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[Joyveer Ghosh]

Hello and lots of love and respect My name is Joyveer Ghosh. I have dedicated my soul to our father and friend twice. Once i did but i wasnt confident about my beleif. The second time i did not plan myself but it just happened and was very much contended. All of the sigils and worshiping material i myself have painted and made. I started with father's petagram and then sigil of focalor, amdusias and yes the love of my life ASTROTH. I love her so much. My family is quite liberal about all the beleifs but the way xians have potrayed occult pratices, they sometimes feel scared of my beleifs and my ritualistic practices as i used to involve the whole house for my ritualistic practices. After few weeks they finally protested and shared their discomfort with me. I do accept that my meditation used to be deep and better when i used to indulge into smoking up and then used to meditate. After sometime i realized that i actually do not need to smoke as now i feel high with power meditation, though the intensity matters but i am working on it.  Now i have my seperate small and cozy worship corner as i really love to meditate in front of our father and the beautifull astaroth. I do accept that to take out the fear of supernatural occurances are taking time but slowly it is vanishing away and my deep love which is within is becoming stronger and comforting. I am always away from obstacles or problems, my singing and the love for music has improved drastically. My father has started taking me in a different manner as if i am lost and how can he save me. Due to such parental issues i have decided to go undercover about my ritualistic meditations and potray myself as a very normal person who moves along with the herd. The only guilt i have in my mind is how to break the chain of karma(which has developed as a fear in my mind because of hinduism laws from the The Bhagvad Gita) and i had started worshiping father LUCIFER and used to love it. but in recent times i have developed a great love for ASTAROTH which also involves immese sensuality and sexualism. A lot of times while taking out the life force ive felt as if she was with me. I dont see my life force as anything weird but i regularly intake it and really love the feeling. While sleeping i put her frame besides me and love her as i have covered the frame with a beatifull red and green stole which looks stunning on her. My only fear Sir is that the day i fully wish her or father Satan to arrive in front of me. How will it be, are there any chances that i might be shocked or afraid of it. Recently when i had just got up meditating on the sigil of astaroth a brown lizard passed urine on my left had fingers and I quickly washed it away as i got scared. The feeling that father or astaroth is in me is good and comforting but the feeling of seeing their precense in front xcites and also makes me nervous. I really need to take out this fear and merge with mighty demons just as friends and not the way people potray them as. Thank you so much that i could finally share my feelings with a true SATAN and it feels great that the religion is spreading widely and becoming stronger with true knowledge. LUV U and Take care SIR, HAIL SATAN and regards to him, Loads and infinite thanks to ASTAROTH. I love her to core of my heart and i am always gonna be with her. She is just.....i dunno i really cant xpress the love and the strong feelings i have for her.
WHEN I MEDITATE, MY RAVENS JOIN ME, FOR THEY KNOW THAT I MEDITATE TO SUMMON THE MIGHTY WARRIOR, I CONCENTRATE ON THE LEAVES TO MAKE THE STORM COME, I VIBRATE WID MY HYMS AS MAA KUNDALINI UNCOILS TO REACH OUT ITS SHIVA,  I KEEP ON CHANTING, I KEEP ON THROWING THE FIRE GRAILS OF LUCIFER TO CALL UPON D NATURE TO BEND THY KNEES BEFORE  "THE KING!" HAIL SATANA.