What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
Suicide
Way_Seeker66611 min to read
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends, counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends, counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
How about you ask him?If you feel like shit then tell him, ask if he can help you, or your GD.If you can't contact him with telepathy use a Ouija Board, if you can't use one alone then get someone to help you and if you don't feel comfortable saying it out loud tell Satan you want to say it in your mind and he will answer you through the board or telepathy (Telepathy is easier that way). If he talks through the board than the persons helping you will only get one side of the conversation.
From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
To:
Sent: Wed, 29 September, 2010 8:00:15 PM
Subject: Suicide
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
How about you ask him?If you feel like shit then tell him, ask if he can help you, or your GD.If you can't contact him with telepathy use a Ouija Board, if you can't use one alone then get someone to help you and if you don't feel comfortable saying it out loud tell Satan you want to say it in your mind and he will answer you through the board or telepathy (Telepathy is easier that way). If he talks through the board than the persons helping you will only get one side of the conversation.
From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
To:
Sent: Wed, 29 September, 2010 8:00:15 PM
Subject: Suicide
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
I asked Father for help with the thoughts and got it. You might wanna ask for some help as well
Well, suicide ain't good. It kinda meant you gave up. You should never give up, it shows the enemy that your weak.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
I asked Father for help with the thoughts and got it. You might wanna ask for some help as well
Well, suicide ain't good. It kinda meant you gave up. You should never give up, it shows the enemy that your weak.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
What? He would be very disappointed in you. The enemy wants us to give up and end it all. Don't consider a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Meditation is the key here, open and clean your Heart Chakra, clean your aura, breathe in the solar energy into your soul, masturbate. You don't want to throw it all away without a excellent reason. Life is worth living, ask Father Satan for help, ask your Guardian for help too. If you want to you can pvt email me and I'll help you.
From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 5:00:15 AM
Subject: Suicide
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
What? He would be very disappointed in you. The enemy wants us to give up and end it all. Don't consider a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Meditation is the key here, open and clean your Heart Chakra, clean your aura, breathe in the solar energy into your soul, masturbate. You don't want to throw it all away without a excellent reason. Life is worth living, ask Father Satan for help, ask your Guardian for help too. If you want to you can pvt email me and I'll help you.
From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 5:00:15 AM
Subject: Suicide
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
ive learned over my 19 years here that killing yourself isnt the answer when your life falls apart..i should know my life sucked from the time i was 8 till about 2 years ago for reasons id rather not give out but ill give afew examples, my mother and father devorced when i was 8 and i moved around the state for most of my teenage life and the other example was 3years after my mother and father got divorced my father abandoned me and my family...i thought about killing myself but for some reason could never do it...i just thank the gods i didnt have the willpower i do now back then or i wouldve. the point of me ranting on like this is this, just a year ago my father came back into my life and my life has been straightening out i feel happier now than i can ever remember feeling...sorry ranting again. short version push through and keep your faith strong and youll be just fine.
From: Pyramid Star <agentofsatanswill@...
To:
Sent: Thu, September 30, 2010 6:27:36 AM
Subject: Re: Suicide
What? He would be very disappointed in you. The enemy wants us to give up and end it all. Don't consider a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Meditation is the key here, open and clean your Heart Chakra, clean your aura, breathe in the solar energy into your soul, masturbate. You don't want to throw it all away without a excellent reason. Life is worth living, ask Father Satan for help, ask your Guardian for help too. If you want to you can pvt email me and I'll help you.
From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 5:00:15 AM
Subject: Suicide
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
ive learned over my 19 years here that killing yourself isnt the answer when your life falls apart..i should know my life sucked from the time i was 8 till about 2 years ago for reasons id rather not give out but ill give afew examples, my mother and father devorced when i was 8 and i moved around the state for most of my teenage life and the other example was 3years after my mother and father got divorced my father abandoned me and my family...i thought about killing myself but for some reason could never do it...i just thank the gods i didnt have the willpower i do now back then or i wouldve. the point of me ranting on like this is this, just a year ago my father came back into my life and my life has been straightening out i feel happier now than i can ever remember feeling...sorry ranting again. short version push through and keep your faith strong and youll be just fine.
From: Pyramid Star <agentofsatanswill@...
To:
Sent: Thu, September 30, 2010 6:27:36 AM
Subject: Re: Suicide
What? He would be very disappointed in you. The enemy wants us to give up and end it all. Don't consider a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Meditation is the key here, open and clean your Heart Chakra, clean your aura, breathe in the solar energy into your soul, masturbate. You don't want to throw it all away without a excellent reason. Life is worth living, ask Father Satan for help, ask your Guardian for help too. If you want to you can pvt email me and I'll help you.
From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 5:00:15 AM
Subject: Suicide
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
My answer to your suicide problems since I have 16 years of suicidal tendancies under my belt is, get the fuck over yourself, get out of the illusion of self worthlessness, the human mind is what causes this it's a matter of turning a hypothetical light switch off and on, Life is what you make of it say your worthless, then you are say you worthful then you are, you ultimatly are the only one that matters to yourself, so quit being a bitch people fuck up why would you go 24 years and tap out now you're just starting round two. you know you only made this message because you really do not want to off yourself, your too scared, be a fuckin warrior fight through the bullshit. fucking pansy
From: sillynut <asamoahflorence@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 7:14:08 PM
Subject: Re: Suicide
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends, counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
My answer to your suicide problems since I have 16 years of suicidal tendancies under my belt is, get the fuck over yourself, get out of the illusion of self worthlessness, the human mind is what causes this it's a matter of turning a hypothetical light switch off and on, Life is what you make of it say your worthless, then you are say you worthful then you are, you ultimatly are the only one that matters to yourself, so quit being a bitch people fuck up why would you go 24 years and tap out now you're just starting round two. you know you only made this message because you really do not want to off yourself, your too scared, be a fuckin warrior fight through the bullshit. fucking pansy
From: sillynut <asamoahflorence@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 7:14:08 PM
Subject: Re: Suicide
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends, counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
Please friend, rethink your situation. Your life is a a gift from Satan, for the energy that flows through you is his.
The trials and tribulations you will experience in your life are what cause you to grow. Please think of this as a test. Our enemies are always focussing their energy against us, causing many of us pain, and sorrow.
I ask that you meditate, ask Father Satan and your guardian demon for assistance. You may of lost something dear to you, but NEVER give up. You always have friends and allies, in Father Satans name.
Hail Satan!
J. Watar
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
Please friend, rethink your situation. Your life is a a gift from Satan, for the energy that flows through you is his.
The trials and tribulations you will experience in your life are what cause you to grow. Please think of this as a test. Our enemies are always focussing their energy against us, causing many of us pain, and sorrow.
I ask that you meditate, ask Father Satan and your guardian demon for assistance. You may of lost something dear to you, but NEVER give up. You always have friends and allies, in Father Satans name.
Hail Satan!
J. Watar
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
Well the fact is you be stuck on repeat as the conditions that caused you to kill yourself in this life will carry over imprinted onto your soul in life after life. So the best solution is to keep with a daily Power meditational practice and clear the issues or karma's out of your being in this life. And evolve in general to a level of excellent living here and now. And the troubles of the past will no longer be felt or remembered it all will be as distant dream.
From: Watar <thetruth1252@...
To:
Sent: Thu, September 30, 2010 3:43:13 PM
Subject: Re: Suicide
Please friend, rethink your situation. Your life is a a gift from Satan, for the energy that flows through you is his.
The trials and tribulations you will experience in your life are what cause you to grow. Please think of this as a test. Our enemies are always focussing their energy against us, causing many of us pain, and sorrow.
I ask that you meditate, ask Father Satan and your guardian demon for assistance. You may of lost something dear to you, but NEVER give up. You always have friends and allies, in Father Satans name.
Hail Satan!
J. Watar
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
Well the fact is you be stuck on repeat as the conditions that caused you to kill yourself in this life will carry over imprinted onto your soul in life after life. So the best solution is to keep with a daily Power meditational practice and clear the issues or karma's out of your being in this life. And evolve in general to a level of excellent living here and now. And the troubles of the past will no longer be felt or remembered it all will be as distant dream.
From: Watar <thetruth1252@...
To:
Sent: Thu, September 30, 2010 3:43:13 PM
Subject: Re: Suicide
Please friend, rethink your situation. Your life is a a gift from Satan, for the energy that flows through you is his.
The trials and tribulations you will experience in your life are what cause you to grow. Please think of this as a test. Our enemies are always focussing their energy against us, causing many of us pain, and sorrow.
I ask that you meditate, ask Father Satan and your guardian demon for assistance. You may of lost something dear to you, but NEVER give up. You always have friends and allies, in Father Satans name.
Hail Satan!
J. Watar
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
You are so right man. I'm too scared and was just being a little bitch ass pussy! I'm getting help for all this shit now and I'm determined to sort it out. Thanks to everyone else who replied and my sincere apollogies for this utter BULLSHIT!
Father Satan has so graciously provided a way through this, even though I have fucked things up really badly. I'll beat this.
See you guys in a couple months..
--- In , Shayne Willis <shayne.willis@... wrote:
My answer to your suicide problems since I have 16 years of suicidal tendancies
under my belt is, get the fuck over yourself, get out of the illusion of self
worthlessness, the human mind is what causes this it's a matter of turning a
hypothetical light switch off and on, Life is what you make of it say your
worthless, then you are say you worthful then you are, you ultimatly are the
only one that matters to yourself, so quit being a bitch people fuck up why
would you go 24 years and tap out now you're just starting round two. you know
you only made this message because you really do not want to off yourself, your
too scared, be a fuckin warrior fight through the bullshit. fucking pansy
________________________________
From: sillynut <asamoahflorence@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 7:14:08 PM
Subject: Re: Suicide
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes
ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends,
counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own
life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just
lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish
off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
You are so right man. I'm too scared and was just being a little bitch ass pussy! I'm getting help for all this shit now and I'm determined to sort it out. Thanks to everyone else who replied and my sincere apollogies for this utter BULLSHIT!
Father Satan has so graciously provided a way through this, even though I have fucked things up really badly. I'll beat this.
See you guys in a couple months..
--- In , Shayne Willis <shayne.willis@... wrote:
My answer to your suicide problems since I have 16 years of suicidal tendancies
under my belt is, get the fuck over yourself, get out of the illusion of self
worthlessness, the human mind is what causes this it's a matter of turning a
hypothetical light switch off and on, Life is what you make of it say your
worthless, then you are say you worthful then you are, you ultimatly are the
only one that matters to yourself, so quit being a bitch people fuck up why
would you go 24 years and tap out now you're just starting round two. you know
you only made this message because you really do not want to off yourself, your
too scared, be a fuckin warrior fight through the bullshit. fucking pansy
________________________________
From: sillynut <asamoahflorence@...
To:
Sent: Wed, September 29, 2010 7:14:08 PM
Subject: Re: Suicide
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes
ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends,
counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own
life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just
lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish
off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
Sorry I'm late responding. I was in the same boat as you once. After asking Father what to do, I look at it as starting over in his name. Do not give up hope. For Father will lead you down the right path. Starting over has it benefits.
Hail Satan
On Wed, Sep 29, 2010 at 6:00 AM, Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
Sorry I'm late responding. I was in the same boat as you once. After asking Father what to do, I look at it as starting over in his name. Do not give up hope. For Father will lead you down the right path. Starting over has it benefits.
Hail Satan
On Wed, Sep 29, 2010 at 6:00 AM, Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
@Way_Seeker666,
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , Melissa York <deetzkid@... wrote:
Way_Seeker,
WTF, man, seriously. Satanist or not, killing yourself is not the way out of your problem, whatever you think it is. I'll be online tomarrow Sunday, if you need someone to talk to, e-mail me at deetzkid@... I can't promise an answer, but it may help to have someone else listen to you. If not me, find someone to talk to, a teacher or someone you trust. I agree with sillynut, this one scared the crap out of me...
--- On Wed, 9/29/10, sillynut <asamoahflorence@... wrote:
From: sillynut <asamoahflorence@...
Subject: Re: Suicide
To:
Date: Wednesday, September 29, 2010, 10:14 PM
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omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends, counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
@Way_Seeker666,
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , Melissa York <deetzkid@... wrote:
Way_Seeker,
WTF, man, seriously. Satanist or not, killing yourself is not the way out of your problem, whatever you think it is. I'll be online tomarrow Sunday, if you need someone to talk to, e-mail me at deetzkid@... I can't promise an answer, but it may help to have someone else listen to you. If not me, find someone to talk to, a teacher or someone you trust. I agree with sillynut, this one scared the crap out of me...
--- On Wed, 9/29/10, sillynut <asamoahflorence@... wrote:
From: sillynut <asamoahflorence@...
Subject: Re: Suicide
To:
Date: Wednesday, September 29, 2010, 10:14 PM
Â
omg ! dats terrible. taking one's own life is prbably one of the worst crimes ones cud think of. have u tried talkin to anyone at all.?? like family, friends, counsellors, etc??? wat wud u av done thats so bad tht u want to take ur own life?? ur message scared the hell out of me.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
I can attest to the same thing that shereewarne just said. Last xmas I felt so alone, some call it the Absinthe, I think its all the fake smiles, lies and gluttony that caused it. I proclaimed that "if god exists they will take me to a place where people understand me" and cut myself deep. Not deep enough apparently. I'm still here, I am now thankful for.
When I 1st found my man and we had our 1st conversation about Satan I asked him how he found him and he said that when he tried to kill himself father saved him and wouldn't let him bleed. Let me honestly tell you that without father HE WOULD BE DEAD. Anyone who sees his scars can see that. They are long and wide, straight down his forearm. More than I can count.
Father wouldn't dislike you if you try, but if he doesn't want it to happen it won't.
I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am that I have done all that I have in the last year, but this life is the tortuous place that people should fear, and if we get through it and fight for father Satan we will be rewarded.
Suicidal thoughts occur on a daily for me, but there is a reason I am able to send this message to you all.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL KHIL!
Hail the Gods of Elysium!!!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "shereewarne" <shereewarne@... Sender: Date: Mon, 04 Oct 2010 11:32:25 -0000To: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Suicide
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
I can attest to the same thing that shereewarne just said. Last xmas I felt so alone, some call it the Absinthe, I think its all the fake smiles, lies and gluttony that caused it. I proclaimed that "if god exists they will take me to a place where people understand me" and cut myself deep. Not deep enough apparently. I'm still here, I am now thankful for.
When I 1st found my man and we had our 1st conversation about Satan I asked him how he found him and he said that when he tried to kill himself father saved him and wouldn't let him bleed. Let me honestly tell you that without father HE WOULD BE DEAD. Anyone who sees his scars can see that. They are long and wide, straight down his forearm. More than I can count.
Father wouldn't dislike you if you try, but if he doesn't want it to happen it won't.
I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am that I have done all that I have in the last year, but this life is the tortuous place that people should fear, and if we get through it and fight for father Satan we will be rewarded.
Suicidal thoughts occur on a daily for me, but there is a reason I am able to send this message to you all.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL KHIL!
Hail the Gods of Elysium!!!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "shereewarne" <shereewarne@... Sender: Date: Mon, 04 Oct 2010 11:32:25 -0000To: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Suicide
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
i dont mean any offense but maybe u need some kind of antidepressant?
--- In , "shereewarne" <shereewarne@... wrote:
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@ wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
i dont mean any offense but maybe u need some kind of antidepressant?
--- In , "shereewarne" <shereewarne@... wrote:
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@ wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
missy i totally agree with you, Father decides when our time comes because quite simply HE IS OUR FATHER. we that have found him have quite a bright future in front of us...its only question of time
HAIL SATAN!
Da: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
A:
Inviato: Mar 5 ottobre 2010, 12:58:15
Oggetto: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Suicide
I can attest to the same thing that shereewarne just said. Last xmas I felt so alone, some call it the Absinthe, I think its all the fake smiles, lies and gluttony that caused it. I proclaimed that "if god exists they will take me to a place where people understand me" and cut myself deep. Not deep enough apparently. I'm still here, I am now thankful for.
When I 1st found my man and we had our 1st conversation about Satan I asked him how he found him and he said that when he tried to kill himself father saved him and wouldn't let him bleed. Let me honestly tell you that without father HE WOULD BE DEAD. Anyone who sees his scars can see that. They are long and wide, straight down his forearm. More than I can count.
Father wouldn't dislike you if you try, but if he doesn't want it to happen it won't.
I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am that I have done all that I have in the last year, but this life is the tortuous place that people should fear, and if we get through it and fight for father Satan we will be rewarded.
Suicidal thoughts occur on a daily for me, but there is a reason I am able to send this message to you all.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL KHIL!
Hail the Gods of Elysium!!!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "shereewarne" <shereewarne@... Sender: Date: Mon, 04 Oct 2010 11:32:25 -0000 To: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Suicide
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.
0
missy i totally agree with you, Father decides when our time comes because quite simply HE IS OUR FATHER. we that have found him have quite a bright future in front of us...its only question of time
HAIL SATAN!
Da: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
A:
Inviato: Mar 5 ottobre 2010, 12:58:15
Oggetto: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Suicide
I can attest to the same thing that shereewarne just said. Last xmas I felt so alone, some call it the Absinthe, I think its all the fake smiles, lies and gluttony that caused it. I proclaimed that "if god exists they will take me to a place where people understand me" and cut myself deep. Not deep enough apparently. I'm still here, I am now thankful for.
When I 1st found my man and we had our 1st conversation about Satan I asked him how he found him and he said that when he tried to kill himself father saved him and wouldn't let him bleed. Let me honestly tell you that without father HE WOULD BE DEAD. Anyone who sees his scars can see that. They are long and wide, straight down his forearm. More than I can count.
Father wouldn't dislike you if you try, but if he doesn't want it to happen it won't.
I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am that I have done all that I have in the last year, but this life is the tortuous place that people should fear, and if we get through it and fight for father Satan we will be rewarded.
Suicidal thoughts occur on a daily for me, but there is a reason I am able to send this message to you all.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL KHIL!
Hail the Gods of Elysium!!!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "shereewarne" <shereewarne@... Sender: Date: Mon, 04 Oct 2010 11:32:25 -0000 To: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Suicide
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.