My Brother, there is nothing wrong with you, your perception clouds you, you are troubled by much it seems. I once was like you, believing all was set against me it was this mindset that plagued me for what seemed like an eternity, You are your own worst enemy. I can sense it in how you speak of yourself. You must challenge and defeat that which is holding you back, be it fear, regret, or simply self doubt. You must remove from your mind everything that no longer serves you or your purpose. Only then will you be free of that which clouds you,Believe in your self, and Believe in Satan. I felt compelled to answer your question because I too, once, asked the same question. The most difficult opponent to face is your self. You ask the question of one who is uncertain, uncertainty leads to doubt, doubt leads to fear, Fear leads to anger, until you have convinced yourself that you are abbandoned and helpless, perception is not always truth. Comrade, you are not abbandoned, you must simply find your way back unto the righteous path, I cannot tell you what to do, it is not for me to tell you your path, but I can tell you this, until you Believe and when I say believe I mean BELIEVE believe in your self as you never have before you have the strength to weather this storm for this is not a storm but a drizzle and that is only if you are afraid of a little rain, look inside yourself, find the power that is yours and yours alone, and you will find the light. I do not know your power nor progress but speak unto Satan a simple method to do so is Draw his sigil unto paper trace over it as many times as you need to make it clearer, and spill your heart to he who can set you free or shall I say show you how to set your self freeMay the Light Of the Morning Star guide you my friend. For you are not alone, do not despair.
Sincerely,~Diablo Satanas
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!!!!
Perhaps black magic HAS cursed you to drown in dream crushing despair. It's possible.
Perhaps you have been programmed to be self-defeating. It happens to many.
Maybe you gave been tricked into being your own worst enemy for so long, it feels as if you REALLY ARE your own worst enemy.
Well, you have been lied to, by pervasive, consumnate liars, who live for and love telling nothing but lies.
Give yourself a break.
Start being kind to yourself.
Do not ascribe your qualities to those who would lie to you. They have a different kind of heart than you do.
First, cut them off, both on the astral (with an aura of protection - multiple times a day - and searing blue flame if you need to) and in the physical (deny them your time, attention and care). Ignore them, on purpose. Quit listening to them. Fight them, if you must.
Show them you're willing to do what you must to shake them off and they will show you how weak they are.
And, tell yourself the Truth. You ARE quite capable of overcoming the curse. Program this into your aura daily. Begin a regimen of supportive mantras (and self-talk).
Give yourself a break. You're always giving breaks to others.
Dammit. Be nice to yourself, too.
Apply all of the advice others have told you here. Begin as fundamentally as you must and be patient with yourself.
Hail Satan, in deed and in Truth, always! [/QUOTE] [/QUOTE]