What is real beauty? :) + Some info on Enemy Puppets

[Light Yagami]

Hello! I've realized a couple of things lately and I believe it'd be ideal to share them with my Family here.
For starters, we all know that beauty is subjective, meaning that each individual has their own visual preferences, so we can't all agree about someone being "beautiful" etc.However, there is something I've noticed about the 'beauty' of certain people around me... which I find really interesting.
I have met a variety of people in my life but at the duration when I wasn't meditating everything was entirely skin deep. Since I started meditating, even the people I've been talking to for many years (even my own relatives) have started looking 'differently' in my eyes. The perspective of beauty has entirely changed for me.
So, who is really beautiful? What is really *beauty*?Beauty is not what you see. It's not *only* what you see. Sure thing, I may be attracted to a certain physical type of man, but that will never be enough to define his beauty. Beauty is not just his personality either. I will definitely be more attracted to a kind and brave man, than someone with no self-confidence and who's rude all the time.However, I believe the term of 'beauty' becomes complete when we can feel the other's energy. What energy the other person gives to us, what energy surrounds him.Take note that, whatever I'm saying is my own opinion; I have not done any 'research' on the matter, it's just things that I've figured from experience.
I will give you examples to better explain what I mean.There is one woman that I know. We are not really close or anything like that. She's around 50 years old I believe, so she has wrinkles and all that poop (which she wouldn't have if she was heading towards Godhood ). In general, judging merely from *physical* appearance, you wouldn't call her beautiful. Her personality is okay, but a bit extravagant. She likes the Myths of the Olympian Gods, but she takes everything too literally (while they're allegories etc). So, you wouldn't call her personality anything 'special' either. However as I said before, I don't know her all that well. Nevertheless, one day... I was in a group of people, and this woman was also there and she was talking... And while she was talking, I actually *saw* her. Although, I *was* looking at her, I had seen her before, it wasn't the first time I was looking at that woman, that time was... it was so different. It was as if I was looking right through her. And the only thought I made was that "wow, she's really beautiful". And it kind of shocked me. How had I come to this conclusion? What was it that made her beautiful? I couldn't understand... There wasn't anything physical, or even her personality that attracted me in any way, but as I was looking at her, while she was talking... It was amazing. I was looking at true beauty.
Another example, is a relative of mine. An aunt. So, that aunt of mine is *really* beautiful. I am talking about her physical appearance. She has beautiful characteristics, she really looks to have her DNA intact, how to explain this... She doesn't look like there's been any race mixing or anything like that from her parents, grandparents etc etc. You look at her and can clearly tell her nation. I find this a beautiful thing, it makes one person unique and more attached to their country. So anyway. Her *physical* appearance is great, really beautiful, but her personality isn't something I like that much... She's too blunt and kind of rude at times. She's one of those people who believe they should tell their opinion to everyone, even without being asked. And they don't care about the consequences or even if their opinion is kind of rude and unnecessary under the circumstances. You get my point. So, her personality is not something that *I* like (others may like this kind of woman) but I recently understood that I actually consider this woman *ugly*. Really ugly. And I couldn't understand why. I mean okay, I don't like her personality, but so what? She *is* physically attractive, is she not? And yes, she is. But I still find her ugly. It is the energy that she gives off, that is really ugly... I still don't know exactly what it is, how to explain it (just like with the other woman) but this aunt of mine is really ugly. Even if she was the most beautiful person I've ever seen... I'd still see her ugly. I'd *feel* her ugly; which is more than enough to make me want to go away from her.
A third and final example... Another aunt of mine haha xDThat woman... That woman is really beautiful, and she has a *great* personality. She's talkative, friendly, she had 'helped' me in the past... (I'll explain why I say 'help') She has a son and she's treating him greatly, she's never hit him or anything like that, she *talks* to him when he does something naughty etc. She's interested in psychology and stuff... If one would choose an intelligent woman as their ideal woman, then maybe this aunt of mine would be their ideal woman. Beautiful and intelligent. But... There's an enormous 'but' here. The energy that woman gives off.... is disgusting. She's been brainwashed by christianity to an unbelievable degree. Although she says she's not christian (and she REALLY thinks she's not), the way she's acting, is exactly like the sheep xtians that head towards the slaughter with absolutely no free will of their own. She doesn't go to church or anything like that, she supposedly is not a christian, but the jewish brainwashing has really gotten to her even without her awareness. So that woman, has suuuuch a horrible energy that every time I talk to her, I have to clean my aura and chakras afterwards right away! I feel like I have entered a church or something! I do not know, if this woman is an enemy's puppet... I don't know for sure, but her energy is horrible. So, although that woman is both physically beautiful and intelligent... Well, she's still not beautiful to me. For me she's ugly. Really ugly. Even more ugly than my other aunt. She's like a monster who wears a mask to fool others.And the reason I say she had 'helped' me in the past is because... that woman has such terrible energy... that the only thing I can understand is that, for all those months that I was talking to her from deep within my heart, that bitch had attached herself to my chakras, making me feel even worse each time. That woman never helped me. She made my situation of the past worse. One day in the last month she had came to my house and wanted to talk to me, because I was more indifferent towards her etc. She was talking to me from her heart, she even got emotional (tears) because she had 'given so much' to me and now I was avoiding her etc etc... And... Well, I didn't feel anything towards her. I wasn't feeling pity, or remorse. I was feeling nothing.This is really weird for *me* who most of the times feel horrible if I can't help others or if I make others sad. I am not the kind of person to be indifferent and cruel but I really could *not* feel anything towards that woman. So, I don't know, she could be an enemy's puppet.
For the new people, or anyone else who hasn't heard of that term before... From my own experience "the enemy's puppets" are people who are entirely manipulated by the enemy and have no free will of their own. These people constantly give off horrible energy to the people around them and usually attach themselves to others' chakras and suck their energy. The enemy manipulates these people in order to harm us and other Gentile people.I have met some people who are the enemy's puppets and, except for the fact that their ideology and beliefs were entirely fucking stupid (one of them believed in "Cthulu society" and one other is literally what we call a "troll"... Literally. He finds amusing to make other people angry, or to hurt their feelings), another thing that I've noticed is that 4 out of 5 of these people are.. fat. ._.Now, before anyone says any stupid shit (and I am misunderstood) NO, if you are fat, it doesn't mean that you're an enemy's puppet! I believe that these people are fat because they have strong blockages in their chakras and once more, 4 out of 5 of these people are not sexually active. For some reason I kind of combine their weight problem with their sacral chakra, but I could be wrong.
Anyway. Back to the main subject of this message.Beauty can not be defined merely by your looks and your personality. It is the energy that you give off to others that truly complete (and even define on its own!) your beauty. As I told you about my last aunt, she's both beautiful and has great personality but her energy is horrible! That alone, makes me dislike her!
One last thing that everyone needs to know about beauty is that, the way *you* view yourself, is the way the others see you. When I was younger I had some... gigantic issues with my self-confidence and my appearance. There's no need to go deeper here, but I literally *hated* looking at myself in the mirror. It was a rather fucked up situation.But then, I returned here... I started meditating again. I had never lost my faith in Satan, but never did anything to prove my faith and love to Him. I had entirely abandoned meditations for maaaaany years, so it was as if I was one of the people who are without. As if I was a non believer.Anyway.
Now, I look in the mirror... and damn! xD I can't get enough of looking in the mirror! Hahaha xDSeriously, I just LOVE myself. I love myself! I love my body, my hair, my face! The truth is that I *have* lost a bit of weight. Why? Because I wouldn't like my big tummy no matter how many meditations I did, so instead, I did runes for strength and physical endurance, for patience, persistence, energy... I did magick for ME. And of course, while doing magick, I also started working out! I wanted to have beautiful abdominals and that I did! I didn't go to a gym because no money for that. So, I did whatever I could on my own, in my room. I would see information from the Internet, a video or something about how to do a proper workout. I wouldn't give up. Let me tell you, some days were horrible, I just wanted to stop. But no. I had this goal and I WOULD complete it! But really, the matter of weight is different for everyone. I do advice everyone on working out though, not just for physical appearance but for their body's vitality as well. Exercise helps a lot in raising your confidence even more, in making you more energetic and even happy. A combination of meditation + physical exercise is really an explosion of perfection from what I see. xD
The thing is, now that I love myself so much... It's not just me who loves myself. Many times, I needed to talk to strangers to ask for directions and the way they were looking at me... :OI am not talking about the dirty kind of look. I would look them in the eyes in order to ask the question and they would look at me as well... as if they were bewitched! :OThey would look straight *into* my eyes, so intensely... So intensely. It's even difficult to describe.A Brother of mine explained to me that, the more powerful my aura is, the more I influence the people around me. The way I look at myself is being imprinted in my aura, my energy, my soul; hence I 'influence' the people around me to see me the way I see myself. Beautiful.
Woooo I wrote a lot! xDI don't know if anyone will manage to read this message until the end hahaha xD
I believe the point of this message is not just to explain how beauty is defined by the energy you give off to people (even to the ones who are not Spiritual Satanists! Energy can be felt even without their awareness) but to tell you that you shouldn't really worry about any stupid details about yourself and your body. So what if you have a bigger nose than most people? This is what makes you *you*, this is what makes you unique. You are who you are. Your body is beautiful as long as you love it and take care of it. No one needs to be incredible thin (that would be unhealthy) or to be so fat that they can't fit through a door. Your body should show your emotional state. You're healthy, you're happy, you're beautiful. If anyone ever judged your appearance then ask yourself why would that person's words have any importance to you? Is that person so intelligent that you admire his brains or something? I'm quite certain that an intelligent person wouldn't go around insulting others for their appearance. People who talk bad to someone about their appearance (I am talking about body type, facial features etc) have either too many complexes about THEIR OWN body (they hate themselves, so they want to make you hate yourself as well, so that they could feel better) or are unintelligent pieces of trash whose life is so empty that by insulting you and watching your reactions, they somehow feel entertained... Yeap, these people exist, unfortunately.
So, why would someone else's opinion matter to you?Unless YOU felt bad about it, and wanted to change it... then change it! If you don't like your weight then do something about it! I believe that's the easiest thing to change.However, I would not recommend changing your facial features, unless you had something that could seriously affect your life or something... like even a health issue etc. Then obviously, you should work on fixing that as well, in whatever way it needs to be fixed.But, if for example you have a bigger nose, or too thin lips or whatever... don't change these things! Love yourself for who you are. We're Spiritual Satanists, we're intelligent (some of us are still learning xD), we are amazing, we are powerful! We have Satan's blood running through us!! Do you really think that a bigger nose ruins all the awesomeness you have as a human being? xD
OKAY I WROTE TOO MUCH! THAT'S ALL. THANKS FOR READING! XD

 

[corrinamh]

I did read through to the end. Very well written and I completely agree with you. Unfortunately I have some of those people in my life as well that like to make their self worth seem more by bringing down and criticizing the people around them. Most unfortunate my daughter is one of them. Her personality is a lot like my mother's was. Yes thankfully that energy vampire is deceased ( she could suck the life out of you if you let her). Now with my daughter I stop her in her tracks and do not put up with her crap anymore. I have pissed her off and asked her to go home and hung up on her on the phone. She is also very christian and had started going back to church, UUGGGHHHH!!!!! She actually had the nerve to ask me if I was going to come over and slit her throat in the middle of the night while she was asleep. REALLY? WTF. However when she needs something she doesnt mind coming over and asking and using me for a babysitter. I told her how funny she thinks I am going to kill her but easily leaves my grandkids with me. I am close with and love my grandkids very much. I like them being here with me, the point is how she does it. I have asked Satan to watch over my 3 grandkids and I really want them to have a life with Satan. I do have to be very careful around my daughter about what I say to them though. I had the youngest saying happy Beltaine and she blew a gasket. ha ha ha. Light sorry I have jumped all in your post. It was very thoughtful and I find very accurate. I usually do not talk this much. In person very shy and quiet and wont talk to people unless I have to or I get to know you. Something special about you guys makes me more comfortable opening up. Love Ya my brother's and sister'sCorrinaAnd a mighty big Hail SATAN forever