Just wanted to thank everyone who has been so welcomeing. I'm very happy to know that I have impressed some of you for being a newbie lol. It's always a great feeling to know that your doing something right. Also I have a question thats been on my mind since last night. You see, my younger sister is a xtian, my mom is one too, as well as quite a few of my friends (one of the downsides to being raised in the middle of the fucking bible belt). I can't turn my back on my family or my friends that I hold very dear, just because they are ignorant. I'm not saying thats what Satan is going to ask me to do or anything, it's just I don't want to alienate them. I do recall reading that I should not share the fact of my Spiritual Satanism with the enemy. However I am about to be 22, and going through a very hard and low time in my life right now and I am now back at living with my mother. I don't have alot of time with no distractions because my mom owns an ankle biter dog and a schizo cat. Once I'm in my own place again, it will be much easier and will allow me to be freer. Anyway, I guess I'm asking, once I make my pledge (and even starting now) would it be wrong or disrespectful to Father Lucifer or His Demons if I keep this to myself and just let them find out on their own eventually, even if it takes years before they realize of my Spiritual Satanism? Obviously people will eventually find out because of how I will decorate my room, and the things I will keep in my house, and the tattoo's I'll be getting, and all that stuff. I just fear that I will lose my family and friends if this comes out. Mainly because I know I live in the middle of the fucking bible belt (Which sucks major donkey dick if you ask me) but also because I know three of my friends are very "devout xtians" and my sister has been a big part of her church for a long time. I don't even know if I'm making any sense, but if anyone can decipher what I'm trying my best to ask and say, please lend me some guidance on how to deal and cope with this fear.