Goldenwings
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Hi,
Recently i experienced a seeming bad event in life , i just was shocked, one little tear wanted to come down but was too little to do so it kept hanging in my eye , i was like detached from the body, pure witness, but witnessing in a very cold state , and staring at reality of life , i was seing life without any filter , just seing , watching good stuff and bad stuff and just witnessing.
After a day i got weird feeling in top of my head like if its bleeding i thought i should see a doctor, but whenever i touch my head its dry but in same time feeling like its bleeding like if there is a liquid there , it continued almost all day sometimes vanishing and sometimes coming back , when i asked chatgbt it said its related to crown chakra and that the bad event i encountred pushed me into the witness state i dont know how accurate is this, chatgbt told me i must stay witnessing in order to let trapped emotions process
i kept only witnessing, it felt like work in same time it doesnt make me tired, i kept being the witness all time , then i started thinking of suicide since its very weird to be a witness , the present moment became like forever , time dont pass quick, it was always here and now , and in same time my eyes started giving me burning feeling from time to time and they feel like they want to cry but i was witnessing all, sometimes body felt fear for no reason but i let it and just watched
my body was acting weird sometimes smiling then few seconds later wanting to cry, face was feeling very cold and heavy but i remained the witness untouched by all that since chatgbt told me thats the way the body process the trapped emotions. I continued like that for maybe 3 days or 4 , just witnessing , when i saw my face in mirror my eyes looked like the way osho eyes loooked, sleepy yet alert , directly after seing my eyes i remembred osho since he had the same gaze
i continued being the witness, i started even hearing my breath almost all the time , i also got a lot of time feelings of something moving in my solar plexus area, like a warm thing moving, i think it was energy moving , but i didnt interfer i kept being the witness, a day or more later i started feeling my heart, it was sooo warm sooooo warm , and sometiles i felt like if its contracting , like if its squeezed by somebody, i immediatly massaged it
It lowered the feeling but i kept feeling my heart warm almost all time, then a day or more later i started feeling my third eye click a lot and i felt pressure in it but i remained the witness . At this point i started being fearful since before i used to use techniques for manifestation like visualisation , affirmations , feeling grateful etc, but during that time i was doing none, i was just being aware and letting my body do whatever it wants,
so going to tzchnique means dropping the state, and thats what i did. Now i can go into that state again but i dont trust it i dont know if its good for manifesting i dont know how to benefit from that state, and also i can go into to types of that state, one where i feel the awareness locatzd in back top of my head , behind eyes, and second where awareness is just is , with no location. I still can access those two states.
Can someone please tell me of what use they are , and how to combine them with other techniques ,and why i was feeling my heart and pineal gland and solar plexus too much doing that state, i forgot to mention one thing that happened to me that frightned me, i was siting to eat and was in that state ( during the one streak i talked about in that text)
i was looking at my phone i opened an osho video after seing his gaze it reminded me of mine and of the state i was in and instantly everything around the phone started to be white-ish like clouds like if i am going to faint , i immediatly stood up and distracted my mind since i felt i was just about to enter some intense thing.
Thanks a lot in advance for your answers.
Recently i experienced a seeming bad event in life , i just was shocked, one little tear wanted to come down but was too little to do so it kept hanging in my eye , i was like detached from the body, pure witness, but witnessing in a very cold state , and staring at reality of life , i was seing life without any filter , just seing , watching good stuff and bad stuff and just witnessing.
After a day i got weird feeling in top of my head like if its bleeding i thought i should see a doctor, but whenever i touch my head its dry but in same time feeling like its bleeding like if there is a liquid there , it continued almost all day sometimes vanishing and sometimes coming back , when i asked chatgbt it said its related to crown chakra and that the bad event i encountred pushed me into the witness state i dont know how accurate is this, chatgbt told me i must stay witnessing in order to let trapped emotions process
i kept only witnessing, it felt like work in same time it doesnt make me tired, i kept being the witness all time , then i started thinking of suicide since its very weird to be a witness , the present moment became like forever , time dont pass quick, it was always here and now , and in same time my eyes started giving me burning feeling from time to time and they feel like they want to cry but i was witnessing all, sometimes body felt fear for no reason but i let it and just watched
my body was acting weird sometimes smiling then few seconds later wanting to cry, face was feeling very cold and heavy but i remained the witness untouched by all that since chatgbt told me thats the way the body process the trapped emotions. I continued like that for maybe 3 days or 4 , just witnessing , when i saw my face in mirror my eyes looked like the way osho eyes loooked, sleepy yet alert , directly after seing my eyes i remembred osho since he had the same gaze
i continued being the witness, i started even hearing my breath almost all the time , i also got a lot of time feelings of something moving in my solar plexus area, like a warm thing moving, i think it was energy moving , but i didnt interfer i kept being the witness, a day or more later i started feeling my heart, it was sooo warm sooooo warm , and sometiles i felt like if its contracting , like if its squeezed by somebody, i immediatly massaged it
It lowered the feeling but i kept feeling my heart warm almost all time, then a day or more later i started feeling my third eye click a lot and i felt pressure in it but i remained the witness . At this point i started being fearful since before i used to use techniques for manifestation like visualisation , affirmations , feeling grateful etc, but during that time i was doing none, i was just being aware and letting my body do whatever it wants,
so going to tzchnique means dropping the state, and thats what i did. Now i can go into that state again but i dont trust it i dont know if its good for manifesting i dont know how to benefit from that state, and also i can go into to types of that state, one where i feel the awareness locatzd in back top of my head , behind eyes, and second where awareness is just is , with no location. I still can access those two states.
Can someone please tell me of what use they are , and how to combine them with other techniques ,and why i was feeling my heart and pineal gland and solar plexus too much doing that state, i forgot to mention one thing that happened to me that frightned me, i was siting to eat and was in that state ( during the one streak i talked about in that text)
i was looking at my phone i opened an osho video after seing his gaze it reminded me of mine and of the state i was in and instantly everything around the phone started to be white-ish like clouds like if i am going to faint , i immediatly stood up and distracted my mind since i felt i was just about to enter some intense thing.
Thanks a lot in advance for your answers.
