Apologies if this is an ignorant question, but how does one truly know if they aren't a Yehubor?
I don't feel Yehuborim. None of my family line, looking at my family tree, seems to be Yehuborim. None of my family has ever practiced judaism. I don't look remotely Yehuborim. But at the same time, how does one truly know?
I've been practicing power meditation for over a year now, I've been doing RTRs for that same amount of time. I do the Final RTR multiple times a day. I've dedicated, and I feel as if I've had numerous multiple interactions with the Gods through them manifesting signs in my life and guiding me.
At the same time, I still occasionally have this nagging thought that doesn't leave. And judging by the forums, I'm far from the only one who has the occasional paranoia.
The question is I guess, is what I've done enough proof for me to truly know I am a gentile? I can feel it in my heart, I love the Gods, truly. I don't think I'd feel the urge to have fought through the attacks and continue doing the RTR daily if I was, but it's hard to feel truly rested and sure.
I've been trying to think of a way for good that I can truly feel just, absolutely sure, 110%, that I am what I am. And I figured it'd be best just to ask. Would this much spiritual practice and progress exposed such a thing by now? Can I truly be content in knowing that my daily RTR efforts are proof enough?
Thanks for any response, I've been wanting to totally kill off this attack for good for a while now.