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I need an advice. As I already wrote in a title, my husband has jewish ties, his grandfather was jewish. He wasn't practicing that religion but facial features are visible. That jewish grandfather is the only jew in the family. So my husband is not the real jew but still he became a problem to me. As my goal is to become a dedicated Satanist my progress is way too slow it is frustrating. Not because meditation takes time but because my life with him is too messy, out of order, he doesn't help me with almost anything, plus I need to hide my Satanic works from him, we live in a small house where he can hear me doing vibrations.. so I keep avoiding doing my duties as a satanist. He became destructive in so many ways and I can't do any progress like this. And I don't want to go in too much details yet.. there are so many more things I have to live with because of him... I am not free, but I know I can be. He is blocking me from my true self and from my life... It is suffocating. He showed me his abusive side, he won't let me divorce him easily. And when I do he will look for me and blame me for a lot of things i know it.. there are days when he can be almost golden and days when he is so awful that it makes me want to k*** him right there in there and it goes in circles. I will not let him destroy my life any longer that's why I decided to curse him until dead. I do feel a bit guilty but I know why I have to do it. He is a tyrant and it has to be done. Before I start I just want to see if this is ethically OK from Satanic point of view....
I need an advice. As I already wrote in a title, my husband has jewish ties, his grandfather was jewish. He wasn't practicing that religion but facial features are visible. That jewish grandfather is the only jew in the family. So my husband is not the real jew but still he became a problem to me. As my goal is to become a dedicated Satanist my progress is way too slow it is frustrating. Not because meditation takes time but because my life with him is too messy, out of order, he doesn't help me with almost anything, plus I need to hide my Satanic works from him, we live in a small house where he can hear me doing vibrations.. so I keep avoiding doing my duties as a satanist. He became destructive in so many ways and I can't do any progress like this. And I don't want to go in too much details yet.. there are so many more things I have to live with because of him... I am not free, but I know I can be. He is blocking me from my true self and from my life... It is suffocating. He showed me his abusive side, he won't let me divorce him easily. And when I do he will look for me and blame me for a lot of things i know it.. there are days when he can be almost golden and days when he is so awful that it makes me want to k*** him right there in there and it goes in circles. I will not let him destroy my life any longer that's why I decided to curse him until dead. I do feel a bit guilty but I know why I have to do it. He is a tyrant and it has to be done. Before I start I just want to see if this is ethically OK from Satanic point of view....
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His name just popped in my mind while I was trying to sleep. I have never felt more secure. I sensed that I am not alone and that I have suffered enough. I feel his presence. Since then my confidence and energy have increased. Sometimes while meditating I saw Beelzebub's sigil, then I meditated on his sigil and after that I sensed my energy level grew. I am growing stronger and building a plan to break free. I don't want to go in too much detail, but I am definitely not running away and I won't change my residency because of my dear "husband". My goal is revenge and believe me that he is not a weak opponent he has a high energy level. I am preparing for draining him. I have already started.