the other white guy came to me and we discussed Christianity in the town. Particularly in regards to Jewhovah, I explained to him that God is a lie and a thought form. He was so shocked to hear that. He told me that every time he prays he feels like part of his soul is taken away so fuck god, he was so happy to meet someone like me. Then there is the fucking problem, the Yehuborim fuck passing near where we were chilling, and screaming at me said:" You can't talk like that about god'', he pointed his finger at me and walked to talk to other yehuborim nearby, when he came back he was full of rage and told me to always keep quiet and never tell anyone again, he threatened me that he would do something serious. It's the day I will never forget, he scared the daylights of me, he was toll with the big hoke nose.

 

[OhNoItsMook]

Had no idea so many people had such difficult childhoods, consisting of physical abuse and bullying (either at home or at school). I was raised quite well off in a wealthy institution, so I lived a very sheltered life; I've never experienced physical altercations with anybody. I somewhat fear it, and take to avoiding conflict if I ever sense it manifesting.

Hearing some of our stories here makes me realize just how fortunate of a life I've lived...

At school, I didn't look or behave anything out of the ordinary, but people would somehow feel uncomfortable around me, or see me as a way to dump their emotions on. Either straight up insulting me, or "venting" to me under the guise that I "listen so well" (when they truly simply exploited me as a scapegoat).

One time my two closest "friends" at the time said they could tangibly sense a disturbing aura emanating from me (I didn't believe in such concepts at the time, so I just said oh well). Over some weeks, they eventually turned very sour against me, and I was left confused and alone. They were not Yehuborim.

Some other people were more direct in their discomfort against me, threatening they'd beat me up (never did it though), or always expressing disdain to everything I thought or said. Very strange...

Then, towards the end of high school, some unfortunate circumstances occurred that summoned incredible rage from me. Like, these people would continue to push and push me because I just continued to "take" things. But it all goes somewhere, unbeknownst to them... or myself at the time. It's a form of explosive, consuming anger with murderous intent, and it was only ever after I displayed this, that these "bullies" backed the fuck off with their tails between their legs.

I've been told by some people that they had never imagined me capable of anything of the sort, because I'm always happy and energetic, and that it is truly frightening when I do burst. I now know I have major placements in fire and water.

I still face strange, baseless forms of antagonism from people, being blamed for nothing, or them being angry with me, from time to time.
When I do receive this or other forms of abuse, I "take it", because I am able to override negative emotions with my natural sense of happiness and optimism. I don't truly simply accept the abuse, however; I delay any negative feelings from it and ultimately channel them into black magic when the situation is thought to be over... when no one ever thinks of it.

The thing is, people who are being assholes don't tend to think at all about the victim after the fact; it is the victim that is emotionally affected for much longer. I have discovered myself to be an incredibly vengeful individual. Now knowing how our thought energy works, I've managed to take advantage of this to boil and brood such emotions, and actually wreak unimaginable havoc against the offender(s).

Thanks to black/white magic. I have caused catastrophic consequences to people who direct hatred towards me. Though, I know the Demons can work to deliver justice, too, in our lives, especially those whom we are close with.

Black (and white) magic has seriously granted the best forms of justice in my experience, and I am strongly grateful for it. What it took for me in the end, personally, was to pretend to take the harassment, then blow them up.
Although I am not too sure, I do believe there is some form of universal law that oversees what we do (action) and what it brings us (reaction). This counts for both good and bad things alike. Things worked out in the end for me, after all.

It just seems to take some time to come back around (and it can sometimes take quite a while).

 

[Blackdragon666]

I was bullied at school quite a bit in my teenage years. ...

That was a very rough childhood you had. I hate bullies too and people who step on innocents. They incite rage in me.

 

[Blackdragon666]

Much of the time if you push someone with mutable signs far enough they can be very violent and explode. I know this myself and I experienced the 'black out' in a very similar way.

I do not espouse anything here either, but when one is put in a cage with chimpanzees whom every communist teacher or authority figure finds to be a perfect little darling, blood can spill. Unfortunately this is an inevitability of the way society is going. This is why courting the right allies and strength in numbers [divination can be used here] is a good idea for men and is in no way a 'feminine pursuit'. Libra representing justice and these things is a male sign after all.

Virgos can be very cruel. This is the sign opposite Pisces. Just like Capricorn is cold and ruthless being the opposite sign of the soft motherly sign Cancer.

 

[Blackdragon666]

" post_id=391352 time=1664650222 user_id=19170]

I had been in countless fight from school even up to University. I had long hair as a kid, and of course, others did pick up on me, as I looked like a victim. But my father did forced me to do push ups even from 7 years old. I was trained to box, and in a real manner with real blows, with tears. I found a real force of muscle when young and a proud power within me, masculine.
...

Regardless, I have enjoyed reading this, and also sharing myself a story of this.

I dislike how men are so cucked nowadays and told to just be soft. When trouble comes, it is the men who fight to protect their people. Violence is a necessary force, together with control over it.

I have a very deadly anger that is murderous to say the least (Mars/Pluto aspect and some fire placements). But it is very hard for me to just fight since I do not want a criminal record on my name. Plus I can curse people anyway and I prefer to curse them so bad, I'd need to bind them so they don't commit suicide to escape the torment. I am the most peaceful person but my anger is like a possession in itself. I have extremes of both sides. I normally only fight when I have to. I used to have a lot of anger issues as a child, punching walls but I've come to have some very good control over my emotions. One of the few times I fought in high school was against some huge muscular guy who thought he could just push me around.

That must have been hilarious how they had to bring you sandwiches :lol: . When you tame a bully as a kid, it brings their ego down and raises yours way up.

I have a very deadly anger that is murderous to say the least (Mars/Pluto aspect and some fire placements).

Tell me all about it! I told myself that I did not want my past and other things to bring me to destruction, and so I started doing things to channel my frustration and anger for good causes. Its one of the reasons I went into the military at first I thought I could use it for something constructive. I remember walking up to my recruiter and going " I wanna make weapons". Thats how I got in the metal industry and eventually construction. It channels a lot and it's great and keeps me active. Some other things are still a lifelong work in progress.

The best way to handle such intense energies is always with using them to do constructive things. I'm channeled your situation to a better outlet sister. Always proud of you.

 

[Wotanwarrior]

Looking at the comments it's very curious how many Zevism have had the same problems as children, my story is quite similar, in my school there was a group of fucking gypsies who terrorized the other students including me and as I was also much larger and stronger than average they told me I was "dumb" for not giving them what they deserved.
And on the other hand I was a lonely kid who didn't like to pick on others.

 

[Blackdragon666]

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This is true. For some of us, dwelling on rage brings misfortune to the other person. Years ago in campus when I was staying in hostels some guy who I shared a room with was very passive aggressive. I'd never provoke him or retaliate but he just had a way to piss me off. One time I had enough and strongly willed he hurts himself. Less than ten minutes later he is involved in an accident that hurts his hand.

When you have real actual power, you tend to be more responsible. You avoid fights because it's not a simple affair and you can seriously hurt the other person. Similar to having deadly anger.

 

[Ursa Minor]

The more I read these stories about you guys Brings tears of both anger and joy. Also your stories are short and sweet! We're mine is long and dragged out. Plus years gets to the point and makes sense!. I have that problem where my mind thinks quicker than my hand. Also reading these stories makes feel blessed that we are still alive and doing well. In spite of our enemies and what they put us through. I hate yehuborim so damn much! That if I were to put it in my words! I would get kicked out of the group and I don't want to get into trouble! But expressing my hatred for the yehuborim! Would be a lot easier! Then to write down about the things that I would like to do!. Having to put up with these disgusting rodents! And having to tolerate them in our society! Is more than I can handle! The more I hear about them and the more I read about them the more I hate and despise them! Thank you for sharing your story. They were heart-felt. And encouraging! And to make it short! What I wanted to say is that I've been through similar situations myself growing up as a smile child. And as a teenager! And so I know that pain all together too well! And that rage of having to put up with those hateful individuals! My heart ❤ goes out to you.
We all have a lot in common...when it comes to hating yehuborim and Jesus freaks. And what we have learned from our past and what we have become now. Ave Zeus!!!

I'm glad you find find comfort here, as I do as well. Also, to calm your mind you can try invoking the earth element into your brain. It helped stabilize my overactive imagination.

 

[BigBeaver]

It never ceases to amaze me with these yehuborim!? The stupid Antics they come up with just to piss people like us off.. it doesn't make anything any better! And it's certainly doesn't make a Yehubor and do a better person either! It just magnifies them and makes them stand out even more as the Predators that they are and have proven to be numbers of times throughout the centuries! They know laugh out loud that they are different and that they stand out like a sore thumb! And they do so many things in many ways to make themselves stand out as it is! And they do it on purpose! They are the most prideful and the most obnoxious of all beings! They were always the ones that started the wars throughout the centuries... and of course they're always going to be the one starting the problems in the office! No matter where you going life you're always going to run into a fucking Yehubor somewhere? And they stand out like a sore ass! They're disgusting features as well as their personality disorder and their mental illness

Pfff, you simply cant understand them, I swear every time I tried to understand their behaviour my brain would give me an error 404 because it was straight out impossible, it felt like my itelligence was dropping just by looking at them xD

 

[Thuledragon666]

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Very profound. We can choose to be an agent of chaos and destruction, or we can choose to carry out Satan's will of using vigilance sparingly, and only to protect those who are dear to us instead of bullying others...

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-High Priest Zevios Metathronos 666

I have a similar experience with bullying but this is when I am a young adult so I couldn't do anything that will probably end up being considered a hate crime or murder. I was working at a supermarket and there was this Mexican dude who worked at that subway last and this year... he came into work drunk all the time, hit on every woman the young and very old, threatened minors, and made fun of people for just being homosexual. This guy did not know how to shut his mouth and is the reason I believe we need a limit on freedom of speech that allows us to lynch someone who goes out of their way to be such a social pariah as I described above that no one can stand their toxic presence.


concerning to how this creep was messing with me personally

1. I was dating a guy last year and he found out because I told a new friend about it that couldn't keep that a secret (good job everyone else in the store who heard for being mature about it) the creep came sit by me while I was trying to eat on break and was asking me "so wait are you actually gay????" with his cheesy rat smile this made me uncomfortable because I did not want anyone really knowing about this but people I felt could be I could confide in

after a weird conversation it would be a little later he would ask me "how do you guys fuck, who is the bitch" and I basically said "that is none of your business" I shrugged that off and thought "maybe he didn't know how rude that was"

it would be later that night the dude who was supposed to be my friend would talk to this creep and the creep commented "gay people are such clowns, funny as shit seeing them" and this made the guy tip his moped over (because he has a gay brother which should be a fair enough reasoning) the creep thought it was an accident and the guy who was supposed to be my friend did pull me aside and tell me about everything about that creep and that is when everything started to tick and hate started to build


I would report all of that to management and a case was set against the creep.

2. would make lies about me and my ex (granted these never worked because nobody believed the guy that also treated them poorly and made shit up about them too)

3. would threaten me and act like he did nothing when he clearly has done something and I stayed willful on this case for nearly a year until he got fired and banned from the store.

how did he? getting fired because he threatened the minor that works at the store, got banned because he called me a soft person 3 times and I blew up on him about threatening a minor, about his constant lying, and what a coward HE is. This was the last straw and management finally decided that this cannot be happening anymore.


I held onto this for nearly a year in spite of the pain I felt because its not acceptable how he treats minors and women, how he got gays fired or to quit. it stopped becoming about me but everyone around that is tired of him making their time at work worse for the crappy wage of 11 or 12 dollars an hour. I hated this creep because he was so Yehuborim and every time I may end up seeing him, I come closer to committing that hate crime because I hate him so much and that aggravates in me the desire to assault and kill him. I think bullying the bully with physical violence would be so great but its sad that is against the law, there is yehuborim and there is andrapoda like this piece of shit. Zevios, thank you for this amazing sermon that let me get a chance to speak about my experience with a "bully".

 

[VerSus]

I grew up during my early teens in a heavily aggressive environment where teachers were intimidated, beated and so on. Maybe the most tragic part of it was my day to day mission to downgrade myself in order not to attract attention; from the looks - to the grades! The mission was to look and act average and lose myself in the crowd. Unfortunately when I went without options, I eventuality developed too, criminal instincts, adaptation being everything.(Luckly I discovered blackmagic as a safe (and legal) outlook nowadays).The only time I regret in the past was when one of the schoolmates came to punch me and I did not react. It altered the course of my life (and personality) forever.

As for boys and violence, I disagree, too. because I seen real violence in real life and I know how fragile is actually the human body (and mind). You know, things are not like in actions movies or your fantasies - one punch can really kill somebody so, better not. I think is important to (know how)defend yourself and others but not to promote violence as a healthy development step into adulthood, because it isn't. My dad was in the situation of almost killing somebody when he was younger. Black magic is the answer and key, again.

 

[CandiceLee1313]

Okay...not to change the subject here..but I'm beginning to wonder? What is going on here this is like the third time I got a disapproval on a post? That I shared.. and maybe it was a little off the topic but I was trying to get to the point! My phone was not cooperating and not to mention the fact that needed to be charged up! And before I even got a chance to change or correct any errors... I accidentally push submit on one of my posts? Before I had to turn off my phone to charge it up! I apologize! And the other post? Was an error! I have been having problems with my phone and devices all day today! So if anything got posted? It was my phone! I'm trying to figure out what to type out and what to say and didn't even get a chance to get on either one of them to change your correct any errors or any mishaps! Not to mention the fact trying to get back on here! As it is to explain anything! And I do know that one of the post was posted on this very page here with HP "s storry. And then two on another page IT'S okay to be weak. .. just to let you know what is going on! No laugh out loud I'm not trying to be stupid! I am not drunk! I have been having problems with my phone! Which is basically how I get on here! I have been having trouble with my devices this whole week is a matter of fact! So just to let you people know what is going on and without any FURTHER information it is just been one of those weeks and I've been dealing with this problem on and off! And I will do whatever I can in Satan's name to take care of it! Iam sorry about the error posts.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

Seeing we're all sharing stories.. Ill tell a little about myself.

Growing up there were quite a few things that were lacking. There was neglect at home.. And a lot of fighting with my sibling.
At school I had a teacher when I was 4 years old who almost always yelled to the class to stop doing what they were doing and to go do the next thing, which to me, was very upsetting.
Instead of trying to calm me down she set me aside in the storage room. And waited.

Later on, I could at least get along with some of my classmates, but after the school was rebuild (it burnt down in a fire) they left.
There was this one incident, where they started to namecall and I think I stood up for myself back then and then they tried it with another child and I protected them but looking back perhaps I made myself a target or something happened in the meantime, I don't remember but at some points the remarks, the namecalling, the pranks, the "oh Im nice to you today, *NOT*" started. And mind you, I was 7 years old at that time.

At home I remember my parents arguing over a difference of opinion. Which happened quite frequently and it would often end with my dad raising his voice despite that they never called one another names. Followed by ignoring one another.

I don't think that raising your voice is good and I certainly was not the type of person as a child to just lose my cool and start shouting.

When I was 10 one of my teachers understood what was going on, and asked me "have you ever been angry? Its okay to be angry and let yourself hear to them, that its not okay what they're doing".
I don't think I've ever just been angry before. And if I was it probably wasnt for a long time or whatever.

The next year we had some sport thing we could each choose what we wanted to try out and if we wanted to continue that and so I ended up in a kickboxing combi class with fitness elements. After a while I noticed that I could let my frustration out better and one day a couple months later I am pretty sure I lost it and I uppercutted one of the bullies right on his chin.
I don't quite remember what happened after that.

I fought quite a lot as a kid with my sibling. Almost daily. He'd say stupid things, call me names, annoy me to no end and never listen to "stop" which often resulted in us hitting each other.
Mom didn't really do anything except punish. I didn't feel protected growing up.
Her advice to bullies "ignore them". But what she didn't understand was that the things they said were so hurtful it felt like they were stabbing me with daggers.
It wasn't even about clothes or whatever. Just stupid snarky comments.

Secundary ed was horendous.. The first year was a lot to take in, and with the extra stuff that happened I do not even remember some of the things that happened.

A few things that I did notice though in that time..
Kids spoke like they did in soaps. Oh it is this pattern of speech / comment. Especially the "populair" ones that went drinking every weekend.

And that there was one girl that spoke to her little bro about me and that entire classes from the time that that little brother entered the school went by the place I had lunch calling me that one nickname. The stupid thing is, those were 12y old kids that had just entered that school whilst I was already in the year before graduation and this still continued and it wasn't like a small group, it was an entire class of 20-30 kids.

Aside from that, talking behind your back, getting purposefully excluded, having people manipulate you and even somehow ending up talking to controlling psychopaths (the latter was mostly over the internet) ..

I've probably had to deal with about any kind of indirect / non physical kind of bullying and some forms of physical bullying.

I would like to conclude this by saying that I wish that those people from my primary school that made my life hell back then would slowly rot and perish.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Thank you all for sharing stories, I read all of them, indeed as Mook and others said, life cannot always be that much positive for all.

Also, I also do believe this conversation brought us all to think about things in our personal life, and think how we should have reacted when we should or shouldn't have, and what was right to do as in not reacting or reacting.

This makes us then rerun some situations in our mind through newfound wisdom that we all develop today.

Admittedly I read some stories and I wish some of you never had them, but at least now you can shape your future. We also should bring in mind the peace and solace of knowing the knowledge of the Gods instead of being full victims of the world.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

Okay...not to change the subject here..but I'm beginning to wonder? What is going on here this is like the third time I got a disapproval on a post? That I shared.. and maybe it was a little off the topic but I was trying to get to the point! My phone was not cooperating and not to mention the fact that needed to be charged up! And before I even got a chance to change or correct any errors... I accidentally push submit on one of my posts? Before I had to turn off my phone to charge it up! I apologize! And the other post? Was an error! I have been having problems with my phone and devices all day today! So if anything got posted? It was my phone! I'm trying to figure out what to type out and what to say and didn't even get a chance to get on either one of them to change your correct any errors or any mishaps! Not to mention the fact trying to get back on here! As it is to explain anything! And I do know that one of the post was posted on this very page here with HP "s storry. And then two on another page IT'S okay to be weak. .. just to let you know what is going on! No laugh out loud I'm not trying to be stupid! I am not drunk! I have been having problems with my phone! Which is basically how I get on here! I have been having trouble with my devices this whole week is a matter of fact! So just to let you people know what is going on and without any FURTHER information it is just been one of those weeks and I've been dealing with this problem on and off! And I will do whatever I can in Satan's name to take care of it! Iam sorry about the error posts.

Run an anti-virus and clear your history. That usually helps me when something is 'off'.

 

[SSinHeartandSoul]

'unfortunately' I lost control.

There is nothing unfortunate about that, if you did not lose control what would have happened to you? In fact i would argue that it was a good thing for you, it not only stopped the senseless bullying but it also taught you a couple of valuable lessons.

I wish i would have a turning point like that in my childhood, i have been bullied pretty badly myself, but in contrary to you and to most other comments i read, i did not stand up for myself and always let everything happen to me. There were times where i got beaten up so badly that i got back home covered blood. There was also this one time where i went to store for my mother and on the way there i got beat up pretty badly but still i went on to the store afterwards because i promised i would.

I was one of the gentlest souls out there, and sadly i didn't find my fire until adulthood. So to anyone reading this be proud if you stood up for yourself, There is not a whole lot to gain if you stay meek.

Delight in what you create, Delight in what you destroy.

 

[A666]

Hello.
I liked to fight, since I was a child. I did not feel fear because the opponent was bigger, whether there were several of them, or if he had something in his hand. Reading your stories, I will tell you about one of my lives. I was not a Zevist or any other faith. I was 12 years old and in broad daylight a grown man tried to rape me by throwing me into a bush. I managed to escape. I was stupid enough to tell my mother about it. I was blamed for this, how can I lie like that? He is such a great man! Who loves children so much! After this situation and my helplessness, my hatred, pain and suffering caused by this event reached its zenith. I remember letting it all out, being alone, visualizing this guy because I had an image of him in my head, the last words, when I vented my anger, pain and suffering, you will die in 3 days. Young, in his thirties, without any diseases, he died after 3 days. And I know that it is no accident, and I have never once felt sorry for him. I was glad that he was dead and I never felt guilty.

 

[promitheusS88]

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In a healthy society with spiritual awareness, people would be able to defend themselves without being punished for it.

And boys would be able to fight. Fighting is natural among most boys, it builds character and forms friendships. Many male friendships in the older days were formed from two boys randomly getting into a fight and respecting each other for it after. This doesn't happen anymore, and males become pent-up and repressed with no healthy form of a physical outlet. Boys throwing a few punches makes them healthier and happier.

I remember a story back when i was in school also. There was this boy, a bully, one of the worst of a kind. He had beaten up hard many guys and also girls and the teachers they did not care so this little shit was going unpunished for a long time. One day, i remember, things went a bit too far and we decided that we will take the situation on our hands... so what happened ? We kicked his ass so hard that he was crying like a baby, the guy that most of the school feared. But this rough experience it seemed that he had taught him something important and slowly he actually became a nice guy and stood to some people as a good friend. So yeah Lydia, i totally agree with your post!

 

[Shadowcat]

Seeing we're all sharing stories.. Ill tell a little about myself.

Growing up there were quite a few things that were lacking. There was neglect at home.. And a lot of fighting with my sibling.
At school I had a teacher when I was 4 years old who almost always yelled to the class to stop doing what they were doing and to go do the next thing, which to me, was very upsetting.
Instead of trying to calm me down she set me aside in the storage room. And waited.

Later on, I could at least get along with some of my classmates, but after the school was rebuild (it burnt down in a fire) they left.
There was this one incident, where they started to namecall and I think I stood up for myself back then and then they tried it with another child and I protected them but looking back perhaps I made myself a target or something happened in the meantime, I don't remember but at some points the remarks, the namecalling, the pranks, the "oh Im nice to you today, *NOT*" started. And mind you, I was 7 years old at that time.

At home I remember my parents arguing over a difference of opinion. Which happened quite frequently and it would often end with my dad raising his voice despite that they never called one another names. Followed by ignoring one another.

I don't think that raising your voice is good and I certainly was not the type of person as a child to just lose my cool and start shouting.

When I was 10 one of my teachers understood what was going on, and asked me "have you ever been angry? Its okay to be angry and let yourself hear to them, that its not okay what they're doing".
I don't think I've ever just been angry before. And if I was it probably wasnt for a long time or whatever.

The next year we had some sport thing we could each choose what we wanted to try out and if we wanted to continue that and so I ended up in a kickboxing combi class with fitness elements. After a while I noticed that I could let my frustration out better and one day a couple months later I am pretty sure I lost it and I uppercutted one of the bullies right on his chin.
I don't quite remember what happened after that.

I fought quite a lot as a kid with my sibling. Almost daily. He'd say stupid things, call me names, annoy me to no end and never listen to "stop" which often resulted in us hitting each other.
Mom didn't really do anything except punish. I didn't feel protected growing up.
Her advice to bullies "ignore them". But what she didn't understand was that the things they said were so hurtful it felt like they were stabbing me with daggers.
It wasn't even about clothes or whatever. Just stupid snarky comments.

Secundary ed was horendous.. The first year was a lot to take in, and with the extra stuff that happened I do not even remember some of the things that happened.

A few things that I did notice though in that time..
Kids spoke like they did in soaps. Oh it is this pattern of speech / comment. Especially the "populair" ones that went drinking every weekend.

And that there was one girl that spoke to her little bro about me and that entire classes from the time that that little brother entered the school went by the place I had lunch calling me that one nickname. The stupid thing is, those were 12y old kids that had just entered that school whilst I was already in the year before graduation and this still continued and it wasn't like a small group, it was an entire class of 20-30 kids.

Aside from that, talking behind your back, getting purposefully excluded, having people manipulate you and even somehow ending up talking to controlling psychopaths (the latter was mostly over the internet) ..

I've probably had to deal with about any kind of indirect / non physical kind of bullying and some forms of physical bullying.

I would like to conclude this by saying that I wish that those people from my primary school that made my life hell back then would slowly rot and perish.

When I was younger I was actually very protective of smaller and younger children who were being victimized. My mom took note of this also and told other people. I remember in middle school standing up for someone and all of a sudden the whole class turned against me. There was this little shit in daycare I even remember his name. He picked on me all the time for no reason and it got to the point where i got violent and started picking fights with him to leave me alone. The little bastard grabbed me by my wrists and kicked me in the stomach real hard. Later on when i was in middle school i encountered him again. This time i was twice his size and he was a head shorter than me and every time he saw me he would menacingly stare. I stared back at him one time and went "WHAT?!" when his response was a sheepish smile with "oh no I'm just playing". :lol:

If we grew up together the little urchins you had to put up with at school probably would have hid.

 

[Shadowcat]

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Much of the time if you push someone with mutable signs far enough they can be very violent and explode. I know this myself and I experienced the 'black out' in a very similar way.

I do not espouse anything here either, but when one is put in a cage with chimpanzees whom every communist teacher or authority figure finds to be a perfect little darling, blood can spill. Unfortunately this is an inevitability of the way society is going. This is why courting the right allies and strength in numbers [divination can be used here] is a good idea for men and is in no way a 'feminine pursuit'. Libra representing justice and these things is a male sign after all.

Virgos can be very cruel. This is the sign opposite Pisces. Just like Capricorn is cold and ruthless being the opposite sign of the soft motherly sign Cancer.

My Grandmother had several Virgo placements and showed mostly the positive traits of Virgo, She was always trying to see the good in people, talked about being of help and service to others, and was extremely generous. This depends on the chart as we know, but Cancers can also be very cruel, cold, quite vindictive as well, and especially emotionally selfish. 2 people that I have known in my life had 3 planets in cancer, and were both emotional vampires, vindictive and spiteful and extremely manipulative and constantly played the victim. They could not take criticism from anyone, so they basically made it clear that they did not care to deeply understand the plights of others, but demanded that others do exactly this for them. When it was not they sulked. It was uncanny how both of these were most alike in almost every way, with the first person that I knew before the other being slightly better in some respects but trash none the less.

I know I am usually not compatible with fire-dominant people, and vibe better with water, but 2 or more planets in cancer make me stay far away, depending on the rest of the chart. There is one other exception I know to the rule and I am sure there is others, as these are just the dark sides of this particular sign and what does or doesn't manifest can happen because of some fixed stars influences, degrees, and other things.