Mike Grookin
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I'm just after my daily meditation. This time I've decided on trying to enter the trance state using Void meditation, as someone advised here already, sorry but I can't remember now who it was. Anyway, I took three slow, deep breaths and focused on an emptiness above my head. I calmed down pretty quickly, which usually is quite hard to achieve. I was trying to keep my mind as blank as possible while still focusing my attention on that empty space. Of course a random thought once in a while was a distraction but I'm not good enough yet to not to experience them. Following many an advice I was just letting them go away and they didn't go back. Seems it's a good exercise for me. Unfortunately, after a twenty minutes or so, my temples started to hurt. They always do after some time and when I'm quite relaxed and focused. It's not a typical, sharp pain but rather a pressure, as if I had something very heavy put on them. Around that time the familiar crawly feeling appeared. It feels like the one You get on Your skin when it's really cold. Usually I can produce it on demand but this time it happened on it's own and I really couldn't suppress it. It starts in my legs and my back and slowly goes up to the top of my head. It did this time too. Fortunately, I didn't have shivers this time. All of a sudden I thought about Satan's sigil and the feeling only got stronger. I'm pretty familiar with it already and this time it ended the same: I could feel the sensation on my whole body but it was strongest and fortunately this time - not painful, on the top of my head. The pain of my temples got stronger too. I was trying to maintain those sensations as long as possible, hoping that I may get past them, like before but I could last a minute or two tops. Obviously this was no Void meditation any longer, nor a trance (but I may be wrong here). This happens every time I'm a bit deeper in meditation, sometimes it's much more painful, sometimes less, sometimes it doesn't even happen only because I withdraw after recognizing the "symptoms". It also used to make me sick, as if I was about to vomit but that stopped a few years ago along with my meditations. I'm now picking up on meditations anew, hoping that this time I'll do it right.Any insights of what is going on are greatly appreciated.PS: I still feel pressure in my temples, the sensation can last even a few hours now... I'm also a bit sleepy and light-headed but this will pass.