Leeges said:
Smoker here. If you experienced pain then I can understand why you would smoke. Yes it sucks, but you don't fear death, you sort of embrace it. I no that sounds horrible, because it is, you stop caring. For me, it was to do with not having spiritual abilities to summon a succubus. Yes I feel her, always, but I want more because we are worth it. Thankfully Lilith is helping me deal with this pain. Smoking I do, even though it's wrong, to fulfil that craving even if it's slight. I hope this makes sense.
It does not make sense, sorry. I understand where you're coming from, though. Former heavy smoker here... I smoked for almost 15 years. I used to smoke to cope with pain, both physical and mental, and I actually had similar beliefs that would create limitations where there were none in the first place.
Truth is, smoking destroys many things, not just your lungs, or teeth... but it also ruins your confidence in yourself, you give in to the addiction and you let it command your life, the act of smoking may seem harmless but when you look at it, it is not quite that simple and it is contrary to the lifestyle you should be having, you need to have full control of your own mind.
But you don't have to be this way, there are no limits to what you can achieve with the power of your mind. You can quit smoking easily if you understand this. Smoking has no power over you. Smoking does nothing for pain, relaxation, or whatever.
The truth is that in your brain you associated the act of smoking with something pleasurable, and therefore when you do smoke your brain releases dopamine and you have that feeling. You can have this feeling with whatever else you decide, you can easily trick the brain into releasing dopamine with healthier things such as running or whatever. Even if you just go get a green tea whenever you're craving a cigarette, soon enough your brain will associate green tea with something pleasurable and release dopamine.
Cigarettes are totally useless, they just trick your brain and destroy it in the process.
A debilitated physical body means a debilitated soul and that is the reason you can't progress spiritually, for one you don't own your mind, and second, your body is being pumped with deadly chemicals. You should quit smoking right now at this very moment and never look back, there is absolutely nothing that prevents you from doing this. You can do it.