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Why am I not the best version of myself?

MercuryWisdom1 min to read

I’ve discovered the JoS about 8 years ago. When I was in my very early teenage-hood years.

Since then, I’ve only been trying..
But amounting to nothing..

Sometimes I feel something’s seriously wrong with me.

I don’t know how to describe it best.
But I feel like I never amount to anything of substance.

Best I can do is try, but the ending is the same it seems?

I don’t know how I can be a good person, a wise and advanced Zevism, an ultra-successful entrepreneur, a fit, strong and healthy man.

I feel like I’m nothing, knowing I can be everything.

This hurts me deeply often, then I try again, and I fail again.

Is something wrong with me? Will I ever succeed? Or is this just a pipe dream and I’m actually as worthless as my mind used to tell me?

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Thank you brother.

Sometimes I just feel like I’m wasted potential and this feeling hurts.

I was speaking with a friend of mine recently talking about how fast the time passed.

Just keep doing your best and moving forward. As long as you keep doing your meditations, god rituals, schedules and make as much material progress as you can realistically you'll be fine.

Trust me when I can say I know exactly how you feel here, as I feel I have no made the progress I was after either in many ways by this point in time. However, we must be fair to ourselves and not dwell on this so that we can overcome these obstacles.

As long as we are doing what is necessary for this, it comes along sooner or later as a result of our actions.

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“Come to me, O Lord IAO, great Zeus-Ammon, hidden fire, all-seeing one, ram-horned, first and last, who rules from the sun.”
— PGM V.96–172

“I am Atum, when I was alone in Nun. I am the beginning and the end.”
— Coffin Texts, Spell 714

(Enki of Eridu, Lord of the Earth -- Poem)
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