The Wanderer
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- Oct 4, 2006
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Last night I had an experience which made me believe what I had suspected all along was true.
I woke up at night, I felt someone was very gently(even lovingly) pushing on my body, around the area where my solar plexus is, that someone was gentle but the thing he/she did was extremely unpleasent.I felt that numerous rusty and filthy emotions were flowing into my solar plexus chakra from ether(or maybe him/her?) through some kind of unseen but felt tunnel going through my body into the chakra.It was like some kind of spiritual operation.
I have lived with those emotions my whole life on this cursed planet and also occasionaly I used to smell odors of rusty metals emitted from my body while I was alone(released from chakras?).Very rarely I feel healthy and refreshing emotions which are accompanied by visions of ancient civilisations ,perfection and family.
Long time ago I did the dedication ritual, found out who my guardian demon is and started doing meditations, no matter how hard I tried things didn't go well so I asked for help from Enki.He replied me with a relaxing, lovely smile which lasted just for an instant and that was it, nothing else from him since 4,5 years ago.I also asked for help from others(his family), they did show me things and I always see their signs around(upside down stars, repeating numbers, egyptian paintings which show up in least expected places); rarely they grant me peace, making me feel I am a part of their family but they never answer my questions and callings for help and life is still unbearable for %99,9 of the time.
Why am I telling this:
1)I want to get rid of those emotions
2)I don't want people to tell me that I have to do void meditation and follow the steps mentioned in the jos website, I had been trying this for a very long time and am too tired to try it anymore, in other words; more you can understand me more you can help me(actually I don't know if any of you have reasons to help me)
3)I want to know what is going on.
I woke up at night, I felt someone was very gently(even lovingly) pushing on my body, around the area where my solar plexus is, that someone was gentle but the thing he/she did was extremely unpleasent.I felt that numerous rusty and filthy emotions were flowing into my solar plexus chakra from ether(or maybe him/her?) through some kind of unseen but felt tunnel going through my body into the chakra.It was like some kind of spiritual operation.
I have lived with those emotions my whole life on this cursed planet and also occasionaly I used to smell odors of rusty metals emitted from my body while I was alone(released from chakras?).Very rarely I feel healthy and refreshing emotions which are accompanied by visions of ancient civilisations ,perfection and family.
Long time ago I did the dedication ritual, found out who my guardian demon is and started doing meditations, no matter how hard I tried things didn't go well so I asked for help from Enki.He replied me with a relaxing, lovely smile which lasted just for an instant and that was it, nothing else from him since 4,5 years ago.I also asked for help from others(his family), they did show me things and I always see their signs around(upside down stars, repeating numbers, egyptian paintings which show up in least expected places); rarely they grant me peace, making me feel I am a part of their family but they never answer my questions and callings for help and life is still unbearable for %99,9 of the time.
Why am I telling this:
1)I want to get rid of those emotions
2)I don't want people to tell me that I have to do void meditation and follow the steps mentioned in the jos website, I had been trying this for a very long time and am too tired to try it anymore, in other words; more you can understand me more you can help me(actually I don't know if any of you have reasons to help me)
3)I want to know what is going on.
