To the moderator or which ever of the clergy approves these

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I realised just now that I stated in a response to my immature rant that I accidentally pushed send. As I also just realised that I pushed resend, twice? Thanks to my own work in exercises taught to me by you, from our Father, Satan; self-awareness comes quickly. Although I do honestly have a bad memory.
Apparently, when I'm called-out on something, I immediately panic and spew the first lie, cover-up, that comes to mind. Forgetting about "...Friendly associations..." Its my family I want to be able to be honest with. Again, writing these, whether answered or not, seems to be a way for me to profitably think and figure things out. I will say this: I would love to have an older, educated brother or sister to be able to talk to in a way as to straighten my crap out. I say educated because it may taker a professional to have the patience to understand and by pass the shit moods I get into at times. I've gotten close to important issues before, when something in me does not want to let go, so I subconsciously try to avoid the issue, either by ending a relationship, starting a fight, ort stop going to see that person. This is also something that I just realised. I believe I've said plenty, and all that's left, is take it or leave it! Thank you so very much for listening.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
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[Allyson Ford]

I appreciate your apology. It does take a lot to come forward with our mistakes sometimes. Improving yourself is what Satan is about. But do not speak like that again if you want to continue improving. 
Hail Satan!

-Allyson Ford 

On Sep 2, 2011, at 2:59 PM, eremoslukos8@... wrote:

  I realised just now that I stated in a response to my immature rant that I accidentally pushed send. As I also just realised that I pushed resend, twice? Thanks to my own work in exercises taught to me by you, from our Father, Satan; self-awareness comes quickly. Although I do honestly have a bad memory.
Apparently, when I'm called-out on something, I immediately panic and spew the first lie, cover-up, that comes to mind. Forgetting about "...Friendly associations..." Its my family I want to be able to be honest with. Again, writing these, whether answered or not, seems to be a way for me to profitably think and figure things out. I will say this: I would love to have an older, educated brother or sister to be able to talk to in a way as to straighten my crap out. I say educated because it may taker a professional to have the patience to understand and by pass the shit moods I get into at times. I've gotten close to important issues before, when something in me does not want to let go, so I subconsciously try to avoid the issue, either by ending a relationship, starting a fight, ort stop going to see that person. This is also something that I just realised. I believe I've said plenty, and all that's left, is take it or leave it! Thank you so very much for listening.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T