What to do when you're too weak on your own?

[blu3_l1on]

So there's this parasite in my aura that I've been fighting for 6 months now, it has the capacity to block my thoughts, emotions, will and other sensations like sexual ones.  There has been a negative period where it had huge control over me, then a period where I managed to break free but it was still there, and now, while I'm still performing banishing rituals with the Algiz rune x108 and repeated affirmations x108, Ansuz rune x 108 and 108 affirmations to regain control over my thoughts by breaking the obstacles of the parasite. vibrating RAUM 30 times on will chakra, Eihwaz rune x108 + 108 affirmations of strengthening will and third chakra (because I feel like my sense of self is dying, my will), vibrating THOTH 28 times on sixth chakra, THOR rune x108 for sixth chakra with 108 affirmations. I perform the aligning energies with Satan meditation (216 SURRYAYYAYYY into aura, AUM into third fifth and sixth chakra 9 times, and 108 affirmations of "I am always safe,secure, protected and healthy in every way".
I perform 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins for aura of protection on my legs, another such set for my lower-torso, then higher-torso, then upper-limbs, then head. Then I balance all the energies with alternative nostril breathing. Then I perform the classical aura of protection by doing 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins of aura of protection for my entire body.
I even tried to rise my vibrations exponentially by vibrating SATANAS 108 times and affirming stuff, I even tried to burn it with blue satanic electrifying flames, countless times. Because it was in me, I tried to engulf my entire aura in them after vibrating SATANAS, needless to say, I felt empowered, but I couldn't use all that power properly for the parasite was blocking my intent desperately.
Thing is, it's already weak, but it just won't die off, and now it's getting stronger. It's blocking my meditations and spiritual spells, blocking me from doing them, because he's afraid of them, normally. But Idk what to do to get rid of it once and for all. I've been with it for so long, I can't help but be convinced that I cannot deal with it on my own. And is not like I'm letting this get to me, since while I am convinced of this, I still do perform daily rituals. Heck, when he wasn't blocking me and I had more time (summer holiday break), I even performed 12 hours of rituals per day. Oh yes, since it's blocking my thoughts I performed Mannaz x 108 for intellect too with 108 affirmations, but still didn't work. Even tried to work on my sexual chakra by vibrating VAUM 32 times to regain my sensations.
They're all working, little by little, but the parasite is somehow keeping up with me by getting more forceful himself.

 

[Gerecht Ror1]

It is needed to find which mental process is feeding this 'parasite'. It sounds like a karma or fake-ego, ot something the unconscious build to adapt to a situation. Psycology calls that "complex" and in some books I read complexes can even be self-thinking units; we name that thoughtforms... psychologists do not know they exist on the Astral Plane.
Example from a book I read: a child is put under pressure by his father to always be the 1st and the best in anything he does in life. The mind could create a complex/thoughtform or even a personality/ego that is feeding from the feeling of NOT being the 1st/best thus continuously creating situations where the person is not the best in something, so that the person will always strive to "do more" and will give energy to this "being" attached to his soul . This is an infinite circle that may trap the person.
This could be the case of the parasite... fighting it but unconsciously feeding it to keep it alive. There could be some buried experiences or feeling in one of your chakras creating a hole in the aura from which the parasite/complex/thoughform/ego/karma (?) is feeding.
Finding the mind process that is opening the hole, fixing the related feeling acknowledging facts and resolving the mind will mostly fix it.
I also think when you find the "hot point" I mean when you reach the true reason in your mind the parasite would go mad to prevent you undestanding where and how is he feeding from and will create obstacles.
I went through this and I believe thinking is more useful than trying to destroy it, if you find its source and fix it it will die for lack of food - your energy!
Hope this might help!
I perform 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins for aura of protection on my legs, another such set for my lower-torso, then higher-torso, then upper-limbs, then head. Then I balance all the energies with alternative nostril breathing. Then I perform the classical aura of protection by doing 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins of aura of protection for my entire body.
I even tried to rise my vibrations exponentially by vibrating SATANAS 108 times and affirming stuff, I even tried to burn it with blue satanic electrifying flames, countless times. Because it was in me, I tried to engulf my entire aura in them after vibrating SATANAS, needless to say, I felt empowered, but I couldn't use all that power properly for the parasite was blocking my intent desperately.
Thing is, it's already weak, but it just won't die off, and now it's getting stronger. It's blocking my meditations and spiritual spells, blocking me from doing them, because he's afraid of them, normally. But Idk what to do to get rid of it once and for all. I've been with it for so long, I can't help but be convinced that I cannot deal with it on my own. And is not like I'm letting this get to me, since while I am convinced of this, I still do perform daily rituals. Heck, when he wasn't blocking me and I had more time (summer holiday break), I even performed 12 hours of rituals per day. Oh yes, since it's blocking my thoughts I performed Mannaz x 108 for intellect too with 108 affirmations, but still didn't work. Even tried to work on my sexual chakra by vibrating VAUM 32 times to regain my sensations.
They're all working, little by little, but the parasite is somehow keeping up with me by getting more forceful himself. [/QUOTE]

 

[blu3_l1on]

Hello. Yes, whenever I would try to think to understand just what exactly is this parasite thoughtform doing, it would try to block me. But it seems like this parasite has the role of preventing me from being me for it tried at some point when it was stronger to completely make me become my opposite. It would block me in every single activity and try to make me behave the opposite of how I normally behave in such a situation. For instance, it would give me erections for males when I'm straight male and I have no doubt about it, it would make me be able to speak worse despite me having pride in the speed of my speaking ability. It would prevent me from thinking complexities by making me forget, and before this my memory would be always among the best. And so on.
Now it's limited and does this to a smaller degree, but still does everything I listed and more. So is my parasite feeding off from multiple sources? For it just tries to get in my way every now and then regardless of what I'm doiing, trying to make me my opposite. But it especially tries to block me when I try to do spiritual training (in which I clear my mind from its bullshit sensations) and physical training (once again concentrating intensely on something else) or work (because once again, I don't concentrate on it). So is it feeding out of my lack of ability to do things, which it itself created? Because I can't find any fixed "source" in my psychological case since it initially was going all over the place and now it just goes in places in which I use my concentration for main tasks.

 

[avivom666]

About the circle, I made this up not to brag about it. I had to meditate on the modified black sun and the effects were empowering. I wanted to try something out myself since we Satanists can experiment with stuff in a safe way. So I hope I don't end up as someone who lacks the earth element. 

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Ever tried the king and queen meditation to raise your energy? I think you have to try this one out, search on these runes below and you'll see what some guy meant. This isn't my advice but I hope this helps, it's from someone on the Yahoo group. It works for me. Attacks that strong might mean greater enemies in terms of their power. The enemy aliens fear us and will do anything to stop us from freeing humanity:
Vibrate the following on yourself:
-Uruz x 40-Nuathiz x 40-Sowilo x 36
Affirm: "The energies of Uruz, Nauthiz and Sowilo are permanently transforming me into a powerful Satanic warrior, both spiritually and physically in a positive way."  or
"The energies of Uruz, Nauthiz and Sowilo are greatly empowering y aura and greatly increasing my spiritual power permanently in a positive way."
By the way, to those who are also reading this, I wondered if it is appropriate to share something that is related. I kind of made something to meditate on. I'm not saying this works or looking like an artist screaming over his masterpiece in public. I just wanted to know if this works for you since it has sowilo, Uruz and Nauthiz. Correct me if there is anything wrong here.:

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  So there's this parasite in my aura that I've been fighting for 6 months now, it has the capacity to block my thoughts, emotions, will and other sensations like sexual ones.  There has been a negative period where it had huge control over me, then a period where I managed to break free but it was still there, and now, while I'm still performing banishing rituals with the Algiz rune x108 and repeated affirmations x108, Ansuz rune x 108 and 108 affirmations to regain control over my thoughts by breaking the obstacles of the parasite. vibrating RAUM 30 times on will chakra, Eihwaz rune x108 + 108 affirmations of strengthening will and third chakra (because I feel like my sense of self is dying, my will), vibrating THOTH 28 times on sixth chakra, THOR rune x108 for sixth chakra with 108 affirmations. I perform the aligning energies with Satan meditation (216 SURRYAYYAYYY into aura, AUM into third fifth and sixth chakra 9 times, and 108 affirmations of "I am always safe,secure, protected and healthy in every way".
I perform 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins for aura of protection on my legs, another such set for my lower-torso, then higher-torso, then upper-limbs, then head. Then I balance all the energies with alternative nostril breathing. Then I perform the classical aura of protection by doing 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins of aura of protection for my entire body.
I even tried to rise my vibrations exponentially by vibrating SATANAS 108 times and affirming stuff, I even tried to burn it with blue satanic electrifying flames, countless times. Because it was in me, I tried to engulf my entire aura in them after vibrating SATANAS, needless to say, I felt empowered, but I couldn't use all that power properly for the parasite was blocking my intent desperately.
Thing is, it's already weak, but it just won't die off, and now it's getting stronger. It's blocking my meditations and spiritual spells, blocking me from doing them, because he's afraid of them, normally. But Idk what to do to get rid of it once and for all. I've been with it for so long, I can't help but be convinced that I cannot deal with it on my own. And is not like I'm letting this get to me, since while I am convinced of this, I still do perform daily rituals. Heck, when he wasn't blocking me and I had more time (summer holiday break), I even performed 12 hours of rituals per day. Oh yes, since it's blocking my thoughts I performed Mannaz x 108 for intellect too with 108 affirmations, but still didn't work. Even tried to work on my sexual chakra by vibrating VAUM 32 times to regain my sensations.
They're all working, little by little, but the parasite is somehow keeping up with me by getting more forceful himself.

 

[avivom666]

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Ever tried the king and queen meditation to raise your energy? I think you have to try this one out, search on these runes below and you'll see what some guy meant. This isn't my advice but I hope this helps, it's from someone on the Yahoo group. It works for me. Attacks that strong might mean greater enemies in terms of their power. The enemy aliens fear us and will do anything to stop us from freeing humanity:
Vibrate the following on yourself:
-Uruz x 40-Nuathiz x 40-Sowilo x 36
Affirm: "The energies of Uruz, Nauthiz and Sowilo are permanently transforming me into a powerful Satanic warrior, both spiritually and physically in a positive way."  or
"The energies of Uruz, Nauthiz and Sowilo are greatly empowering y aura and greatly increasing my spiritual power permanently in a positive way."
By the way, to those who are also reading this, I wondered if it is appropriate to share something that is related. I kind of made something to meditate on. I'm not saying this works or looking like an artist screaming over his masterpiece in public. I just wanted to know if this works for you since it has sowilo, Uruz and Nauthiz. Correct me if there is anything wrong here.:

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  So there's this parasite in my aura that I've been fighting for 6 months now, it has the capacity to block my thoughts, emotions, will and other sensations like sexual ones.  There has been a negative period where it had huge control over me, then a period where I managed to break free but it was still there, and now, while I'm still performing banishing rituals with the Algiz rune x108 and repeated affirmations x108, Ansuz rune x 108 and 108 affirmations to regain control over my thoughts by breaking the obstacles of the parasite. vibrating RAUM 30 times on will chakra, Eihwaz rune x108 + 108 affirmations of strengthening will and third chakra (because I feel like my sense of self is dying, my will), vibrating THOTH 28 times on sixth chakra, THOR rune x108 for sixth chakra with 108 affirmations. I perform the aligning energies with Satan meditation (216 SURRYAYYAYYY into aura, AUM into third fifth and sixth chakra 9 times, and 108 affirmations of "I am always safe,secure, protected and healthy in every way".
I perform 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins for aura of protection on my legs, another such set for my lower-torso, then higher-torso, then upper-limbs, then head. Then I balance all the energies with alternative nostril breathing. Then I perform the classical aura of protection by doing 20 affirmations and 20 breathe-ins of aura of protection for my entire body.
I even tried to rise my vibrations exponentially by vibrating SATANAS 108 times and affirming stuff, I even tried to burn it with blue satanic electrifying flames, countless times. Because it was in me, I tried to engulf my entire aura in them after vibrating SATANAS, needless to say, I felt empowered, but I couldn't use all that power properly for the parasite was blocking my intent desperately.
Thing is, it's already weak, but it just won't die off, and now it's getting stronger. It's blocking my meditations and spiritual spells, blocking me from doing them, because he's afraid of them, normally. But Idk what to do to get rid of it once and for all. I've been with it for so long, I can't help but be convinced that I cannot deal with it on my own. And is not like I'm letting this get to me, since while I am convinced of this, I still do perform daily rituals. Heck, when he wasn't blocking me and I had more time (summer holiday break), I even performed 12 hours of rituals per day. Oh yes, since it's blocking my thoughts I performed Mannaz x 108 for intellect too with 108 affirmations, but still didn't work. Even tried to work on my sexual chakra by vibrating VAUM 32 times to regain my sensations.
They're all working, little by little, but the parasite is somehow keeping up with me by getting more forceful himself.