First of all, affirmations DO work. If you keep repeating to yourself that ''everything is crap'' then so it shall be. the stronger you are the more potently they will work. Make sure you're doing your meditations and AoP. They really do help a lot with depression and such.
YOU ARE A SATANIST... You literally have the potential power to bring just about anything into your life. Make your life into anything you want. Happiness, love, whatever you wish. Just keep going, keep meditating and do workings to better your situation. Things will work out, believe me
Secondly (and this may sound a bit... let's say morbid, I guess? If 'morbid' is the right word?)
Let's say this depression... !Keep in mind never to own it! Don't every say ''YOUR'' depression, sickness etc.
Anyway...
Let's say you off yourself now.. You will then (if dedicated) be taken to hell where you'll be safe until you reincarnate. Now, you will be born again in a while... Then the depression comes back again... You off yourself again, be taken to hell and then born again in time. Rinse and repeat. Death really is worthless and meaningless to a satanist. A Waste of time. You could keep killing yourself over and over and over again, destroying your natal chart in the process, no doubt. Making it worse each go 'round
Or...
Or, you could say: ''Enough!'' and take you life into your on hands. Stop letting petty emotions like sadness and depression stop you.. I've learned from my on long experience that a person is sad/depressed AS LONG AS THEY WANT TO BE. You could cure this depression in a day, hell in a few hours if we're being realistic. In the end you are sad because YOU WANT to be sad. Even if it is deep in the subconscious. And it can be fixed like switching on the lights. You just have to be willful enough.
Sadness, like all things negative, can be banished if you are willful enough AND YOU ARE! Or, you know... you could kill yourself, be born again, kill yourself, born again. And go through exactly the same thing as right now and you wouldn't even know it... Just say ''enough'' and make change. Satanists are the only people with the power to do so.
I know it may not seem like it, but I know depression, I know what it's like. That feeling like it's looming over you, I know sadness.. as does every satanist, in their own way. Some worse then others. But that doesn't matter, not really. It doesn't matter that some have it easier/harder than others. What matters is YOU. That *you* get through this, because when you do.. You will feel power like nothing else in this world. But you have to want to, even if that means you have to force yourself to want to..
And to be blunt here.. No amount of posts like yours will fix the situation. These questions you have, because in the end.. The only thing people in these groups can provide is moral support and meditation advice. You have to make the choice to keep going. You have to pick yourself up from the ground. And you will. Crying is pointless, sadness is pointless, depression is pointless. Live for yourself, not for others. And believe me I KNOW that that is hard. But it is just as hard as you make it..
In short - Killing yourself is pointless, because then you'll just be born again and go through this aaaaaall over again. You have to make the decision to stop that.
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[email protected], <way_seeker666@... wrote :
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
