I am writing this letter because this is an issue that is very close to my heart. My father physically abused me as a child through the firm christian belief that if a child does not adhere to a fathers discipline he/she must be beaten (this is written in the christian bible). Now, I am a psychologist and in psychology we are taught that when someone abuses he/she is likely to become an abuser unless a way is found to heal the abuse. My father’s own father abused him as a child as I have recently found out. These are just some of the long-term effect the abuse had on me: · I left my parental home at the age of 27 when I finished my studies at University. The last time my father and older brother beat me to a pulp was at the age of 27. · My older brother, who learnt by my father’s example became a wife-beater.
· I came out of the closet at the age of 30 after which I enter two gay relationships, the first one ends in me losing my home, the second one ends in me living with HIV.
· In my career I take on challenging jobs in which I am abused by my superior’s ending up with me living with depression and currently being unemployed mainly because the self-confidence that I gain from success ends up in a mechanism of self-doubt in my abilities every single time I get close to reaching senior management.
· I become a recreational drug user at the age of 19 and go back and forth with drug-abuse my entire adult life ending in me being addicted to crystal meth.
· I become sexually promiscuous at the age of 30.
· I end up contracting HIV from my partner due to deliberately not using protection, I wanted to die.
· I almost end up spiritually dying when one night Satan comes to me in person when I say the following words into the air: I do not believe in love anymore or in any god (I was a reborne Christian). He asks me to worship Him and I say yes.
Needless to say Satan and Lilith have been with me ever since and I am no longer a drug addict nor do I take abuse from anyone. In my walk (almost 3 years now) with them they have cleaned me of all the self-hatred and self-fulfilling prophecies that comes with an ingrained belief that you are a “fuck-up” as my earthly father used to call me.
Taking this topic further into more difficult areas. There is a very strong Satanic movement out there that promote one entering into a master/slave relationship in Satanism where you are required to sign a slave contract with a master. This person then gains access to your finances, energy and body, even going so far as to force you to clean their house. Needless to say I have told them all to go the heaven. I have read and experienced countless times of Satanists that are into BDSM and the like and I have to use Satan’s words here “You do not bow before anyone and you are a slave to no one, not even me.” Anyone that has been in His presence will recap His absolute love and respect when He speaks to a human being. I want to venture further here… I have recently read a post of how a so-called master gets energy from his/her slaves when beating them up/whipping them. This is an atrocity!!! Who the fuck gives anyone the right to beat another child of Satan or force them into some kind of Satanic ritual cult situation where they use other human beings as altars for their perversion, victimizing people that make themselves vulnerable when they come to Satan and trusting. This is nothing more than abuse and Satan will and has (as has been the case with me) destroyed entire so-called Satanic temples that condone and promote this crap. Test every single person before trusting them and be careful, even a highly educated person like me fell victim to their schemes ending me in a situation where I am unemployed and stripped of all my worldly possessions. They even manipulated over ZAR 50 000 out of me the last time I felt pity for them when Satan went for their jugular’s. BE CAREFUL!!!
· I came out of the closet at the age of 30 after which I enter two gay relationships, the first one ends in me losing my home, the second one ends in me living with HIV.
· In my career I take on challenging jobs in which I am abused by my superior’s ending up with me living with depression and currently being unemployed mainly because the self-confidence that I gain from success ends up in a mechanism of self-doubt in my abilities every single time I get close to reaching senior management.
· I become a recreational drug user at the age of 19 and go back and forth with drug-abuse my entire adult life ending in me being addicted to crystal meth.
· I become sexually promiscuous at the age of 30.
· I end up contracting HIV from my partner due to deliberately not using protection, I wanted to die.
· I almost end up spiritually dying when one night Satan comes to me in person when I say the following words into the air: I do not believe in love anymore or in any god (I was a reborne Christian). He asks me to worship Him and I say yes.
Needless to say Satan and Lilith have been with me ever since and I am no longer a drug addict nor do I take abuse from anyone. In my walk (almost 3 years now) with them they have cleaned me of all the self-hatred and self-fulfilling prophecies that comes with an ingrained belief that you are a “fuck-up” as my earthly father used to call me.
Taking this topic further into more difficult areas. There is a very strong Satanic movement out there that promote one entering into a master/slave relationship in Satanism where you are required to sign a slave contract with a master. This person then gains access to your finances, energy and body, even going so far as to force you to clean their house. Needless to say I have told them all to go the heaven. I have read and experienced countless times of Satanists that are into BDSM and the like and I have to use Satan’s words here “You do not bow before anyone and you are a slave to no one, not even me.” Anyone that has been in His presence will recap His absolute love and respect when He speaks to a human being. I want to venture further here… I have recently read a post of how a so-called master gets energy from his/her slaves when beating them up/whipping them. This is an atrocity!!! Who the fuck gives anyone the right to beat another child of Satan or force them into some kind of Satanic ritual cult situation where they use other human beings as altars for their perversion, victimizing people that make themselves vulnerable when they come to Satan and trusting. This is nothing more than abuse and Satan will and has (as has been the case with me) destroyed entire so-called Satanic temples that condone and promote this crap. Test every single person before trusting them and be careful, even a highly educated person like me fell victim to their schemes ending me in a situation where I am unemployed and stripped of all my worldly possessions. They even manipulated over ZAR 50 000 out of me the last time I felt pity for them when Satan went for their jugular’s. BE CAREFUL!!!
