Aquarius said:
Sometimes even if you are infatuated of her it doesent mean it’s true love, try looking rationally at the situation, she’s clearly a person who is not smart and race conscious who willingly goes with gipsies. Do you really want her as a girlfriend? That’s pretty gross to me. Also, it seems she doesent care about you, why waste your time with her?
This goes without saying, indeed it's gross, also I've said above, that right now i can't comprehend what's going on. When I'm thinking rationally( about 75% of time), I also say that she is of no good, for the reasons you mentioned above, for the reason I was a fool for falling in love(back then I really was strucked hard, how shall I say, I was quite the weird guy, talking for an considerably amount of time with the opposite sex, meant to me that I liked the conversations brought up, and due to me liking that in some time I would've perceived it as a routine, something that I wouldn't like to lose, and when I wouldn't like to lose something then I'd start overthinking, a day,2 , a week, a month, a year, and so on, after overthinking I'd fall in love, hard, for the respective woman, so that's how it was), yes she didn't care about me, either way it's fine. My sole problem is, After 2 or 3 years of not even remembering her I started again ,without any external influence, thinking about her. And I can't seem to find the reason why, how, and what should i do?