Usthepeople666 said:
Sorry i have failed everyone here.
You really need to ground yourself. Do void meditation, everyday, to empty your mind.
Also, it doesn’t sound like you are properly cleaning your aura. You wouldn’t be seeing so many things and get affected by delusions and visions like that if you clean your aura properly.
Read the returning curses page again. Sit down calmly, first void your mind until you get it to quiet down. If some strange vision or thought comes up, just let it fade, don’t give it any attention, and let your thoughts totally empty from your mind until your mind is completely silent.
Then follow the instructions for the returning curses meditation. Take your time, and don’t rush it. Feel the golden energy clean you. Ask Satan to send a god to help you clean your aura, but don’t try to see or experience anything, just keep your mind void and focus on cleaning your aura, pushing out the filth and astral dirt with the golden light.
It might take an hour, maybe even longer until you properly clean yourself. Take your time and be thorough.
Let go of any self guilt. It doesn’t matter right now if you have failed in anything, or if you made mistakes.
Just live in the present. Anything you may have done or may feel guilt about from your past, don’t think about it, don’t give it any attention, let it go and live in the present moment.
I cannot speak for Satan, but knowing him, I believe he doesn’t blame you. And most definitely he doesn’t want to see one of his dedicated followers in such a state.
Satan does help you, but only if you are open and able to be helped. In your current mental state, you can’t receive any help, therefore you need to empty your mind and thoughts, so you can actually receive help.
Don’t expect too much, not from the Gods and not from yourself.
Take small steps, but keep walking no matter what, and start with simple things, just void and cleaning, be open to guidance from Satan and your Guardian, but don’t try to experience anything for now, as your mind will only delude yourself if you try, until you properly clean your whole aura and soul.
As for warfare, in a mental state like that, it doesn’t do you any good. Try to do one RTR every day, but do it after you have taken your time to empty your thoughts and clean your aura, while you are completely relaxed, have some clarity and are as grounded as you can get yourself.
Anytime you feel negative thoughts, take a moment to void and push them away.
Read the page on Banishing on the Joy of Satan, and follow the instructions, to banish negative energy, thoughtforms, entities, etc, from your home and environment.
Make sure to clean both yourself and your house. Vibrating Thurisaz can also be used for banishing and vibrating Sananda can be used to clear up the energy in your house, get rid of negativity totally after banishing.
The only real mistake you can make now is to give in to the thoughts overwhelming your mind and loosing yourself. Don’t let that happen and follow the steps I lined out to begin setting yourself straight.
Get yourself back together, that’s we SS do. Even if we experience setbacks or difficulties, we always get ourselves back together and up on our feet.
Hopefully my message to you can help pick you back up on your feet. The rest of up to you.
Know that you can succeed, and that you are able to set yourself straight again.
Hail Satan!