Fear of Participation - What Now?

Welcome back Circe!

About your fears, I think that they're totally normal and a clear sign that you hold a lot of respect for this community of the Gods, I'm sure everyone can appreciate that and see your intentions are good. Unfortunately, those fears can also hold you back if you don't measure them with a willingness to learn and adapt by putting yourself out there first, come what may.

You're doing great, joining the VT will help a lot with easing into building up a daily presence and getting back into the community. I look forward to seeing you around, Sister!

I’m with you on that. I didn’t do all I could for ToZ. I even had nudges to ask HPZM where I could be useful. After learning new skills I’d think how it may help ToZ but I never asked because I was afraid of messing something up.

Maybe the fear is a story you’ve told yourself. Maybe it’s from childhood where a parent made you feel you never do anything right. Maybe being a part of a community is a core need and being cast out is almost like death to you. Reflecting will help understand more

Overcoming the fears is engaging with what you’re afraid of. Do it afraid. It will rewrite your beliefs

A trick that really stuck in my head was learning to separate the desires which float around in your head from your current actions. Essentially learning to relish the current progress you've made rather than dwell on the final product. I'd recommend reading this article by HPS Lydia:

And there's nothing to be afraid of! You are our sibling and we all love you and give our best wishes for your collective advancement alongside everyone else. Taking action is key... don't let Neptune overwhelm you with the absence of motivation to do things.

Vibration of [SOWILO] x9 + Affirmation: "I always take action when I want, which is only positive and beneficial for me, completely effortlessly and without any resistance, now and forever." -- This may help you with lack of motivation. It's a terribly frustrating feeling to crave routine but struggle to maintain it. (Credit to Flamma Bellum for the affirmation)

It is good that you joined HoO as well. Participating in the community under timed rituals can help you stay motivated, like how Odysseus tied himself to the mast to restrain himself from pursuing the sirens at sea.

Best of luck to you, sister. May the gods carve your journey with thousands of virtues and blessings. 🫡⚡

Greetings Circe!

I think many of us can relate to the struggles you mention here .

Connecting with others can be hard

but It sounds like your making strides to improve and your on the right track!

we look forward to seeing more of you

If your looking for more ways to contribute it might also be good to message a guardian and ask if there’s work you can help with🙏🏼

Hello, I completely understand because I am in the same situation as you, you're not alone but as long as we are trying who is gonna say that we are disappointments?!?!? Remember, everyone is different with a different path to take, just becuase you had some step backs that doesn't mean it's the end of the road, you're back and that's all that matters now because you can try again, try and try and try until you win.

You can give advice on the forum where you feel like, you can join outreach for spreading The Temple, join the translations teams and when you are able to, join HOO to support TOZ financially because now if you seen HP is trying to build this temple into a proper religious organization. \

Also join the element platform because we are doing group rituals and you can chat with the others.

Better late than never!

We take our own time to get it right, Sister. What is important is to never give up.

High Priest gave me similar words and I share them with you.

It is good you have that inner drive to be part of this community. Just don't dwell on the failures. Individual failures are there because it helps us grow as humans.