Ghost in the Machine said:
My daily RTR average is 9 a day in one sitting. [....] Also don't feel like you're not allowed to have free time or that your day needs to literally be nothing but RTRs. Even on my 18 RTR days I spare in-between time for movies, exercising, games, jamming to music or general off-time activities with my housemates.
Also you're very welcome for the help. Air is also not the only thing that can be used for telekinesis, ether and even sheer direction of will can be used. Air is just one of the methods that can be used for telekinesis.
Told you you're awesome, didn't I?
9 and 18 RTRs a day sounds like a LOOOT of firepower, mate! I read this message when I woke up and before replying I doubled the morning RTR cause you got me inspire. Did 18 reps and 3 affirmations (I'm going to re-read HP Hoodedcobra's FAQ post just to make sure I don't fuck up numbers as I find it quicker to do 18 reps for VAHT compared to 9 reps and then other 9 the next round). Time is of the essence lately and I want to maximize my effort. I'll also double the evening RTR with another 18 rep.
Besides, I have got a good vibe with some RTRs when I increased the number (felt/saw Father, visions etc) but nothing lately. Felt I was losing the feel, but today with 18 I got that strong vibe in my third eye (possibly more eyes or temples) so I'm going to keep this up and increase the number if anything. I've been doing some RTR at work too but people walking in forces me to split the reps and reprise after, and my phone sometimes makes the paintable letters unpaintable so I have to visualize them being destroyed more than normally before scrolling to the next.
I'm reading posts, seeing 'news' and finding myself thinking more and more that soon enough I may have to smash someone's skull just to survive and not getting my blood and brain tainted with toxic waste (vaccines), cause there's no way I'm going to let someone do that knowing what's inside. My family has been fighting this for almost 40 years now, I' won't let a 'new law' force my already very difficult time reaching out to the Gods to become EVEN more difficult. All I want is to be with the Gods, it's all I ever truly wanted. I'm going to get shot with a bullet before I'm letting anyone shoot shit in my body.
"Hence, telekinesis" I would say if this were a videogame or something.
I always felt the need for ONE of the many abilities of the mind, since I was a child. Not because I wanted to imitate some cartoon character or look cool, no. I just felt the 'need' to have one ready. And in retrospection I now understand how that need was the one thing that, in time, would bring me to search for something more, finding the Gods and Father Satan, my true family.
TK was only the very first ability I ever learned existed (never asked myself "if it were real" and it pisses me off when I see people questioning it or other skills). Then came everything else. Pyro, Cryo, all of that. It took me years to feel the 'need' to watch the Avatar series lol, I knew it existed, thought "oh cool, someone made a series out of this" and postponed it indefinitely. It did bring me more confusion than clarity in the end, perhaps, but it was also inspiring I guess. Knowing Elements were always one of my main interests (because I felt I had to find a way to "link with the Planet, which I love to death and beyond") I begun wondering if there really was one only that I should focus on.
This leads me to today, (sorry for taking up so much of your time reading this) because I've been wondering if Air is the Element I should really focus on. I like it, yes, but I feel it's just not direct enough, not like something that causes burn, or freezes. Also, I do feel like I've become 'too embedded' in Air and this is keeping me away from Earth, which I MUST balance in my Soul anyway (cuz I don't have one or two planets in it, I got NONE, that's why I felt Earth so strongly the first time I invoked it, to the point of getting hurt and in pain for two weeks straight before I could walk like a normal person lol).
Before Air I had almost made up my mind about Fire. Always thought it would be my truly lacking Element and Fire itself was also the reason I managed to attract and get to know the one I've always thought of as 'my favorite goddess', Haures (Flauros). Don't ask me why. I read her name in 2002 (thought it'd be 2001 but I guess I was mistaken) and fell in love with her. I just felt we were someone strongly connected. No other Demon has had this effect with me, I almost feel Her like some kind of Big Sister, if you know what I mean. And I'm sorry I don't feel this with Leraje at all, I like Her of course and appreciate the effort She makes in trying to reach me, but I don't feel anything else. Maybe it's just I'm not that advanced yet (it's very probably this), but then why do I feel this strong something with Haures (She told me her name is Haures when I asked)?
I find her beautiful, strong, gentle, fierce, brilliant, powerful, amazing. To the point I want to be like her and that got me even more towards the idea of learning Pyrokinesis. Had some success to be honest, I couldn't really 'measure' myself because I always feel normal, but others who touched me asked if I fell in lava or something. Meaning, I absorb Fire effortlessly and it stays in me.
Shit, now I want to go back and practice Pyro lol.
That reminds me.. and sorry, I know I shouldn't be asking in a public forum, but.. you said in your first post in my Air topic that you'll "stick with your fire". Thought you were Air as well... so (unless you're Fire and I have misunderstood things, sorry if that's the case) why do you choose Fire if it's not your dominant Element?
(Sorry if this is an imbecile question, I tend to overthink things and come up with more questions of course.)
Thank You for your help though, I'm realizing things faster than ever lately.
I'll absorb Fire with more intention than I ever have and see what I feel.
HAIL SATAN!!!!