What does god want from me?

[Hyperactive Melon]

I've learnt a lot of things in past days about my kundalini about my pineal gland things are getting clear but the problems in my life are not decreasing they are still there haunting me every day the god's are surely watching me as is see 108 and 33 nearly 15 times a day it just feels as if the god's are enjoying my suffering I just want to give up but I can't never had the guts to do it nor maybe I will my life is very painful and traumatic I have suffered a lot of disease and misfortune insults and abandonment truth is this path is very tough and not easy I wish I would not have proceeded on this path I just hope one day i am free of this world there is nothing satisfactory about life it's just a punishment

 

[Henu the Great]

I've learnt a lot of things in past days about my kundalini about my pineal gland things are getting clear but the problems in my life are not decreasing they are still there haunting me every day the god's are surely watching me as is see 108 and 33 nearly 15 times a day it just feels as if the god's are enjoying my suffering I just want to give up but I can't never had the guts to do it nor maybe I will my life is very painful and traumatic I have suffered a lot of disease and misfortune insults and abandonment truth is this path is very tough and not easy I wish I would not have proceeded on this path I just hope one day i am free of this world there is nothing satisfactory about life it's just a punishment

You need to correct your problems by working with energy raised from specific mantras instead of suffering. No one except the enemy wants to see you suffer.

To get a clear idea what must be done studying astrology and mantras on JoS is a must. You can also find some interesting ones on these forums when you dig enough.

You can also present your problem here by giving details so as to receive correct method of magick. But everyone should be able to analyze and overcome at least some of their obstacles on their own.

 

[Blitzkreig [TG]]

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Brother, 33 is a positive sign. The Gods are definitely NOT "enjoying your suffering".

You cannot give up here. Plan some workings to help your situation. Also, how are your meditations going? You must be doing all the basics, like lots of cleaning, yoga, protection, etc.

 

[Fikiru Abdiisa]

I've learnt a lot of things in past days about my kundalini about my pineal gland things are getting clear but the problems in my life are not decreasing they are still there haunting me every day the god's are surely watching me as is see 108 and 33 nearly 15 times a day it just feels as if the god's are enjoying my suffering I just want to give up but I can't never had the guts to do it nor maybe I will my life is very painful and traumatic I have suffered a lot of disease and misfortune insults and abandonment truth is this path is very tough and not easy I wish I would not have proceeded on this path I just hope one day i am free of this world there is nothing satisfactory about life it's just a punishment

Brother Think of yourself as a winner.Convince yourself to be a winner believe you have more advance spiritual and soul power than others.Read JOS Library
For exmple how to:
1.Raising energy
2.Programming energy
3.Sending energy
4.Confirmation
the above methed will solve your problem easily do this properly.

Don't give up b/se of your weaknesses.