When did you guys start feeling better?

[blu3_l1on]

I know that that everyone's an individual, but when did you guys start feeling better and what type of physical/mental/spiritual pains have you gone through? How did they help form you? I'm a beginner, and except the very few days of me being into Zevism, all the time (well, a couple of months now), I've been in constant pains, (the mental ones in controlling my thoughts are the worst, dealing with all sort of fears) without day yet when I feel at ease (there are better and worse days tho). So I guess, I'm looking for confirmation since I've been in this tunnel since the beginning, that after this darkness which may vary in length and intensity from person to person, there will be some light, and that even if I'm screwing things up currently, one day will come when things will be all right, even if there will be more darkness afterwards to conquer.

 

[dark_pagan_666]

We are all individuals. Satan guides and helps us individually. I asked Satan to make me very strong, personally and in Him. I've gone through pretty rough periods, times where I just wanted to die and give everything up. But Satan is there, always. I've reached levels that I never tought possible. I was "unintelligent" very "dumb" back in the days. This is my fifth year, and yes, I've had my share of stupid and didn't really take it as serious as I should. But I've learned and still do! Forever will do!

I will not say I am a good example of how an Zevism would be like, far from it actually. But I am proud to be a Spiritual Satanist, and will forever be!

Right now I am depressed for an example, but hey thats life. Just some mumbojumbo that will go away soon I hope. Just know, Satan is always there when you really need him!

HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[Kody Kingston]

I understand your pain and struggles. I'm new as well, but i always had the fear of satan being evil and the demons possesing people (i came from a catholic back ground) up until 3 nights ago. I been a Zevism a couple of months. But, i kept having that fear control me and honestly not allowing me to grow spiritually until 4 days ago. It's normal that your going through this in my opinion because I did to. I blew my back out at work and now i have no money coming in besides my wife's pay check which isn't enough to cover these bills and kids. I had to get a lawyer and of course work is just putting me on back burner and not paying me. I was so close to losing everything (still am unless my GD or Satan gets my workers comp case solved asap) but he literally made a way for me to make $1400 that I never would of thought of doing. I read everyday and watch things on JOS since im stuck at home hurt. But, i was not meditating like i should at all! But a few days ago i was watching something on Satan and the truth literally hit me like a bus. It was late at night and I was laying in bed and the fear literally just left me!!! I opened up to satan that night and apologized for the way i been acting and not trusting him, spilled my heart out n fell asleep praying. I asked him to come to me and that i really wanted to meet my GD and have a relationship with him and my GD. I went to sleep and not once but twice my GD im assuming woke me up and there was like blue glowing mist or little like balls floating on me wife side of the bed. All this was in the same night and it was so peaceful and amazing. A week ago i would of tripped out. But that video literally showed me the truth how the roman catholic church used satan and he really is the real God. I'm not where I need to be by no means but i feel like im actually progressing now. I just want to have a convo with my GD so bad. I want to know what he/she wants me to do and direct me.

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