I know how you feel. Many non whites felt that. But that is not the case, never was. See yourself through the Gods eyes. That’s why HP has made these new changes because the Gods want this all clarified.
I had opposite problem, i was concerned the way the Gods view me, is heavily shaped by the race thing. This is complex and weird.. in fact i went far to not even mind if each God was of a different race, and the ones having race matching mine being more generous with me, this all sounds ok to me, but the labeling of : [hi you are inferior because you are X race. And the Gods look like me not like you because i am that and that] and so on, i used to naively doubt that what if the Gods actually really think that way. So i was worrying about the Gods having human perspective.. its a yehuboric trap
I am white by color, not by race. It's too often used to erase origin. I'm not of the white race my race is my own, even if my skin is light. "You didn't spawn from nowhere"? Actually, I did. I'm indigenous to my land.
So here's the logic: either we both spawned, or neither of us did. "That's not how it works" yes, it is. Which leaves only two options: equality, or my superiority. At worst, I'll be delusional in my superiority and not care. Being inferior is not an option. Equal, or I rise above.
The above prove the following point, the trap: if I dismantle someone else's superiority claim, I get labeled as having a superiority complex. The very act of engaging drags me down. I have to descend to their level to address it, and once there, I'm mistaken for being truly that when in fact I only descended to fix the mess. And I had to descend to even say or act in a way that could be understood. Since usually those people need to be shaken in order to see truth.
That's what race debates do.. They anchor everything in the body lowly, animalistic. When the idea faintly used to float that the Gods belong to a specific race( i did not mind that, the following angered me), and people of that race look down on me, it makes me revolted. But if I stop there, it reads as insecurity. If I then point out that I could look down on them but choose equality, I read as having a superiority complex. Either way, I'm painted as inferior or as secretly inferior pretending otherwise. The whole subject is a trap. Say anything, and you end up labeled inferior directly, or by being called arrogant which is just inferiority in disguise.
I do not mind if the Gods had races, i may even be drawn more to the ones that have same one as mine, this completely normal, the problem is the lense through which we percieve the matter, if it is solely about proving ones superiority and inflating egos it becomes a mess..
First. That subject makes me acting lower than the level i truly am at, second, it used to pull me away from the Gods. That alone tells me its nature. It's yehuboric designed to divide, to block spirituality and make it all about flesh, to make you play a game you cannot win. And to make you either inferior, or falsely superior. So it is a trap to both parties engaged in the debate.
It is crazy for one to think because his mother was too horny one day and his father managed to get it up and they had sex, this makes him somehow special.
i am very grateful for the new updates, and by the way, many black people do the same thing, many indians do the same thing, if i debate an indian he will quickly cause me to start hating the indian depictions of the Gods or indian scriptures ( not now, but when i was naive) because he will start telling me the Gods are indian the scriptures are indian, indians are the best and so on. If i debate a black he starts telling me black did this blacks did that , if i debate a white , he does the same, i talked about this a lot before , a group of people critics a behavior, and he does the exact same thing..
At this point i do not care about peoples opinion. I am just Glad the Gods opinions are the GODS opinions. And people can think what they want, it has nothing to do with how the Gods view the matter.
I am very grateful for new updates.
Note: above i am not talking about all blacks or all indians or all whites.. i am talking about specific people, i also just clarified how i viewed the matter in the above